My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness is a memoir written by Kabi Nagata. Her story begins with dropping out of university and ends with a glimmer of hope after a decade of part-time jobs, existential angst, mental illness and sexual frustration. It is mostly a sad story, but told in a way that makes much of it funny and relatable.
Nagata is a deadpan narrator who uses irony and caricature to add humour to her often morbid observations. She doesn't overdo it, though. There are powerful moments of sober reflection and any reader is likely to recognize some of Nagata's thoughts as their own, since the scope
of her problems is (unfortunately) so wide. She's a sympathetic character and easy to root for.
Unless you really don't like memoir or the color pink, My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness is worth a try.
So much about this really hit home for me. It's kind of amazing how two people, brought up on opposite sides of the globe, could have an almost identical experience when it comes to identity, sexuality, and mental health... Having said that, I think even if you are straight and/or a man, there's still a lot of enjoyment to be taken from this humble little volume.
First and foremost: though I know many of you will find other means of reading this story (*wink*), I still feel it's worth mentioning for anyone contemplating buying the physical release that Seven Seas did a fantastic job with
this printing! It looks and feels good. Thick, quality paper, crisp and clear print, etc.
But back to my previous point.
Though I feel a good chunk of this manga's audience will be lesbian/bi women and those with mental health issues, I think it's a good read for anyone who fits neither category. The art style is adorable, full of expression and life and she does an excellent job at creating diverse-looking characters so the narrative never gets even mildly confusing! On top of that, it's a good look into many social aspects of Japanese life: how their society deals with mental health, of course, but also more broadly relateable topics such as the quest for love and understanding, the struggle of living up to your parents' expectations, finding a job and the general hardships of entering adulthood.
Another aspect I find deeply fascinating, is that her way of living during this period of her life could be defined as an almost hikikomori lifestyle. So I would say you also get some insight into that aspect of Japanese culture to some degree!
Really, despite its rather dark and dreary subject matter, Nagata does well to emphasize the importance of self love. This is definitely the story of a fighter and not a quitter, so you don't need to worry about coming out of it feeling worse than before! I've only owned this manga for a week and I've already read it twice, because it actually feels like a very uplifting read to me, despite being so uncomfortable (for me, it feels like a mirror is being held up in front of me at many points, haha).
There's still so much more I could say about this manga! Instead I'll end it here with a short summary: 10/10, and I hope and I pray that Seven Seas also decides to release her sequel manga!
This piece is a beautiful, non-fiction, autobiographical manga by a woman who must learn how to respect and care for herself, and leave her rut of self-loathing, poor eating habits, crippling anxiety and depression, self harm and suicidal thoughts. The crux of all these problems and how she must overcome them is an interaction with a lesbian prostitute.
Story - 9
This woman has lived one goddamned interesting life. While not for everyone - it's possibly the most subjective story I've ever read - it can be truly life-changing if you find yourself able to connect and relate to the writer and her struggles. It captures mental
health in a way rarely seen, and terrifically accurate from a victim's standpoint, and can be either a horrific view into the mind of a victim, or for a victim reader can be a life-changing explanation for the mess going on in one's mind. Viewing the author's growth as a person able to live a happy, healthy life is just as wonderful, being both deeply inspiring and a literary payoff for the suffering the reader sees her go through earlier. Overall, a fantastic insight to mental health and just a plain interesting biography.
Art - 8
While remarkably simple, the art is a joy to look at. The - albeit small - palette is very pleasing, and the chibi aesthetic the artist uses can really help the reader through some of the more emotionally taxing portions of this - admittedly short - series. My only real gripe is the overbearing use of text within drawings to convey meaning, though this is honestly little more than a nitpick. While a more realistic style may have fit this more, the chibi look is both visually pleasing and makes it a much less difficult read.
Characters - 10
While there aren't many characters, and none are really focused on outside of the author, this author is so beyond interesting that it more than makes up for the vagueness of her family's personalities, or the friends that are only mentioned and never shown. A completely verbatim telling of one person's mindset over a ten year period makes for something far greater than it might have been were side characters focused on more turning the protagonist into little more than "a depressed person."
Enjoyment - 7
Most of this is just plain depressing, if not more interesting than fun. There's some good humour, and endearing dialogue be it narration or actual conversation, but overall you will be much more enthralled by the psychological aspects than the humour.
