Spring time in April and the last of the cherry blossoms are still in bloom. The usually aloof bookworm with no interest in others comes across a book in a hospital waiting room. Handwritten on the cover are the words: "Living with Dying." He soon discovers that it is a diary kept by his very popular and genuinely cheerful classmate, Sakura Yamauchi, who reveals to him that she is secretly suffering from a pancreatic illness and only has a limited time left. It is at this moment that she gains just one more person to share her secret.
Trying to maintain a normal life as much as possible, Sakura is determined to live her life to the fullest until the very last day. As her free spirit and unpredictable actions throw him for a loop, his heart begins to gradually change.
I'm just your average guy, not an expert in analysis/writing/subtleties such as commentators like Gigguk/SuperEyePatchWolf/the reviews on this page.
It's really easy to get influenced by someone else's opinion or personal experience, and that's why I don't look at the reviews when intending to watch an movie or anime.
Instead of critiquing, which is important in improving anything, whether that be improving major technological developments or more relevantly, anime, I will write down what I experienced emotionally from this movie, because at the end of life, it's not about all the little nit-picking many do, but whether you enjoyed life/the memories you gained/the emotions you experienced.
criticising criticisms, let's get to the main points:
-Cried my eyes out.
-Utterly beautiful and melancholic.
-10/10 for emotional enjoyment.
Now for a miscellaneous message as a topping:
I feel so embarrassed because strangers sitting next to me could see me crying. And I also
feel it's kind of taboo for oneself to cry in cinemas. But in reality, I'm just afraid of fully expressing myself, and subsequently being judged.
Hope you relate 😁
'I Want to Eat Your Pancreas' is a common drama production to this industry. It offers generic school settings with rather superficial teenage characters. The only thing it tries to accomplish is toy with its viewers' emotions to the point of some cheap tearjerking. Those who are okay with this will most definitely see how the movie accomplishes exactly all the thing it wants to. Those who want something more from anime, should look elsewhere.
This movie is a story about death. It starts when the most perfect mary sue on the planet starts randomly talking with a no-life loser dude who happens to be her
classmate. Our characters start frequently interacting with each others and supposedly grow close. They hang out and talk about dying all the time. That's pretty much the entirety of their relationship. It feels random and forced and unnatural.
Our dude is dense and has never had any friends during his pathetic life.. that's pretty much him. Our girl is really perfect and chill and that's also pretty much her. The catch being that she will die soon which further makes these two character - who are the opposites of each others (according to the narration at least) - even more the opposite because the dude is actually alive. Great.
The drama is a separate entity in the work, mainly because it is there constantly whispering to the characters --and especially to its viewers ears-- that shit will go down, just wait and see. Since the great twist is obvious from the start, the whole thing relies on the journey... where nothing spectacular ever happens and the characters feel more like meridians that try to connect the viewers to the emotions.
One could defend most of the events by looking it more from the characters perspective. I found this to be quite hard as they don't feel like real, genuine people at all. If they did, it would be understandable for our heroine to open up to a stranger, as to most people, it's often easier to talk with 3rd parties than to people close to you. Especially the whole fear of death is amazing as a concept, but I don't really see it as anything more than waste of potential in this case.
The whole main dude realizing that people actually die in real life is definitely quite an interesting idea as well.. at least to those who have never experienced this type of thing or considered that all of this could happen to literally anyone. I doubt any person who is aware of how fragile thing person's existence is, can find this specific work do them any further waking up enlightenment, other sudden realization of such things or offer much feels at all. If this movie ever serves someone, it's those viewers who are unaware of how life works, and instead of following our characters for what they are, fall into self-insert. This is one of the rare things with what the author seems self-aware of, as they say "to live is to empathize with someone." And moreover, named the male lead simply "boku" which means "I/me".
There are also several other things I'd want to complain about. Like the claim in narration that our characters are "pure and innocent." Which is really just a try hard attempt on making the viewer accept these thoughts, but the content (teenagers and alcohol) and our characters behavior (random snapping incidents) among several other scenes is the polar opposite of what I'd considered to be either of these things.. which further makes me question the author's ability to even recognize their own work for what it is. I can't say I feel very respected as a viewer when such contradictions exist in the narration.. or perhaps my comprehension of "pure" just differs with the writer.
