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Anime Stats
Days: 58.8
Mean Score: 7.40
  • Total Entries449
  • Rewatched6
  • Episodes3,609
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Ueno-san wa Bukiyou
Ueno-san wa Bukiyou
May 14, 12:47 PM
Completed 12/12 · Scored 5
Hitoribocchi no Marumaru Seikatsu
Hitoribocchi no Marumaru Seikatsu
May 11, 5:36 PM
Watching 6/12 · Scored 8
Mahou Shoujo Site
Mahou Shoujo Site
Apr 15, 7:04 AM
Watching 9/12 · Scored -
Manga Stats
Days: 9.8
Mean Score: 7.29
  • Total Entries47
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  • Chapters1,806
  • Volumes162
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Serial Experiments Lain: The Nightmare of Fabrication
Serial Experiments Lain: The Nightmare of Fabrication
Dec 14, 2018 7:46 AM
Completed 1/1 · Scored 7
Mahou Shoujo Site Sept
Mahou Shoujo Site Sept
Sep 6, 2018 3:41 AM
Completed 10/13 · Scored 7
Bokura no Hentai
Bokura no Hentai
Aug 7, 2018 5:09 PM
Completed 41/41 · Scored 7



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149597871 May 13, 7:32 AM
You have to ask yourself why you have your emotions in the first place. For example you feel fear and fear's purpose is to stop you from doing something dangerous, right? No matter how you look at it, happiness, sadness, fear, rage - their main purpose is to ensure that your genes stay in the gene pool. However that also makes them a hindrance to unlocking your full potential.
149597871 May 12, 9:58 PM
Intelligence is about how fast/efficient you learn and how good you are at applying what you've learned. I don't see how emotions are a part of it. Emotions are rather an evolutionary thing that is meant to serve various different purposes.
149597871 May 12, 4:49 AM
Yes, the difference is that for some people seeing a somebody getting murdered is a petty thing while others put the new Star Wars trailer into the "things that actually matter" category. Of course I'm not here to say what is right and what is wrong or when and where you should be allowed to cry but the older you get the less emotional you'll become so it's kinda fair to say that this numbing is a partly caused by you becoming more mature.

I watched some AI in action last week and was completely fascinated by their performance. To be honest I feel that I have more in common with them than what is considered "a human" these days. Of course I'm not and probably can't be 100% emotionless and emotions do come in handy sometimes so I believe that the perfect state is somewhere between the two.

Seiya May 10, 12:16 PM
deg May 5, 5:13 AM
i actually messaged Ardanaz sometime ago to forget about my suggestions on CE since i saw that the new moderators are not so strict about the rules but looks like even the new moderators are starting to be strict with rule 7 there lol so that was a mistake on my part
deg May 4, 10:22 PM
i agree on that one but im still hopeful they loosen up the rules again
deg May 4, 10:10 PM
ye CE and CD are dying, there is another complaint thread about the rules again and a rare religious thread that is not yet locked even after like 3+ pages and going
deg May 4, 12:33 AM
yo i do not see you post threads anymore especially on current events? i myself have been creating less threads this days unless that i think its really a big news lol
SaadXBZ May 3, 2:23 PM
Thanks for accepting it
SaadXBZ May 2, 6:55 PM
BTW can you accept my FR ?
SaadXBZ May 2, 4:21 PM
Im good
SaadXBZ May 2, 10:05 AM
hi there ^_^ how are you ?

149597871 Apr 29, 9:16 AM
What you describe seems a lot like what other people call "getting stronger", "growing up", "growing a thicker skin", etc. The process of "emotional numbing" is often seen as a natural change in most humans as they get more experienced. I don't know for you personally but I used to cry a lot when I was a kid. Come to think of it now I haven't shed a tear for the past like 3 years if not more. We just get used to all the bad things to the point where we start to consider them a normal everyday thing rather than being shocked or feel sadness and even if that's the case we usually have a hard time expressing our emotions and try to endure the pain without displaying any feelings or whatsoever.

I can't tell you whether this makes you less or more human because I can't really define what "being a human" is. If we consider benevolence and compassion to be our true nature then yes, what you are saying may be true.

I don't think I've heard of Tom Kenyon before. I'll check out his music.
LightThatFollows Apr 27, 9:15 PM
That's fascinating that Lain was named after an anti psychiatrist that worked at treating schizophrenics. I'm not sure how many can relate to this, but when I first got into Serial Experiments Lain (at like the age of sixteen or so) I really found myself relating with Lain Iwakura a lot in the anime. The way she seemed to live a solitary life style in the real world, and was only able to gain more access into her Identity when she began exploring the Wired from her Navi machine and then from the higher powered Tachibana Model that her father bought her. The way Lain of the Wired was like a more wild version of herself, was kind of like how I experienced life. I remember two vivid descriptions of my youth. One was the sort of disconnected lifestyle that Lain lived in. Not having much access in the real world, but was able to connect and gain a lot of strong influence through the Internet (Wired.) This was the side of me that made up my main identity, but then there was the other side of me that would just be more outgoing, more wild, more fun. That side of me never came out much, but it use to exist. Kind of like the Lain of the Wired.

Since going on psychiatric medication, I'm pretty much just influential to some extent within the online world, but offline, I don't have nearly as much access or privilege as I had back then before I was ever on these medications. Problem is I am so dependent on these medications now that I will probably never function 100% without them. I've also developed mental visual hallucinations that play in my mind like a television screen, a lot of these images take on the image of insects... it's quite disturbing. This is primarily why I haven't went off the medications. Even lowering the Risperdal to 2.5, I can faintly see these disturbing images in my mind while I am trying to fall asleep, even though at 2.5, they are quite dim.

I will be starting the Keto diet officially once my brother in law (who successfully got off diabetic medication because of it) talks to me about it. I believe I mentioned this already to you. Once I get the details I will begin the process. I may even just go on a low carb keto diet, where I don't cut out breads and stuff completely, but to a large degree. Either way I plan on fixing my diet once I get to sit with my brother in law about the details of what I need to do, eat, stay away from, etc. because something has to be done about how I've been feeling inside. And I am glad to hear that studies have proven that the Keto diet helps people with my type of condition.

As far as going on disability. It's true that I could go on that, and I have considered that on more than one occasion. Basically I am just hanging on by the condition of my current job. It is structured to allow people like me to work, because it's set in the evenings after the building workers clear out. I don't find my disability with schizophrenia to be that much of a problem at all when I am left on my own, it's only when I am socially paranoid that it becomes a problem. And of course the social paranoia stems from being put in social settings that triggers my fears.
10outof10ma Apr 26, 7:08 PM