Yeah I guess, it's always the place I've spent the most time in over the years anyway, although the homes have changed since then.
Since my parents passed though (I always lived with at least one of them) i definitely don't have anywhere near as much human contact/interactions, and when i do get visits from my remaining family, I feel very awkward and I'm noticing i stammer on some of my words and it's starting to bother me and don't know what to do about it.
My home is just a pretty regular terraced house. It's fine for just me and my cat, but other houses in my street have an extra room built from converting the attic, and I kinda wished I had something like that, as my home doesn't have much in the way of storage and my attic sucks anyway. But don't know if I really want to move house again just to have something only slightly better than what I got here, been here about 2 years anyway, but perhaps i should have waited a little longer and bought something else.
I do quite like the town where I live. It has things l like here (wrestling 2x a year, Comic Cons 3x a year), transport is pretty good, and I live perhaps only a 2-3 minute walk away from the centre of town, which is good for me as i don't drive.
The only thing is it can be pretty rough around here, with seemingly little opportunities. It has quite a drug problem. Both houses I lived in here I lived next to a drug dealer, and the first home I rented was used as a grow house and not fixed right. My nephew's neighbour used his house as a grow house also and it caught fire, thankfully my nephew was fine though. Also people can be drunk no matter the time of day, I've seen people lying passed out in the street or propped up on a wall, seen fights also. Definitely my mother would not have approved of where I live, but it is at least nearby to my nephew (my niece also lived here for a bit) and my eldest sis has just bought a house nearby and is planning on living here also, and my mother always wanted us all living close together.
There's always lots of Police around, and it's both reassuring and worrying.
I do like spending time outdoors also of course, as most of my hobbies are outdoor activities. I have to travel to most of them, and whilst I sometimes get scared visiting new places, I do enjoy a little having my own freedom, as my parents (and mother especially) were very protective of me and didn't allow me to do much, especially towards the end of my mother's life.
I do still miss my parents and security of my family, as we all understood what we all went through, and I just can't see me ever getting that sort of feeling and reassurance from anybody else I could ever meet in my life. |