I literally feel like I am going to puke. I cried the entire episode. The fact that so much of this series had no down time, was point by point melodrama and cheesiness, like the beginning when it flashed that Goro's mom died, it made this so much harder. How in the world was this okay. I mean it was more than okay. It was one of the best anime deaths I've ever seen. Just what the heck. We have this moment of hope, he didn't die, he got up, I was relieved but I kept this sense of suspense for where it could go wrong. Retirement? Coma? I didn't know. And the fact a part of me wanted it to be okay and I didn't know what to expect led to his death on their floor after sleeping and playing with son like that so hard to watch. For a series that doesn't know the word subtlety, the choice to have Goro wake up and think his dad was asleep, drape him in a blanket, and continually try to wake him up while talking to him made it so real and chilling. It was like minutes of that poor kid not realizing what had happened and being there with his dad's corpse. After both actually establishing their relationship as meaningful as all hell to the two of them, but not quite perfect, for the first hour and 40 minutes of this anime, and then to give this genuinely horrifying tragedy so much down time and subtlety like made it so much harder to watch. It was the juxtaposition from the past episodes to this one that just literally made me want to puke. If it weren't for you guys last episode's thread I would have thought he'd live for sure even though certain things imply he wouldn't.
Seriously, the moment when Goro realized his dad may be dead and tried to wake him up one final time was so horrifying. The face when he realized what had happened hit me. Then we have everyone getting the news, Hoshino through the actual news and all. It was like, I thought this would genuinely be a story of a dad making it big, fighting his cruel fate and making it to the major leagues while his son caught up. To have him die in such a cruel and meaningless way like having an arrogant foreigner pelt his head purposefully out of anger then try to leave Japan after all Honda's been through and after my expectations that things would get better as they have been, it was so painful!!! Do things really not work out for the better? I knew this anime took on seriously genuine sadness and kindness but it always didn't feel real, this time it was genuinely horrifying and real.
Then we have Gibson who states it wasn't intended and stomps out. I bet he has more going with him but that was a total lie and we know it, right? Perhaps the death wasn't but the striking of him was! Perhaps killing the one Japanese who could stand up to him will make him self reflect and change quite drastically... "Give him back!", Goro cried tackling the leg of the man who killed his dad. Like, wow. I'm so glad Hoshino took him in. He had 3 people in his life, Honda, Hoshino, and Toshi for crying out loud. He needs someone who he can trust like Hoshino. I'm glad he seemed okay in his 9 year old time skip, but I'm sure he's not 100% well. At least now the story starts with Goro having his dad's spirit within him and him going on his own journey in the baby leagues.
Amazing episode, that was one strong introduction. It let us understand exactly why he is the way he is with the role model he had and why his ambitions are so and it made me one sad baby. |