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There are various reasons that get in the way. Like obviously, they will always prioritize their own people over foreigners. But even so, there are still many available jobs. Then there is this weird, stupid system that gives workers a huge disadvantage. Working contracts through recruiting agencies. At first, you'd think you can find a job through a recruiting agency and despite them commissioning you for a while, you will eventually get hired directly by the employer. It's how it usually works with recruiting agencies. But here in Belgium, it's a little different. They came up with this system to protect the employers. With 1 day contract...I experienced it already and it went like this. I applied for a factory job, got called for interview. I passed it then I got called for work. One day. The next day I got called again. But after that, never again. They didn't say anything, they didn't give me a reason why I didn't get called again. So you gotta try much harder than the usual to find a proper job. Even for natives it's a little hard so imagine how hard it gets for foreigners. But the real reasons that get in my way are: 1 - I don't have a driver's license (I can't get it in my home country because of an eye condition and here I need a resident ID first if I want to try) and 2 - I don't really have a proper specialization I could profess. I worked in administrations so far but I can't do that here because of the language. I don't know French good enough for office work and actually most office jobs require both French and Dutch. I know 0 Dutch. I keep asking myself everyday what am I doing here, I came here unprepared because my sister took me with her. At least I don't have to worry about not having a place to stay but I can't remain like this either. Lately, I've been trying to fool myself not to care and whatever happens happens.

I guess bullying will never disappear. There are various reasons when it happens at work. There is this stupid mindset when veterans are afraid of newcomers that they will lose their positions to them and they bully them to protect their own butts. It's the most common thing I keep hearing over and over again. It's exactly what happened to my sister too. She somehow pulled through for a while, until she got married and her husband had her quit. It's true that children can't understand the hardships their parents go through. Only later you realize how it feels like. My mother has been through many hardships but now she gets to enjoy her retirement. She's currently living alone, well with our cat. She 'babysits' my eldest sister's boys too so she is not really alone.

It really sucks when you trust doctors, just to realize later you've been misdiagnosed and instead of helping, they did more harm to you. It's better to ask for multiple opinions to be sure of your condition but unfortunately, it costs money, you lose time. It's not that easy. Not to mention the fear. Most people don't want to go to hospital for checkups because of fear. It's always in the worst moment that they go.
Not being able to sleep because of pain is the worst. I experienced lack of sleep but only because I had no time. It went for a few months however and I literally became a zombie. I had moments when I felt I was dreaming. Like reality didn't feel real. I once fell asleep while standing, leaning a little on a glass door. It was kinda funny. This was already bad, I can't even imagine how it is like not being able to sleep for a whole week because of pain. Your body started building immunity to the medicine, it sucks when that happens. You are dependent on medicine but human body will always start building immunity to their effects. You probably regret and ask yourself why you didn't take the surgery later but no point to think of life regrets. It's good that you took the step and things changed for the better. Is it the surgery you took around Christmas 2017-2018? I might be wrong though.

Doctors need to pay attention to every little detail! I've heard cases when people died (especially children) because they were prescribed the wrong medicine when they had only a simple cold! I am hearing that too, often doctors are quick to tell patients they have diabetes.
The heart condition was not misdiagnosed, he does have it. It's just the prescribed medicine was wrong. Too strong.

Well, it wasn't that scary since it happened only for such little time. But the feeling was definitely unpleasant. It was a little funny how I've heard in my own body that sounds you hear in movies, when someone gets electrocuted. And my brother was laughing...Because I made some weird sounds. He does know the feeling himself, because he got electrocuted in a similar way too.

You might not feel that way but in other people's eyes, you definitely look strong. Your mental strength is definitely higher than most people's. When I felt suicidal, I was browsing forums. I was surprised seeing people felt suicidal for much less, for silly reasons even. It was around the time I discovered AU forums and chatting there made me forget about my problems.
It's not stupid to think that way. Not at all! Because in reality, you do help others. You know that most people look for a purpose in life, to feel that they are needed. Maybe that one is your purpose. I haven't found mine yet. I wish I would...someday...

Yeah, even though the chapter in manga was more than enough to be adapted into season 2, but whyyy there's no news at all T__T
I watched Prince of Tennis, unfortunately both in Shin Tennis no Ouji-sama and Shin Tennis no Ouji-sama OVA vs. Genius 10, there's no Ryoma Full Match =3=
And yeah, i following the manga too XD Do you read Shin Tennis Manga?

To be honest, i still waiting for Akatsuki no Yona and Prince of Tennis new season XD

It's alright, it happened long ago. You've been through much worse, though it's not a good idea to compare it. I don't really mind my personality, I got used to it so it's fine. It's just certain moments can be a little frustrating. What gets more in my way to find a job right now is that I am a foreigner in another country. I have no idea what am I doing here. My sister offered to help me but I feel it was a mistake to come here.

