CrimsonMidnight said:L-Ryoshi said:
Thus, based on my own opinion, I would think that whilst Tsumugu had probably developed feelings for Chisaki sometime during or after the first Ofunehiki event. Chisaki probably didn't notice her own feelings or even think to reciprocate them, even up to this latest episode, because she was so comfortable with the status quo. She didn't see a need to change anything, which is why when the cat was out of the bag, she needed a push from others like the poor Kaname to even consider/realize her own feelings, much less act on them (which she hasn't done thus far).
At least... that's the vibe that I've received after watching 24 episodes of this.
I'm sure Chisaki actually realize her growing feelings for Tsumugu. And she can't accept it. Not because she comfortable with the status quo nor didn't see a need to change, but because she was afraid to change. She realize she is changing, that's why she was so afraid at meeting with Hikari.
Chisaki and Kaname conversation in this episode:
Kaname: Even if things didn't work out with you and Hikari, I knew it'd be Tsumugu next and not me.
Chisaki: No! I don't love him!
I'm not allowed to love Tsumugu!
If I fell in love with anyone other than Hikari, I thought I'd be betraying everyone still sleeping. Everyone whose time stopped!.
(I thought)I love Hikari. I made sure I wouldn't forget that. I always made sure I didn't forget..
When Hikari came back, I was scared.
The fact that I was the only one who became an adult...not only that...
I thought he'd see through me about various things.
But Hikari told me I hadn't change. I was so happy. (that I thought)I still loved Hikari. even now..but!
Kaname:That doesn't matter anymore.. we're all here now. We came back.
There's no reason to fool your own feelings.
Chisaki:
Manaka loves Tsumugu. In order to reawaken Manaka's feeling of love,
I can't accept Tsumugu's feelings
So, I think Chisaki do notice her feelings but refuse to accept it because said reason above, she said it herself.
The word "I love Hikari", "I still love Hikari, even now", I wonder what others understand about those? Because, I do understand the Japanese (because I study Japanese in college) and I'm afraid others got the wrong idea. So I added (I thought) above.
In that word, it's not Chisaki declare herself she loves Hikari. But more "she thought" she love Hikari or "she made sure". Talk to herself, convincing herself. The pattern is the same with "
I made sure I wouldn't forget that. [/b]I[/b] always
made sure I didn't forget", they include the "I made sure" in those sentence, but not in the other which have same pattern. So, I think the sub is somewhat fail to deliver the real meaning....but then again, maybe I don't understand the english one, maybe it's already implied like that. ^^;
I realize that I'm replying to a 10 year old comment, but just want to quote this so that future readers don't misunderstand. This interpretation of what Chisaki said is really incorrect. Chisaki is NOT convincing herself she likes Hikari - she genuinely DOES like him.
If we take a look at what Chisaki says it was something like:
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γγ‘γγγ¨ε₯½γγͺγγ γ£γ¦γγγδ»γ§γγ‘γγγ¨γ£γ¦
Judging by what you wrote, you're interpreting the tte directly as 'i thought' (γ£γ¦ζγ£γ¦γ), but in this case (combined with the γͺγγ right before it, which is often used for moments of self-realization) I'm almost certain it's more like 'i understood / realized' (γ£γ¦γγγ£γ¦γ). This coincides exactly with her realization in episode 19 where she realized she was still in love with Hikari even after those 5 years.
My translation would have been more like:
But Hikari told me things won't change. I was so happy. I realized I still loved Hikari. even now..but! (something to do with her wanting to return Tsumugu's feelings given that her love with Hikari is unrequited)
At this point of the series, Chisaki truly loves Hikari. Whether she was convincing herself of those feelings during the timeskip is another matter, but we saw clear as day in episode 19 that, after Hikari came back from hibernation, her feelings for Hikari are very real. Her feelings are not at all 'fake' nor is she just trying to convince herself - I'm not sure where everyone is getting this idea. She loves Hikari, but now there is another person she has also grown fond of, who actually is interested in her unlike Hikari (i.e. not going to be unrequited love).
I hate this idea that people think Chisaki was just convincing herself she likes Hikari. How can anyone think that after seeing what was probably the most emotion we'll ever see out of Chisaki at the end of episode 19, where she re-realizes her love for him.