Overall - 9
If this story or person sound at all relatable or interesting to you, I couldn't recommend this enough. I may have the bias of basically being an emotional clone of this author, but even when casting that bias aside this was a damned beautiful ride, and certainly short enough to not regret reading.
Note: I've only read a few manga, but please hear me out.
Even though this manga is titled and was designed to capture the reader with the subject of female homosexuality, it successfully captures two sides of different coins. From the surface, one might assume that the whole manga's subject matter is only about lesbianism and the mental damage that affects the protagonist of this manga. However, the manga makes it so that it tackles the struggle of being a lesbian and the mental luggage that can be carried with it, and the author's witty but striking experience as an adult, surfacing to society and its
expectations and norms.
In terms of art, the art style is cartoonish and changes when the story needs it. The cartoonish style presents the manga as the author's somewhat comical interpretation of her experiences, and this juxtaposes what we would view as grim and depressing. The use of pink also complements the overall theme of the mang. Overall, the manga is well done and very entertaining. You'll get a laugh here and there and then pause to reflect on the fact that you laughed at someone's demise.
i saw this at first from anime man and then i keep hearing about this manga until i decided to just buy it and give it a go...i heard that the gay social commentary is a big deal in the manga world.so i go in expecting a cry-fest, i loved the pitch, i dig the consept i'm all in!!!
so i start reading it and in the first scene this 28-year old woman is in bed with a female escort and then pauses and starts from her high school life...Why would you spoil the lesbian scene? i didnt like that.
so the book goes on, my biggest
problem is that is more of picture book than a comic book.The entire book is narrated and the pictures show an exaggerating depiction of the narration.It reminded me of cartoon story time youtubers and i couldn't get past the fact that, i would have prefered if this was a podcast or a stand up show, i dont get why was this in a comic book form, it clearly looks like a true story so why didnt she perform this story instead ?
also a huge knit peak for me is when i read comics-mangas i like when the story comes from the characters, this entire book is narrated.
last thing is that i felt the narrator was kinda preachy especially in the work force related subjects.i felt this book was more about being indie than homosexual,hahaha what i am basically saying the book wasn't gay enough hahaha.
the art is amatuerish and it is pink colored which i hugely dislike this days when some manga will choose a color and everything that would be pink is colored pink...it throws me off,just be black and white , why color it if you going to have only a single color?
the main character i explained earlier why i disliked her,and then the lesbian payoff finally happens and is meh, for me it upgraded it from a 2 to a 3.
Autobiographic manga about a woman who has been dealing with depression, mental issues, social anxiety, poor eating habits, peer pressure, the inability to get a full time job and a serious mother complex. Who suddenly founds herself hogging up with a lesbian prostitute out of some sort of twisted desire to replace the whole momcon thing. A pretty interesting premise, right?
Bet you're thinking it's the perfect piece for handwork. I'm sorry to disappoint you (not really), but it's not, you can't get any form of sexual arousal from this manga. None at all. It's an autobiography, in other words, shitty reality. So don't expect
someone dealing with a poor mental health and ongoing depression to suddenly experience a "Last Tango in Paris - lesbian edition". Not gonna happen.
However, there's this whole depth thing that borders on a psychological slice of life. First and foremost, I couldn't believe what I was reading. Rather, I couldn't believe I could relate so much to this Nagata Kabi. That there was a person in this world who was more or less like me.
She happened to have her fall after she dropped out from college, I had mine after I graduated middle school, where I was bullied. She was unable to find other work than part-time and grow up in a responsible adult, so am I. I mean, I had 5 jobs ever since I reached the legal age in here (18), all in a single year. She has/had a complicated relationship with her parents, so do I. I knew I couldn't be the person who suffer most in the world, but I didn't think I'd read about someone who could go through so much of what I've experienced (tho she's much older than me). It just left me rethinking whether should I try and relaunch my own life, seeing Nagata's managed to found some sort of a ray of hope in all of that sea of angst.
Of course, I said too much about myself. It's just I found too much about myself in this person. It's strange. But it's a beautiful story. The art's a bit pinky, but regardless, it's a great manga if you can understand it.
So, I'll give it a 9 and stop my letter here before it becomes too heartfelt and I find myself having another shower of angst.
