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Welcome! Below are quotes and paragraphs I hold dear.

Welcome! Below are quotes and paragraphs I hold dear.

"While the subject of manga and anime will continue to focus on juveniles, adolescents, and comers-of-age; adult, mature characters bring with them more fleshed-out pasts, regrets, and higher stakes."

"I once heard a philosopher say our relationships are reality, so family, our most profound and consequential relationships, set our reality."

Emotional development doesn't happen by itself. Many of us are brought up in environments that shield us from extreme emotional situations, and as guys we are often told "man up, don't be so sensitive" by our father figures and as a result we learn to avoid emotions. For me specifically, it was never that I was "insensitive" only that I became adept at avoiding any situation that would connect me emotionally to anything, and anything that I did encounter that affected me, I would distance myself from so quickly that it never really registered as anything deeper than "stress." This was my default state for a long time without me even realizing it, through all my teens and on through my 20's.
Planes crash into the World Trade Center? Blah, that sucks. On with my day. Grandparent or aunt dies? Oh well, such is life. New niece? Cute. When's dinner?

But something happens somewhere between being set adrift into the real world and becoming responsible for the feelings of others. A slow and gradual shift that is kind of scary and you may find yourself trying to push it away. That niece who was born becomes a little older and starts clinging to your hand and looking up at you like a hero everywhere you go. You realize after a few arguments with your SO that you aren't the "cool, mature one" in your relationship, that your behavior is going to jeopardize the only good things you have made for yourself. You begin to feel time slipping away and those twinges of stress become stark moments of terror that make your eyes fly open in the middle of the night. Mortality begins to feel far more real than it ever did before.

You will lose things. You may have lost things before, maybe those things weren't essential to your life and comfort and you didn't worry because you had a support system then and knew you would be fine. Now, as you get older, you realize you are becoming the support system for others, and losses are up to you to manage and solve. You will learn that you will not accomplish your goals in life. You will have to find new meaning and purpose.
By the time I had gone through my 30's and had dealt with losing a home, a vehicle, losing my parents and family members to drinking, nearly losing myself to drinking, gaining a new family and nieces and nephews who adored me, navigating all the pitfalls and perils of marriage and changing my focus in life to make sure that my own home and environment were a sanctuary and doing everything I can to fight for that peace, I now find myself an emotional eggshell.

I'll break down from an emotional movie as soon as the music gets sappy. And you know what?
It's great. It really does feel good after a while to let this emotional state in. I don't have anyone who will condemn me for crying while reading a book or talking to a kitten. It's like a high of sorts, but it takes time to get here.

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All Anime Stats Anime Stats
Days: 179.7
Mean Score: 7.12
  • Total Entries1,305
  • Rewatched15
  • Episodes10,417
Anime History Last Anime Updates
Urusei Yatsura (2022) 2nd Season
Urusei Yatsura (2022) 2nd Season
Feb 14, 6:50 PM
Watching 5/23 · Scored -
Ore dake Level Up na Ken
Ore dake Level Up na Ken
Feb 14, 6:49 PM
Watching 5/12 · Scored -
Summertime Render
Summertime Render
Feb 3, 9:12 PM
Completed 25/25 · Scored 7
All Manga Stats Manga Stats
Days: 62.2
Mean Score: 7.57
  • Total Entries226
  • Reread0
  • Chapters8,890
  • Volumes658
Manga History Last Manga Updates
Blue Lock
Blue Lock
Nov 3, 2023 10:19 AM
Reading 95/? · Scored -
"Oshi no Ko"
"Oshi no Ko"
Nov 3, 2023 9:52 AM
Reading 130/? · Scored 7
Kaifuku Jutsushi no Yarinaoshi
Kaifuku Jutsushi no Yarinaoshi
Aug 6, 2023 9:41 PM
Reading 57/? · Scored -

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Sarada_S Jun 25, 2023 3:08 PM
First, sorry im just seeing this
But secondly STOPPP REMINDING ME LMFAO feelin prehistoric rn
Sarada_S Nov 20, 2022 3:31 AM
Thanks man, feelin pretty old tbh lol
FireHeart Nov 6, 2020 5:08 AM
True. Thank you for sending wishes while I was inactive! Hope that you are doing alright and staying safe :)
Fovez Jul 12, 2020 1:47 AM
Toothless_Snake Jun 29, 2020 4:48 PM
welding is just tedious a bit but it isn't hard lol
Toothless_Snake Jun 28, 2020 8:54 PM
i have a welding job now
Luquillo Jun 14, 2020 4:19 PM
Hey man thanks, it has been hectic honestly. I caught that covid shit back in late January but I'm in good shape and I'm fine now. I was mainly worried about though. Everything good. What about you?
Fatephile Apr 12, 2020 2:48 PM
I already know the memes going on about School Days and how fucked up it is, but is it really bad?
gowtxd Jan 11, 2020 7:16 PM
man it is so funny and emotional at the same time, im liking so much this loll
BaeHyoSonn Dec 13, 2019 1:13 PM
Oin :v
StyleF1re May 4, 2019 11:38 PM
Going to need a bit of time to fully dissect that present of yours, so stay tuned!
StyleF1re May 4, 2019 1:48 AM
Damn. It's been well over a month since our last proper conversation. Been thinking about getting a second motorcycle sometime later this year or early next year, though I'm not sure I'd want to part with the one I have now. Not sure I will come across another SV650S with the lower side fairings like mine has. For production models I think they only came on the 08 and 09 models and needed custom bits to be fitted to the older models. And even then, those OEM side fairings are rather rare and expensive.

But yeah, do you still use WhatsApp? I can show you a picture of the bike as it is now. Has new tank grips, the old stickers from the previous owners removed, and some new bolts and fittings to hold in the windscreen. Anyway, I hope you do find your way to a bike at some point if you truly desire one! Just don't forget to factor in your costs for gear, insurance, and maintenance.

Anything else been up with you lately?
StyleF1re Apr 30, 2019 12:12 AM
You living the good life now with bands and stacks?!
Azizdy Mar 3, 2019 6:08 PM
Natsume himself in all honesty. He’s a character I greatly relate to, and seeing him develop over the course of time, getting over his self loathing, opening himself up to others, all the bonds he’s made with others was wonderful to watch. I found it both inspirational and heartwarming as well.

That, and how well crafted the stories around the yokai are what I adore about the show.

Azizdy Mar 3, 2019 2:07 PM
No problem man! Always happy to see more fans of the series.
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