Our writing is practically a collection of romance cliches. The only remotely original things are the concepts which it deals rather poorly with. Every event, every side character archetype and every moment that drives the story and the relationship development onward, is loaned content. There is not a single thing any romance fan hasn't seen at least 50 times before, and not only that, but the execution is so lame that I would call it offensively bad if the work managed to be less bland, but unfortunately it's not even worth of getting mad over.
If this had been 50 episodes long tv series that offered a real character portray to both of our main characters and their life, connected them, dealt with the same heavy themes. all the copy-pasted events and cliches had been abandon and the story was written by Adachi Mitsuru: this could have been the best drama the anime industry has to offer. Now it mainly looks like a random, shallow past story from any fighting tournament shonen from Nanatsu no Tanzai to Naruto except there is no character depth present in this movie and therefore it is significantly worse than let's say zero arc from Fairy Tail which dealt with rather similar concept.
A lot of anime fans seem to be under the impression that as long as some sort of tragedy is featured and said tragedy happens to a cute girl, an anime automatically qualifies as “good” with its flaws being dismissed due to its label as a ‘tearjerker’ or ‘feels’ anime. Kimi no Suizou wo Tabetai, or ‘I Want to Eat Your Pancreas’, is a recent addition to this label and, while falling into the same traps as many of its predecessors, the movie manages to accumulate even more flaws on its own, resulting in something that is ultimately underwhelming.
[Note: This review was
written following the movie’s premiere in Australian cinemas. I have not read the source material. Once again, the review is NOT spoiler-free]
Kimi no Suizou wo Tabetai’s story, having been done dozens of times before, is very basic: it revolves around an unnamed protagonist (let’s call him Character A) as he spends time with Yamauchi Sakura, a popular classmate whose days are numbered due her terminal pancreatic disease. As Character A helps Sakura ticks off her bucket list, he develops a close relationship and eventually falls for her. Following her death, Character A breaks free of his shell and learns to befriend those around him. On the surface, the plot structure is sound and has the potential to pull the audience’s heartstrings, if done right.
Except it wasn’t.
By treading ground on what has been done to death before in the plot department, Pancreas exposes itself to the risk of being extremely predictable. While this is not inherently a flaw, the movie’s presentation seems to be fully set on sapping the enjoyment of the audience, being narrated in the most uninteresting way possible by Character A. While one could argue for his lack of energy in the delivery of lines to be tied to his characterisation, it doesn’t change that Character A’s monotony worked against the intended emotional impact of many scenes.
And yet, this wasn’t the biggest issue with the plot. In fact, for something so cliché, Pancreas’s greatest vice, ironically, is its attempt to subvert audience’s expectations.
Given the synopsis, most people in the audience would expect the movie to eventually lead to Sakura and Character A’s tearful farewells as she lets go of her last breath on a hospital bed, succumbing to her illness with a satisfied smile on her face. Although this is very conventional, it would have worked. However, in the actual movie, Sakura died from being stabbed off-screen. Yes, stabbed. By a serial killer on the loose.
There is no excuse for this “twist”. Even if the killer did not appear out of nowhere (thanks to an extremely poor attempt at “foreshadowing” or Chekhov’s gun or whatever earlier in the movie), to remove Sakura from the story in this way is, at best, questionable, and, at worst, utterly nonsensical. One could greatly reach in linking this stupid development to the philosophical message that “death may come from every corner” but the sheer silliness of the situation completely nullifies the intended emotional effect. When you look past the shock value, all that remains is, quite frankly, comical.
After this shocking twist, the plot quickly resumes its original course until the conclusion, leaving much to be desired due to the lack of originality and monotonous presentation.
