Your overthinking too much. Start meditating. Practise emptying your thoughts. And talk to more people. It's because you are alone all the time that you keep having such useless thoughts. Humans are social animals. You cannot deny genetics, you must socialize more and you will natural get out of depression. You won't have time to think of such useless thoughts if you socialize more. You need to put in effort to socialize. Everyone does. It may seem like some people are just good at socializing, but they are still putting in their effort in it. They just get good at it with practise.
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Stop taking cues of what life is like from anime, games or any fiction. Life is mundane and it's up to you how you interpret it. You can be a party animal or live in tranquility, it's your life. What other mediums tell you what life is suppose to be like shouldn't matter more then how you really experience and interpret your own life. These meduims just try to nudge you in the right directions in general but it's not wise to take them very literally.
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Pick up a useful hobby that earns you some money. Earning money with a hobby is important, it will motivate you, not bore you. Money, is probably the most important factor for you to take control in life. Earn money and almost no one will complain too, in fact everyone around you will be nicer. It's not because of the money, it's because people will stop treating you like a NEET.
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Btw it's never ever too late to reform. You could be in your teens or in your 30s, 50s. There is always time to reform and improve your lifestyle. There's always time to realign your goals in life. It's your life. Nothing is "too late". People change their goals and lifestyle anytime in life, there is no age attached to it. So don't be in a rush to think that it's "too late" for you. People, specially younger ages, tend to think it's too late for them when they make mistakes in life. You make mistakes to learn from them, so take all the time you need to learn from them, not repeat them. |