I finished Death Note two days ago, and I've been thinking about this a lot since.
More specifically, I've been trying to figure out how I feel about Light. Here's what I came up with:
While I think that sometimes the way he was written was a little over the top (edgelord, yes, I suppose), I think what was done with his character was done to show what could happen if something otherworldly and powerful fell into, not just the wrong hands, but any human hands. I keep asking myself, "What would I have done if I'd found the Death Note?" While the simple answer is that I'd probably be too afraid of cosmic karma to write anything in it, the more complicated answer is there's no guarantee I wouldn't have done - or tried to do - exactly what Light did.
For lack of a better phrase, I think Light's heart initially was in the right place. He wanted to punish people who had done and were doing bad things, and the Death Note was the perfect way to do that, in his eyes. What sweetened the deal was that, unlike you'd expect with something like it, there was no catch to using the notebook, as long as he didn't get caught by the people who were looking for him.
In my eyes, it was always a moral dilemma. Shinigami had the notebooks because they were supposed to have them; as gods of death, it was their responsibility to dole out death for the humans they saw fit to die. Even though they'd gotten lazy and bored in recent years, the decay of human morals hadn't escaped their notice (even Ryuk mentions it in the very first episode, echoing Light's thoughts about how the human world was rotten). But for a human to have access to the kind of power that a Shinigami wielded, well... that's another story entirely. Because Light wasn't a Shinigami, the way he used the Death Note was always going to be different from the way it was meant to be used, good intentions or not. The mistake that Light made, was thinking that having the power of a god actually made him a god. He thought he was invincible, infallible, unchallengeable. And for a while, he was... but reality caught up to him eventually and reminded him that he was, after all, only a human.
I thought I disliked Light. As the series progressed, I thought for sure I would end up hating him.
I didn't end up hating him.
Sure, he was arrogant, a little crazy, power hungry, and a bunch of other things. But he was also human, and (probably through his own faults) very lonely. I think the last scene in the last episode really drew attention to that. He died alone, still believing in his ideals, frustrated that his plans had been foiled and he hadn't been able to accomplish all he set out to do, angry that he had been outsmarted. The last thing he sees before he dies is L, and I don't believe that either one of them were lying when they said they viewed each other as the only friend each of them had ever had. Light admitted that being Kira just wasn't as enjoyable without L around; L was the only one who could keep up with the game of wits that Light was playing. I often wonder about that alternate universe where L and Light met each other long before Ryuk dropped that Death Note: would Light have been less bored with someone around who was just as smart (arguably smarter) than him? Would he have been less lonely?
I think that the way Light was written was exactly how he was supposed to be written. We aren't necessarily meant to like or empathize with him, and maybe we aren't even supposed to understand him. But as somebody else mentioned, he's a deeply flawed protagonist in the story of his own life... and really, aren't we all deeply flawed protagonists in the stories of our own lives? |