Day before yesterday I saw a rabbit, and yesterday a deer, and today, you.
Hello Name:Jay Yotube:http://www.youtube.com/user/ClannadGaming Age:18 Email:Clannadxo@live.com.au Favorite Games:Halo 3, Metal Gear Solid 2, Fallout 3, Kingdom Hearts 2, Pokemon Crystal and Call Of Duty 4. Genres:Drama, Slice Of Life, Psychological and Romance. Hates:School, Liars, Goodbyes, Boredom, Certain People and Facebook. Loves:Anime, Sleep, Gaming, Anime, Friends, Sleep, Xbox, Anime, Sleep and Anime. Mood:... Skype:jay.doblie Xbox live Gamertag:Clannad xo
My Favorite Quotes:
"People live their lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That's how they define 'reality.' But what does it mean to be 'correct' or 'true'? Merely vague concepts... Their 'reality' may all be a mirage."
"My dream is to be able to fall in love with the person I could spend entirety with"
"Don't say one thing if you mean another"
“Because she learned about happiness, she feels lonely for the first time. And because she knows unhappiness, she understands happiness for the first time.”
"Happiness is always there even if you can't see it"
"If you have the opportunity to play this game of life you need to appreciate every moment. a lot of people don't appreciate the moment until it's passed."
"No matter who you are you don't know what kind of human you are until the very end."
"A lot of people don't realize that depression is an illness. I don't wish it on anyone, but if they would know how it feels, I swear they would think twice before they just shrug it."
"Those who kill themselves often do so in self defense"
"The enemy of my enemy is my friend."
"When the sun has set, no candle can replace it"
"If your effort isn't bringing you anywhere the only thing you're doing wrong is giving it to the person who least deserves it."
"I have nothing to be sad about but why do I feel so depressed."
"Don't ever underestimate the kindness of other people"
"Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts."
"You're going to mess up, and you might not even get a chance to make up for your mistakes. It's going to hurt, especially when it feels like the weight of the world is crushing you after losing someone important in your life. You probably won't know what to do, or if it'll make things go back to the way they used to be, but you have to start by doing the most difficult thing. You have to admit your mistakes, and forgive yourself. It's easier said than done, believe me... But you can't be a quitter, not for yourself, and certainly not for the people that give your life meaning, no matter where they are. Stay strong and don't be afraid to show how much you care."
"Maybe one day we will all learn to understand each other."
"In a strange way, I had fallen in love with my depression. Dr. Sterling was right about that. I loved it because I thought it was all I had. I thought depression was the part of my character that made me worthwhile. I thought so little of myself, felt that I had such scant offerings to give to the world, that the one thing that justified my existence at all was my agony."
"That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end."
"Problems that cannot be solved do not exist in this world."
"She still had her bad days, no question, when the black dog of depression sniffed her out and settled its crushing weight on her chest and breathed its pungent dog breath in her face. On those days she called in sick to the IT shop where, most days, she untangled tangled networks for a song. On those days she pulled down the shades and ran dark for twelve or twenty-four or seventy-two hours, however long it took for the black dog to go on home to its dark master."
"Because that’s the thing about depression. When I feel it deeply, I don’t want to let it go. It becomes a comfort. I want to cloak myself under its heavy weight and breathe it into my lungs. I want to nurture it, grow it, cultivate it. It’s mine. I want to check out with it, drift asleep wrapped in its arms and not wake up for a long, long time.”
"Sometimes," says a fellow depressive, "I wish I was in a full body cast, with every bone in my body broken. That's how I feel anyway. Then, maybe, people would stop minimising my illness because they can actually see what's wrong with me. They seem to need physical evidence."
"When you're surrounded by all these people, it can be lonelier than when you're by yourself. You can be in a huge crowd, but if you don't feel like you can trust anyone or talk to anybody, you feel like you're really alone."
"If I were another person, I go on, I wouldn’t want to deal with me, I don’t want to deal with me, It’s so hopeless, I want out of this life. I really do. I keep thinking that if I could just get a grip of myself, I could be all right again. I keep thinking I’m driving myself crazy, but I swear, I swear to God, I have no control. It’s so awful, It’s like some demons have taken over my mind. And nobody believes me, Everybody thinks I could be better if I wanted to. But I can’t be the old Lizzy anymore, I can’t be myself anymore, I mean, actually, I am being myself right now and it’s horrible."
