I have a very odd pastime. For entire afternoons, I would walk around my city with no particular destination in mind, just a direction to walk towards; I would pass by cats sleeping under the benches at bus stations and see the most brilliant sunsets ever against a backdrop of high-rise buildings; I would find an empty shopping center around which construction dust billows, an abandoned park enclosed by rusted wrought iron fences, entire streets and communities that I never knew existed. Most importantly, I would feel like it's just me and the world, nothing else: none of the people I pass by know who I am or where I'm going, nor are they likely to ever see me again. Maybe it's because of this, that I would feel completely at peace: knowing that nothing I do in the moment matters gives an unbelievable sense of comforting freedom. Suddenly, the world feels extraordinary, the sky looks beautiful, and I become alive. Fully myself, legs walking and mind pondering, just looking at things and listening at noises and feeling the breeze on my face. Goodness, it's really hard to describe this feeling with words; hopefully I did it justice. It really is a life-changing experience.
Maybe that's why I connected so much with this episode for some inexplicable reason. I felt as if, although the places are different, I've been through this before. The puffy but not too puffy clouds I saw that one time. The lighting reflecting off of the glass buildings around 5:30 PM, when I would start walking home. The smiling for absolutely no reason, or perhaps because the world is such a nice place after all. This episode exactly captures what I would feel on these walks in a way I never thought was possible for any piece of media to do. I was in awe the entire episode, whispering to myself, "this is art... this is art! this is ART!!"
There is no excuse for me not to give Apocalypse Hotel a 10/10 now.
All right. My personal emotional reaction to this episode aside, it was also very great thematically speaking. It feels like the message of the opening, but made even better – here's my analysis of that if you want to have a read. Yachiyo starts off being reminded of her lonely and pointless existence after being derived of her work. She travels through many settings from previous episodes, with several scenes directly echoing past scenes, highlighting just how much has changed as time passes, as well as how much have happened to her. Here are just some examples from episode 4, but scenes from other episodes are mirrored as well.
Throughout the episode, Yachiyo wonders about her place in this world, and gets so many answers. For example, here is one of my favorite answers, at the Gingarou spaceport:
Yachiyo walks among other humans. I think this symbolizes how Yachiyo's alive and human status is given by the other characters in this the show: they care about and remember her, and so she is human. Similarly, later, when she reunites the horse with its horse buddies, she briefly wonders where she belongs. At the end of the episode Yachiyo looks at the Hotel Gingarou, a light in the dark, and affirms that this is where she belongs – with everybody and everything she cares about.
Overall, this was an absolute masterpiece of an episode. It feels like a great send-off to this anime, and remains consistent with what the anime was trying convey all along. I'm sure that episode 12 will be an amazing resolution.
So sorry for all the tricolons; they probably make me seem like a pretentious idiot. To that one person who gave this a 1 star, go take a walk outside. It's a great experience. |