Dating... lol.
"However", a very remotely similar thing sort of happened, crashed and burned hard in less than a hour in the summer of 2008 at 22 years old. Even taking for granted, to begin with, that no romance at all was going to happen because of distance (1 hour and 1/2 train trip) and it was just meeting a person from a Inuyasha forum that attended the same anime conventions and showed some sympathy for a few months when a lot of other users were ganging up against me for very petty reasons, it still was an unmitigated disaster.
Borrowing from previous posts, "It was the most awkward sh.t ever", "Hated every fuck.n' minute of it", "scary as hell... She felt it all too well and bailed soon after". Even Shouko Komi would have talked more, not gonna lie (yes, i went there). All that happened was entering a mall, waiting in annoyance for her checking out music albums from singers i disliked, buying the DVD box collection of the Futurama seasons i hadn't purchased yet, and sitting above a fountain for a couple of minutes before i finally found the guts to coldly inform like a robot "i'm returning home". Yeah. The travel to the city alone (either back or forth, no difference) was longer than the """""""date""""""", and after a final MSN peaceful but still bitter confrontation one or two days later, nothing else happened after. Oh, well, in 2021 i found by accident a new social media account belonging to her posting Slam Dunk and Ranma 1/2 fanarts and apologized for my 2008 behavior, she accepted, and that was the end of all of it.
It is EXTREMELY remotely technically possible that two freshly-former coworkers from my second job at McDonald's tried to ask for one in the spring of 2013 and in the summer of 2017, but all i could think about was that they were trying to pull off some cruel pranks, aware of my forever-alone-ugly-virgin status, and never liked them as people anyway. The former was infamous at the workplace for being into weird sexualised things, wasn't neither pretty nor likable or hard working, and i straight up gave her on purpose a wrong phone number when she asked mine at the end of a dinner at a oriental restaurant with co-workers that were all girls / women except for me. The latter was prettier but also very unladylike in behavior (and meanwhile, i cleaned up my act back then after i finally returned in service into my previous joint) so, once again, i ignored her texts exactly to - ironically - send a clear message that i had no interest in dating at all, and nothing happened.
There was never hope for someone like me, but it's fine. i will choose watching fictional dating by Tadano x Komi, Izumi x Shikimori, Jun x Tomo, Harima x Tenma etc. etc. any goddamn day rather than rethinking about it myself. i'm almost 40 and done with mankind in general especially for more serious reasons, it's also my fault obviously for very poor choices in the past... but there's no do-over. All hope is gone. |