Pancreas’s art is conventional but pleasing to look at. Except for Character A (who looks completely unremarkable), the character design is serviceable. Background art for the movie is quite good and up to the expected standard of a theatrical anime production. Animation is nothing exceptional for the most part aside from a couple sequences that are animated in much more detail. A minor complaint is the movie’s use of still-shots montages, which cheapens the audience’s impression of the movie’s production.
The best part of the movie. sumika did a great job with the opening and ending songs, and the OST, while nothing exceptional, did its job when required.
Character A is a blatant self-insert for the audience. From the generic ‘anime male high school student’ design to demeanour, he is utterly unremarkable as a character for most of the movie’s running time. He has little personality on the outside, exuding no energy in his narration and interaction with other characters. While the behaviour is not completely unrealistic considering that he is a loner, it makes for a jarring watching experience as the audience is forced to follow the perspective of someone who almost never expresses his opinion. The lack of more extensive inner monologue makes the unnamed protagonist hard to relate to or like. On the rare occasions that Character A vocalises something other than some form of “Yes”, a large amount of his dialogue revolves around the gag that he has no friends. While it was somewhat funny (in a sad way) at first, the excessive repetition of this character trait got old very quickly and only highlights how little Character A has going for him outside of his status as the outsider in the class. As a result, the development that Character A later received after Sakura’s death felt unnatural and forced due to plot reasons.
As for Sakura, the movie desperately tries to sell her as an emotionally fragile girl hiding behind a carefree mask. In reality, her character is never effectively explored past the ‘cutesy anime girl’ act. How the movie examines the more sensitive side of Sakura’s psyche is anything but subtle, with her telling Character A (and the audience by extension) outright that she was fragile underneath her cheerful demeanour. With that being the case, Sakura is more like a caricature of a person close to death rather than a relatable character to be invested in. Pancreas’s failure to bring out and develop Sakura’s character in a poignant way is a major reason why the movie lacks any meaningful emotional impact and fails as a ‘tearjerker’.
The relationship between the two characters is questionable, to say the least. By conventional (anime) logic, the combination of a quiet character (Character A) and a lively character (Sakura) provides an ideal environment for them to play off each other’s personality traits. Yet, there is little dynamic between the them, to the point that one must wonder how the relationship is able to sustain itself without the plot requiring it to. Character A appears perpetually uninterested in pretty much everything he does, as if he was sick of her shenanigans. Interestingly, this is probably the most realistic and interesting part of his character considering Sakura’s characterisation. She acts selfishly and becomes increasingly more obnoxious as the movie goes on, forcing Character A to tag along with her to anything she feels like. Despite his reluctance, Character A always plays along with Sakura’s whims anyway, the cause of which can be traced to Sakura’s regular mentions of her dying soon in a cheerful demeanour. All this shows is that Sakura is manipulative and is constantly guilting Character A into feeling bad for her. The impact of Sakura’s unnecessarily cruel antics comes to a boiling point during the bedroom scene. While the protagonist’s behaviour is undoubtedly wrong, Sakura is not at all faultless in bringing about the situation. What is more disappointing is that this MAJOR conflict, despite its serious implications on the nature of the relationship, is not explored in a meaningful way at all. Instead, it is trivialised and resolved lazily with the intervention of a third party: Sakura’s ex who serves no other purpose other than uniting the main couple through his douchebaggery (and waltzing out of existence as soon as he accomplishes his mission). Sakura’s selfish behaviour is, once again, played off lightly as part of her being a cute anime girl and Character A never stops to think for himself or reconsiders participating in the toxic relationship.
