| Kinda been having a small existential crisis about my low self esteem recently. It's like I came to the realization that my low self esteem has gotten me to allow gay guys to use me my whole life. That's really fucking depressing in retrospect. My low self esteem has done me dirty it seems. I know it seems I'm blaming my problems on my self esteem rather then myself but I believe these concepts go hand in hand. Self esteem and worth are a part of the self ya know. Now am I gonna allow things to change with this realization, probably not. It's a hard thing to fix. What about you? Has your low self esteem caused you problems in your life? Or to those who overcame the self, how did you do it? Discuss below. |
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| Well my whole current situation is probably related to my self esteem. Its neither good nor bad and I just cant seem to care about it. @_Nette_ yup exactly. I know I should do something about it, but I just cant. I cant find any motivation until its too late and I dont have any other choice. |
MonkeeDanNov 6, 2021 7:49 PM
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| @Crow_Black Yeah it for sure can make someone more pessimistic. @IceySongstress I feel ya on that. And yeah there is alot of negativity out there nowadays. @MonkeeDan I get not caring. I don't care most of the time until I have a massive epiphany then not care enough to do anything about it T,T |
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| Only once, back in my early 20s I had no job experience and hated college affected felt like a dumbass. Otherwise nope my life is awesome. |
| Back in high school I was severely depressed and self-loathing. My friend group at the time was super supportive at first, but eventually my inability to be proud of who I am slowly pushed them away. It was devastating to lose friends like that, and it ended up being an even harder blow to my self-esteem because deep down I knew it was my fault. I felt like a horrible person for not being a good enough friend to them. Flash-forward six-ish years later and I am very happy with myself. I'm not the most successful person in the world, nor am I the nicest, and I only have like 2 friends lol. I guess what I did to overcome my major issues with self-esteem was that I picked up some hobbies. Writing, for example, is one of the things that I am most passionate about. I write in my free time just for myself, then when I'm done writing I like to read over what I created and just admire that, "Wow! This is something that I did!" When I first picked up writing, I wanted to show everyone I knew so I could get their opinions. Most people didn't care to read what I wrote because it was "too long of a read," which honestly hurt a lot, even though that probably wasn't their intention. So to eliminate the possibility of hurt feelings, I just stopped showing people. Now, I don't care what other people think of my passions because it is my own private thing that I can be proud of without outsiders telling me otherwise. This somewhat trained me into ignoring the opinions of others regarding other things like what I'm wearing, how my hair looks, etc. and that has boosted my self-esteem quite a lot. I've even become confident enough to start sharing my writings with online strangers that share my same passion, because I know those online won't tell me personally that they don't want to read what I wrote. They'll just scroll past. Though, sometimes I still hit a rough patch in how I feel about myself, but those moments are few and far between compared to how I was in high school. |
NalarueAniNov 6, 2021 8:28 PM
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| Self-esteem is just an illusion for me.. I think we have problems one way or another, despite our esteem of ourselves. (People say I have low self-esteem :p ) Self-esteem is just an illusion! Forget about your esteem of yourself! |
| I don’t know if I should put TW or if people just don’t bother on this sight, but tw: SA/ED I was SA as a kid over the period of a couple months and it ended up being the main reason for my ED. I took a year off school and I now sometimes get panic attacks when ppl of the same gender touch me which sucks since I’m gay I mean I guess that’s not really to do with self esteem, but I definitely struggled a lot with body dysmorphia during the time which made shit worse. |
| Christian boarding school allowed me to watch big tiddie step-sister tentacle prn in a god-honouring way |
| Yes. It's the reason i never talked to girls or asked them out and am single in my mid 20's. :( |
| My waifu is the most wonderful waifu. Mai Valentine. |
| Before I had my current high self-esteem, mine was at the bottom. For starters, it prevented me from achieving the greatness within myself. I didn't start some of the things I'm good at now (drawing and dancing are 2 examples) 'cause I would tell myself I don't have the "talent". Also it created opportunities for others to take advantage of me. There weren't any boundaries or standing up for myself so there were people who felt they could push me around or treat me any kind of way. Sometimes I was withdrawn toward people who really cared about me. I just didn't want to be around other people really. Thankfully, I'm glad that stuff is in the past and not part of my present |
| Yeh, if I had just told everyone to fuck off in the beginning, I would be super successful by now. Instead I let them all ruin me for all those years to the point where the damage is basically irreparable now. My eyes are perpetually rolling these days |
| My lowest point was probably between Fall last year and Spring this year. Y’all saw me going through a real crisis here on MAL. |
SemillaMinoria said: My lowest point was probably between Fall last year and Spring this year. Y’all saw me going through a real crisis here on MAL. I feel ya. I'm glad you are doing better now though. Lol last year you people on the forums got to see 2 crises of mine. It was not pretty. |
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| I mean, other than having a "friendship" with someone who was more of an escort back in high school, not really. |
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| hell yes. i don’t know why. feeling bad or crappy about myself i hate |
_Nette_ said: SemillaMinoria said: My lowest point was probably between Fall last year and Spring this year. Y’all saw me going through a real crisis here on MAL. I feel ya. I'm glad you are doing better now though. Lol last year you people on the forums got to see 2 crises of mine. It was not pretty. No, it was a good thing. You showed people that you are real. That you bleed. There is strength in showing vulnerability. All the greats have done it. People can really connect with that when someone bares their soul. As for me I still have some pain and some doubts. I’m still being tempted. I still have desires. And now I have even more regrets such as deleting my porn stash and deleting the compilation porn videos I put together that got over a million views and deleting my hook up accounts. I know is what I had to do. What I was supposed to do. But with that I had the option to have sex with someone every day of the year if I wanted to. I had options. The only thing restricting me was having a fiancée and being a Christian. ✝️ |
GenshinRosariaNov 9, 2021 7:16 AM
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