It's been a long time ago. I've never known about my sister's case, she told me about it many years later. She was bullied at work and she couldn't take it anymore. I do remember however my mother's case when she took pills. I was so scared that time. It took about two days for her to recover and I am glad she never attempted that again. So yeah, people can do some scary things during moments of weakness.

Oh damn...If you are saying that tooth pain doesn't compare to what you've been through, I really can't imagine it how it would feel like. I always considered tooth pain one of the worst pains I could get. You might have high pain tolerance now but that doesn't mean you have to suffer.
You were misdiagnosed? Damn, that sounds scary. I know 3 cases that happened around me. One is my sister, she was diagnosed with some thyroid condition and she took some treatment for a few years, just to find out it was a misdiagnose. Her husband was misdiagnosed with diabetes but luckily, he quickly asked for other doctors opinions. And my other sister's bf took the wrong treatment for heart condition because of an idiot doctor. It's so scary when things like these happen. Errors at work can happen all the time but when it comes to medicine, errors can cost one's life.
You've been though so much. I am glad you took the surgery to make things better. Don't worry, you're not depressing me. I am just a little surprised how open you are about it but if you say you are fine with it, then it's alright. Time is flying so fast, huh. I remember how you were pretty open in your blogs on AU back in 2013. Thanks to the internet, introverts can be more open online. We can relieve some stress. Most of the things I talk online, I couldn't do it IRL.
Just a little curiosity of mine, sorry if I sound too intruding. You compared your pain with electricity running through your body. Have you ever experienced it? I actually experienced it a little and if it's like that, it's definitely nasty. It happened long ago, I was trying to fix a set of Christmas lights and the idiot of me tried to do it while it was plugged lol. I touched a wire and electricity ran through my body for a second. I retracted my hand fast in reflex, but I did get to feel the electricity and it was really nasty. And that is only type 2? Damn...
I see this is a rare condition, it's the first time I am hearing of it. Being able to help others because of your own experience is nice. It offers a little comfort, like all the suffering is not for nothing.

Btw we looks like have some similiar interest in our fav list xD

It was kinda the other way around in my case. I was an university student. I felt like taking a summer job but I decided to continue with it and I tried to juggle both. I was sleeping so little, both my mind and my body got affected. I quit the job but the damage was already done. I couldn't continue my studies anymore and quit the university too. You can fool stress and depression by doing something you like and enjoy. But you can't get rid of them, yeah. And yes, it was anime for me too. However, it affected my personality and habits greatly. I'm a super introvert now and I have a hard time, like for example finding a job right now...

Omg, did that happen to you? That is scary indeed! I'd be very paranoid too. Allergies to meds are very scary. Allergies in general are scary. And experiencing such scary thing like overdose when you didn't even plan it...Both my mother and my eldest sister tried to overdose on meds during difficult times...it's a scary thing to do. And when it's unplanned, it's definitely scarier. It's also scary the fact that some medicine offers the same effects as hallucinogens. No wonder some people get addicted to them.

My brain is trying to process the information you're telling me. There's no way I can imagine how it feels like and seeing that you wouldn't wish your condition on your worst enemies shows it how scary it is. I see you are really strong and I wish for you to remain strong and pass through all the hardships. It's really scary what people do in their moments of weakness. Seeing that your worst experiences can be of use to other people going through the same things can offer a little comfort.

Thanks for accepting me ^^
Nice to meet ya!

It was the lack of sleep and stress, that eventually pushed me into depression. It was hell. I got to recover but I never got back to 100%.

Yes, it's quite unfortunate when things go that way. So many cases when patients take treatment to cure one thing and they develop other thing because of side effects. Or just the side effects themselves suck often.

You used to take 9 of them? Oh damn, that is so scary! It's unfortunate that the condition can't be cured through surgery but at least it helped.
I hope it never comes back to that. What did your doctor say about it?

Omg, that is so scary! It's so much scarier than what I have experienced in the past. I didn't take any medicine but I had a difficult period somewhere around ~12 years ago. I had some sort of blackouts, my memory didn't work well. I couldn't even hold a proper conversation, let alone remember it. I somehow got over it but it was so damn frustrating.
Why is medicine always like this, there is always a side effect...And this one in particular is really scary. Choosing the lesser of two evils...yeah, it is obvious thing to do but it's a shame when you have no other choice in it.
If you don't mind me asking, for how long have you been taking them?
I am bad with this stuff because I am afraid they might sound like empty words but I wish all the best for you!

Hmm. Is it just me then? My mind remained behind. It's kind of scary how my body ages but my mind doesn't.

Noo, you are not old! We're of the same age and honestly, I still feel like a teen.

Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday :)

that’s a hard dub life to live although i can’t read english subs fast enough too sometimes
japanese va’s are really good

oh i never thought of it that way but of course there would be more subbed anime than dubbed
so she doesn’t watched subbed even when there is no dub :c