The side characters of Pancreas are unnecessary and insignificant in the grand scheme of the plot. Kyoko, Sakura’s best friend, incessantly harasses the unnamed protagonist for hanging out with Sakura. Worse yet, she never attempts to sort out their differences, perceiving the protagonist in an overly negative light that is never justified due to her lack of characterisation. Takahiro, Sakura’s ex, serves no purpose but to resolve the climactic conflict between the two main characters, appearing in a total of two scenes in the movie. Without exaggeration, he disappears and is never heard from again after he fulfils his role. The most mindboggling side character is, without a doubt, Miyata, not for any of his personal intrigue but for the sheer pointlessness of his inclusion in the movie. For anime with a school setting, the dumb sidekick character has traditionally been a staple. With that said, Miyata does not even satisfactorily fulfil that role. He has nothing resembling a relationship with Character A, only occasionally offering him gum and getting refused. While his character’s action can be interpreted to mirror Character A’s growth as a character, what is presented to the audience falls short, resulting in a pointless, random and unnecessary husk of a character. None of the side characters has any business being included in the movie considering their (lack of) characterisation and nothing would have changed in the grand scheme of things if Kimi no Suizou wo Tabetai only revolved around the unnamed protagonist and Sakura.
Despite my low initial expectations, I left the cinema feeling wholly disappointed. From feeling bored at how cliché everything was since minute one, I was aggravated by how in-your-face the movie got as it went on, treating the audience like complete idiots who could not think for themselves. The philosophical statements on life and death from the main characters are shallow, bringing nothing new to a topic that has been done to death already. From an emotional perspective, Pancreas falls flat, its supposedly climatic or shocking moments eliciting little due to how unrelatable the main characters are. Overall, Pancreas was unenjoyable and had me wondering when the movie was going to finish as it trudges through a tired, uninspired narrative.
Kimi no Suizou wo Tabetai, also known by the English title "I want to eat your pancreas", is a drama anime film with tragedy. It is about an outgoing girl who has a pancreatic illness which she has not told anyone except her family that she has this illness. A boy from her class stumbles upon her diary that she left in the hospital and she comes back to fetch the diary only to realise that he read it so she ends up telling him about her illness. Due to this secret knowledge of theirs that none of their classmates know about, they start to
grow closer. Sakura Yamauchi, the girl with the pancreatic illness, notices that the boy is a bookworm and does not talk with anyone and does not have any friends so she feels she has some sort of duty to become friends with him and change him for the better. This all sounds good on paper, but it falls short due to the way this film was structured along with other things that this review will touch on. Some scenes felt out of place and did not add much too the film's main story.
The animation of this film was quite disappointing. It seems that this anime film didn't have much of a budget and a lot of the animation was quite lazy. This film was very much heavy in dialogue to make up for the still shots of animation that had a pan effect on the cinematography showing several still animated shots in one after another that conveyed the character's activities rather than animating their movements. This made the movie tell the story verbally rather than showing it to us and it felt very lazy. Due to this sequence of several still shots throughout the film, it felt very rushed in terms of pacing as it was evident they were trying to squeeze as much as they could into this film.
The soundtrack was not memorable and the opening theme was just shoved into the film in a distracting and "pushy" way. The voice actors did a good job though. No real complaints in that department.
Character development was okay. It could have been a lot better. I liked how they symbolised the unwillingness of opening up doors for friendship with the rejection of taking gum when offered by a classmate. I thought that added a nice little metaphorical touch to the anime film. Where this film lacks though is the reasoning with the actions of the cast in this film. I could not get fully emotionally invested in the relationship between the two main characters as their attitudes and emotions seemed to have a convenient "light switch" wherever it was convenient for the plot to do so. Yamauchi's best friend was a character in this film which was included just to add unnecessary drama to this anime film which could have been a bittersweet tale with more character development on the main characters' relationship but it decided to be more of a rivalry with attention and dictatorship of who Yamauchi should be friends with or the reasons as to why the other characters do not open up to the introverted boy.
I still found some enjoyment watching it as there were sweet moments that occurred in this anime film. It's just a shame that it was tainted by the poorly written aspects of this anime film.
I found this anime to be similar to another anime called Your Lie in April, particularly with the motivations, actions and relationships that are conveyed in both anime. I would suggest watching Your Lie in April instead of this if you have the patience of watching an anime series rather than a film. I cannot recommend this anime unless you find deep enjoyment watching growing friendships within characters that is interlaced with tragedy.
If you do end up watching this anime film, stay to the end of the film as there is a post-credit scene which does make the film a little bit better and adds a better conclusion to the ending before the credits roll.