It's splendid when you something as exquisite like this. Stumbling a upon such a unique title and short manga, I decided to give a read. Its flourishing beautiful art style is what attracted my attention in the first place. It looks like a mini web-comic series and perhaps that's where it originated from. Clean and distinct presentation makes this manga look beyond gorgeous, cannot stress enough this Manga looks fantastic and its appeal even though it's so simplistic to look at. The only complain I'd have to art is that the background art is non-existent.
When it comes to the
story, it's based on the author real life experiences, her own autobiography. Being a college drop and dragging on with life with no aspirations, working a part-time jobs and not even being to maintain a steady work history. Kaiba Nagata is copping with depression and just going at it one day at time. Like the title implies she tries to fill the hole in heart with sexual experience with another woman. It's enjoyable watching her interactions with others, such as work not being even able to hold a part-time job. It's the journey she takes and situations she find herself make this the most delightful read in such a long time.
Out of 100 Nobles watching...
100 were... impressed?
Sabishisugite Lesbian Fuuzoku ni Ikimashita Report is a fairly short autobiographical work written by a female mangaka that chronicles her wrestle with mental and physical illness, failure to launch, and a late blooming sexuality.
The story definitely kept me turning the pages in a fascinated sort of horror as I eagerly sought to find out how this 28 year old virgin had come to the decision to higher a female prostitute.
I've personally rated this story very highly and scored the characterization and my enjoyment of it as a perfect 10 even though in actuality I can't say the reading
experience was "enjoyable". What this work did provide however is something very real that came from the heart of the author. I felt for them and I identified with our protagonist on a very deep level even though her situation is very different from my own the very deep psychological dialogue the author presents to herself and by extension her readers felt like a one of a kind experience.
Overall after reading the 6 chapters of this work I was overcome with determination to pursue my own self-improvement. If that isn't worthy of a perfect score I don't know what is. I earnestly hope I can improve my Japanese enough to thank this author in person for her hard work and I look forward to what else she might produce.
(copied from my Goodreads review)
Coming in to this, my expectation was essentially "I'll like it, but it won't live up to the hype." Which turned out to be spot on. Even as a lesbian with depression and anxiety - and despite the title, the book deals with mental illness even more heavily than it does queerness - I didn't personally connect to the highly personal, specific story. I recognise, though, that it would be all the more powerful for someone who did have those connections. But it's odd because I've gone through a lot of the things Nagata talks about, like friendlessness and singleness and
shame over both, but for whatever reason I just didn't feel connected to her. I think I would have liked a little more on how she felt, as opposed to what she felt? Not sure.
This series is so relatable for someone who also has anxiety. I feel good that I'm not the only one out there going through something like this. The art is simple but good and I like the coloring. It also tells a relatable story about someone's everyday life after school where most slice of life the main time is in highschool. I know I already said it's relatable but but it isn't like most Yuri where they find there lover right away this book takes a approach that tells people that you don't have to go through highschool with a date, unlike many other manga.
This is also a good book if you want to learn a little more about LGBTQ. I would recommend with this book to at least 15 before you read it because if you are sensitive to sexual imagery you might be a little uncomfortable in some parts.
This manga is bizarre. It's strangely relatable, but bizarre in some areas. My lesbian experience with loneliness is a autobiography manga written by Kabi Nagata. The manga is about the struggles in her life, and how she reacts towards them. At the very beginning of the manga, it starts with her at a love hotel with another woman, she then explains how she got into the situation by telling the reader her life story.
The vast majority of the manga takes place in the span of ten years, starting from her high school graduation, at eighteen, to when she starts writing this manga, at twenty-eight. She's
quite older than I am, so I can't relate to everything, however I can understand where she's coming from in these situations; sometimes I react very similarly to her, which made some of the stories really enjoyable. The mangaka has a lot of issues. Some mental and some physical. She's depressed, she doesn't take care of herself, appearance wise, she has a bald spot in her hair, and she has a eating disorder at one point. There's more, but that's all I can remember.
Frankly, I don't have that much to say since the manga is only six chapters long, and I don't want to spoil too much. The only thing I can really talk about at this point is the art. The art is cute, but a little basic. The pink and white really go well with each other, though. This manga is a light 7 out of 10, for me. Give it a read.
Here's my take after reading the complete 5 chapters of Sabishisugite Lesbian Fuuzoku ni Ikimashita Report by Kabi Nagata.
