| Rock star. I was really serious about it, too ._. I used to sort of shut myself off in my room and play around with my dad's guitar, but I had no idea how to use it at first and I thought every note was played open, so I was confused when I couldn't make sounds, which, in my defense I was 11 and had very little experience with music outside of listening to it. 
 Then when I turned about 13 I decided to try and get serious again, because it was gathering dust in the corner of my bedroom. So I started figuring out how to read tabs, starting just learning basic riffs to songs I liked, almost exclusively sticking to stuff that could be played entirely with basic power chords and was relatively simple. First song I learned to play was Brain Stew by Green Day and I was like, so fuckin' pleased with myself, even if it's such a simple song to the point of being trite.
 
 Then later after fucking around with exclusively power chords for a while, my grandma introduced me to a guy from her church who played guitar and he showed me some stuff that led to me sort of begin to hit a growth spurt like simple ways to figure out how to play a scale and a couple of different types of scales like the blues scale, which isn't especially different aside from a couple of notes. I remember when I stopped doing that and then decided to sort of come up with my own rhythm for it, which led to me doing this thing that was 7-9 on the low e, 7-9 on the a, 7-9 on the d, then 7 on the g with a high bend once I hit 9, and then I just fucked with that. Like, figuring that little bit out is sort of what caused me to really get into playing guitar and I began listening to more music and trying to learn more songs and shutting myself in my room longer and longer, figuring out things like the proper finger placements for octave chords as I went along and learning songs and trying to play them in full. Then I discovered Sublime's music and was just enamored with Brad Nowell's style of playing guitar that I just wanted to replicate that and I tried to take on this sort of weird reggae-punk vibe that I heard in his songs. Started trying to make my own music, wanted to be in a band someday, all of that. I used to just sit here at the computer and play around with it back when I started using the internet for socializing more circa 2013 and 2014, or I'd just sit in my living room with it and play around. It felt like there was a point when I was a teenager that whenever my hands were idle, then I'd just play it instead of keeping them that way. And I'd be lying if I said I still didn't daydream about starting a band and making it big sometimes, or relatively often even. Taking people I know and then they would also happen to know music and we'd play together. That'd be the dream.
 
 Then I sold my guitar a while after whenever I went out on my own because I really needed money, and haven't got it back ._. It used to be my dad's guitar before it became my own, too, and I feel really stupid for doing that. I'll probably never get that back and if I ever have the money to buy one, it'll have to be a now one instead of that derpy ass washburn lyon I used to have.
 
 Now I work in a funeral home and I got trained to be a funeral director and stuff and completed my apprenticeship and all, and I'd be fine with doing something that's already in my grasp and can provide a stable lifelong career for the rest of my life and I don't really entertain those thoughts seriously like I did throughout my teenage years. I'd still love to start a band and make music someday, though ._.
 
 kind of miss my guitar now honestly
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