"Others imply that they know what it is like to be depressed because they have gone through a divorce, lost a job, or broken up with someone. But these experiences carry with them feelings. Depression, instead, is flat, hollow, and unendurable. It is also tiresome. People cannot abide being around you when you are depressed. They might think that they ought to, and they might even try, but you know and they know that you are tedious beyond belief: you are irritable and paranoid and humorless and lifeless and critical and demanding and no reassurance is ever enough. You're frightened, and you're frightening, and you're "not at all like yourself but will be soon," but you know you won't."
"Life asked death: "why do people love me, but hate you?", death responded "Because you're a beautiful lie and I'm a painful truth"
"When a depressed person shrinks away from your touch it does not mean he is rejecting you. Rather he is protecting you from the foul, destructive evil which he believes is the essence of his being and which he believes can injure you."
"I've got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts - you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn't do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing."
"Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say My tooth is aching than to say My heart is broken."
"And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore."
"Depression is the flaw in love. To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who can despair at what we lose, and depression is the mechanism of that despair."
"However, when we are depressed, being reminded of other people's suffering only serves to increase our self-hatred."
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met."
"Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you."
"There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds."
"There is love of course. And then there's life, its enemy."
"However long the night, the dawn will break."
"The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you."
"If there's no war outside our heads, Why are we losing?"
"Every heart has a pain. Only the way of expressing it is different. Fools hide it in eyes, while the brilliant hide it in their smile."
"I hate being second to those I put first."
"When everyone has lost faith in a person is when they need you to believe in them most."
""There is no meaning in our world, And no meaning is us who live there. We, meaningless, think of the world, Although knowing that there is no meaning there, is even meaningless itself."
"Looking for beauty in everyday life"
"Don't regret your past! Learn from it!"
“Will you kill someone you love because of love?”
"The flow of time cleanses the past and heals the wounds in people's hearts."
"People say that if you fight it means you're close to someone, but in the end, a fight is just a collision of egos. People don't learn to understand each other, just by laying bare their feelings."
*Lost in lies yet again, the passion still remains, it glows through the aeons, only to end in misery and in tears.*
"You know life's good when you can't get to sleep at night because reality is better than your dreams"
"I can't wait till that day comes and you finally realize that you were wrong and you actually see what you had and lost."
"All because of you I believe in angels, not the kind with wings no, not the kind with halos, the kind that bring you home, when home becomes a strange place, I'll follow your voice, all you have to do is shout it out"
"People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear."
"If I am able to reach beyond sorrow; I will not need to feel anything beyond this anymore"
"If you try and please everybody, you will only be hurting yourself"
"All stars could be brighter, All hearts could be warmer."
"In desperate times, being alone tears your heart apart"
"When a man learns to love, he must bear the risk of hatred"
Hmm you seem like you've been here for a while. I'm looking for members I can befriend to talk about all this Anime/Manga stuff and get info from. Any other members you can recommend¿
What's up¿ You told me to comment in my introduction thread so I'm here. Nice to meet you buddy. I'm new to this anime thing so I'm willing to learn. Any recommendations¿
Heyyy, sorry about my late reply, I've been busy with school D:
That's good then, you just gotta pull through it :)
*gives you a death stare*
Haha yeah i guess it is :D
I can't agree with you more on the presents :P holidays are been and gone for me, I'm so sad...
Thanks man, I hope I do well :)
Oh that's cool, do you got to tafe (or whatever it's called now) for that?
Awesome! I'm looking forward to it :D
Yep lots of time, but I'll still try and find time to reply ^^
Wow yeah it has! How are you?
It's cool :)
I forgive you *pats on head*
I did thanks! I went away to lots of places... Canberra, Adelaide, Melbourne, Sydney XD
How was you christmas, ext.?
Yeah I started year 12 today, looks like it's going to be 32 weeks of suffering T.T
So you've finished school? what are you planning to do now?
Haha awesome! I hope we can talk like we used to :)
Watching lots of anime sounds epic, I wish I could do that.... unfortunately... year 12 )':
btw, just random question. Do you watch Australian Open?. I'm not really tenis fans. But after watching few games, I'm quite amaze. Especially Novak Djokovic. And Anna Ivanovic~