My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness is like what the title says. It is the story of Kabi Nagata, a college dropout who is lost of what is her purpose in life which eventually lead to her having a lesbian experience with a lesbian prostitute.
This one hits hard for me as some if not most of the struggles of Kabi about her purpose, her journey through depression and eventual acceptance were some of the things I had gone through growing up.
The art would simply be a matter of
preference, but for me it is strangely good. Like with Otouto no Otto, the one that brings everything together is the heart and soul that Kabi Nagata put on writing the story to capture the readers mind and attention.
This is a definite must read for all. When I mean "all", it would be those who have strong enough values to process and understand these things. In this age and generation, we need an open mind so we can help each other to become the person who we are created to be.
There are one of those mangas that you simply put a 10 because it simply deserves it, nothing more nothing less.
The story talking about depression, about the times that you have nothing to do but the times keeps going (like the videogame Night in the Woods) and how you must simply get a place in life. Fortunately (or unfortunately, I haven't decided yet) I haven't reached that point in life when I have to stop everything what I'm doing and start to reflex about everything. Whatever.
// Simply, this manga is a piece of art, and inspires me to write a manga too
I strongly identify with some things of this manga. Even if its little things they resonated with me strongly.
Even if the conclusions and experiences are different, i also went through an stage of confussion, loneliness and questioning my identity, but no one really captured the feelings i was going through as this author did.
I'm just really happy and thankful to see someone out there being public about this kinds of topics, to know that i'm not alone and i'm not the only one who experienced thoughts like this is truly recomforting :)!
As for the art, it was good, very unfinished look and a really
nice use of the color pink within the panels, plus the author was really funny:)
Just personal scratch.
Advised, possible spoilers.
Opinion & Informal
The art was kinda like something you see in a short web comic or some lighthearted introductory guidebook to some skill...like...cartoonish illustrations meant to be a part of a guidebook for dummies. The anatomy and proportions of the characters checked out. The style was a bit simple and a lot of the supporting details in the art were more or less rough shading or fills. The whole color scheme centered on the color pink which was just a nice change from the usual black and white. There weren't any impact shots or showcases of artistic skill. There weren't
any panoramas or nature showcases either. Overall, the art was super simple but I gave it a 6 because it was generally more on the unique side in regards to style, coloring, and layout.
Panel Progression: 5/10
The panel progression was straightforward and was very linear. Not much in terms of wide layouts but there were a few cases of interesting designs and panel-cutting. The panels were able to convey the dialogue and story in a understandable manner, but I had a problem with how cluttered they could be sometimes; there were way too many bubbles or words in bubbles in more than one case. Panel progression didn't make me double-take, but I had to focus on what was actually going on because of the clutter sometimes. Pacing of the progression was about right. Even though the overall tone of the manga's panel progression was informal, everything didn't happen too fast or too slow.
The main character, which is the author herself, was done well enough for me to like them. Another way to put it would be that I didn't pity them despite how much self-loathing was in this manga. By the end of the manga I was actually interested in the author's life-story. I actually felt inclined to read the sequel and find out more about how she's working on becoming a functional human being. The character development will speak for itself because the whole thing is more or less focused entirely on it. I think the redeeming thing about this manga is that it's entirely character development that happened in the real world. This manga does a good job in making the main character feel alive and feel like they're a human with emotions and problems.
The plot was fine. It's pretty much just an informal autobiography. The concept was unique to me at the time of reading. I had never read anything previously that was essentially a diary translated into manga form.
The development both plot and character-wise were good. I'm not going to discuss development nor will I weigh it because it would be a bit odd to rate the development of a real life person, which is what the plot and character in this manga basically much are.
I was sort of expecting some life-changing resolution to her diary so the conclusion was a bit underwhelming. I mean that it was sort of just left off at an awkward spot. I understand that it would leave off as open-ended because her journey is still going on, but the execution just didn't leave an impact. Even if it had to be based on what actually happened and how she felt at the time, I think the conclusion to the diary could have been a bit more flexible to keep it interesting.
I thought this was a good read. I was a bit reluctant to pick it up just based on first impressions and the synopsis, but I'm glad I read it. There were more than one instance of me thinking, "Oh wow, this sounds a little like how I felt when I was younger." I related very closely to a lot of the author's feelings and predicaments. In some cases I felt the dairy was talking about me; not specifically depression or sexual frustration, but I felt that I sympathized with the author's low confidence and anxiety. It's hard for me to form what I want to say exactly about this manga because it deals with a lot of feelings and personal fulfillment. Overall, this is worth reading for its unique presentation and sympathy-inducing asides.
I went into this with some bias, expecting another terrible melodrama where author is standing on a soapbox and preaches about their woes and how the world really should be but this turned out to be a thoroughly pleasant experience. It's rare to see these kinds of topics covered in such a genuine, very personal way that you can relate and sympathize with the main character so easily.
Nagata over the course of a decade has to deal with a lot of shit that I think most readers will find relatable to some extent and the more relatable it is the more you'll probably enjoy it.
First of all there's a general anxiety of a teenager fresh out of high school entering adult life and figuring out how to earn money and deal with the pressure of responsibility that puts on a person. First job is usually a hard step in many peoples lives, after all you can't just pick at random and dedicate your life to it, it's difficult to decide who you are, who you want to be, what you would enjoy or not and where do you need to go and how to get there.
From that a lot of anxiety is born and that pressure on top of being unsure of yourself and things around you can lead to a whole myriad of mental issues, Nagata had to go through self-harm, eating disorders and depression due to this all while still having to figure out what to hell to do with life. She stumbles around from corner to corner and it's very interesting to read her insight on these situations, what she felt like, why she felt like this and what led her to out of it. Depression, anxiety and other issue are well known to a lot of people but for many these states can be more catastrophic than other because unlike with physical pain not everybody can understand the source of it and what to do about it, this is actually one of the points Nagata elaborates on fairly early on. I won't spoil too much but another unique aspect of the manga is that it is told from a perspective of that person who's figuring out WHY, why does she feel the way she does.
By trying to understand herself piece by piece she starts to form an idea of bigger issues at hand one of which is the repressed sexuality mentioned in the synopsis. It's probably one of the less common issues presented but the way Nagata retells her experiences is so touching and personal that I found it even more endearing than normal problems.
That's really the main strength of this manga the way I see it. In terms of writing it won't offer you much new, if you remove the context it's just a cute and lighthearted journey through the difficulty life of a normal person with normal problems that often pass unnoticed and are generally not discussed openly due to their nature. If you look at it from another perspective though it can almost be a guide on what to do when you face something similar. Obviously every life is different and there's no one true way out but having went through some problems myself and talked with a lot of people who are going trough them I think it's very reassuring to see someone struggle and achieve the life they wanted instead of giving up and wallowing in self-pity and sorrow.
So, in the end, this is a very easy manga to recommend, don't let the overly simplistic synopsis put you off. No matter if you find it relatable or not this is a worthy read.
This fucking manga. Well, many people are wrong to call this as "yuri".
"The Private Report on My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness" in really is a autobiographic manga. Doesn't seek to satisfy anyone's fetish with a idealized romance with stereotyped characters (i say it as a yuri fan), just looking to narrate real life experience.
I'm a person who suffered similar things to Nagata: depression, anxiety, generalized phobia, obsesive conducts, etc. And now, after then so much time, can say "i got over it".
what more can I say? I felt identified, i like for this. The history is told in a good way, good history, is
easy to understand doesn't have the need to strange symbolisms or other things
I was actually told to choose from an assigned list of comics/manga and read & write an essay about for my final in my Comic/Manga Literature class in college. I ended up choosing this manga and I'm so happy I did.
This manga really hits home for me throughout pretty much the entire book, and makes sense to me and explains a lot of feelings and thoughts I've been having within the past few years.
Not only that, but the story is really personal, which I really appreciated; and the art is really cute and matches the tone of the manga. If you haven't read this yet
you need to! You won't regret it!
It was very good and enjoyable, definitely a read that widens one's view on the different aspects of an individual's situation. The topics and issues she deals with is very common in the world so it is very relatable even to people who have not experienced similar situations because it is still a very understandable situation; especially for empathic people. Overall, based on my analysis on her situation, I have come to an understanding that what she really longs for is probably love! Also, self-confidence.
I found the art was well suited for the topic and story seeing as its non-fictitious, it gave off the simple
vibe an average general laborer's day would give off; nothing so flashy that it seems like a sugar coated drama. It also gave off a melancholic outlook reflecting the story's topic, situation and the character's state of mind.