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Days: 27.6
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Jigoku Shoujo: Yoi no Togi
Jigoku Shoujo: Yoi no Togi
Mar 6, 2017 4:17 AM
Plan to Watch · Scored -
Steins;Gate
Steins;Gate
May 11, 2014 8:43 PM
Completed 24/24 · Scored 9
Wolf's Rain OVA
Wolf's Rain OVA
Mar 4, 2014 2:37 AM
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Berserk
Berserk
Jan 22, 2014 11:34 PM
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Bastard!!: Ankoku no Hakaishin
Bastard!!: Ankoku no Hakaishin
Jan 22, 2014 10:40 PM
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Thrashinuva Jan 25, 2018 6:51 PM
Are you still alive?
Conceicao_101 May 27, 2014 11:59 AM
Hum... Hmm... Why the hell haven't you responded to my comment? Why? :'(

Jackrabb1t Apr 19, 2014 7:29 PM
Well hi, welcome back! I read the post on your profile, hope things are going better for you. :)

Good luck with your friend troubles, finding someone with the same expectations of a friendship can be tough. Don't give up on it though, it sounds like you realize that you need people in your life, and that is very true, though finding and keeping friends can be a lot of work.

Anyways, I have found that where you look for friends makes a big difference. Bars and clubs attract people who just want casual sex. Since you have a sharp mind, maybe try looking for literary clubs or something like that? I can see more intellectual thoughtful people being drawn to things like that.

As for what makes you unique, you definitely have your own perspective on things, a little bit of a crazy side, a (slightly) twisted sense of humor, and no fear about telling people what you think.... :) I mean all this in a good way; I enjoy reading your posts, they are quite entertaining. And deep down inside you have a good bit of common sense too (the kind that comes from hard life lessons I think).

Well, keep your chin up, sister! See you around!
Kongou Apr 19, 2014 3:18 PM
Welp i guess that ''moment'' lasted 6 hours...
I'm having finals in 3 - 4 weeks so i won't be giving an entire essay as a reply. Not because i don't have the time, but because i'm sick of reading/writing that much.

Let's start with this:
''I replied last, do you think you did too or you just got tired of me and started to ignored me for school. As much as I understand that... you come here often! How can a damn list be more important than a PERSON! How could you let me think for 2 months that you just don't care!''

TBH i really just use this site for the lists... I always update it on my mobile devices so i just access MAL on the computer when i look for anime/manga info.

Still, i like chatting with random people so it's not like i don't wanna talk.
''Then why did you not reply to my post?!''

Major reason: It felt like you insulted me

Sub reasons: I'm a busy exam student and you write entire essays.

is that a problem? Nahh, but it prevents me from replying within 10 minutes...
Why didn't i reply for 2 months? I really didn't feel like replying an entire essay to an insult...

Doesn't mean i forgot about you though. TBH, i checked your profile an hour before you became active again. I also your profile every other day to see if you were back.

I almost wanted to ask if you commited suicide but you didn't really take the joke that well when i said it last time...

Tip: buy a nexus 7 2013. It's only around 200 dollars on ebay and it gives you the greatest specs. Reading manga and novels and even watching 1080p/720p anime on it is fucking gorgeous! I decided to buy it because i can't use my mom's iPad when i'll move out the house and it was the best decision ever!

oh and this is what you missed during the last 2 months. (was it only 2 months)
I marked the new updates you missed with an @

My 2014 to do list:
[X] Deciding my college. (This was harder for me than you might think)
[X] Getting a smartphone (Nokia lumia 710 Hand-me-down but i'm happy with it)
[X] Handed in my first version of my profile-essay
[@] Handing in the final version of my profile-essay (I nearly failed this shit with a 4.5)
[@/O] Surviving School-exams (I have yet to receive my societystudies mark)
[O] Surviving Central-exams
[O] Getting my diploma.
[@] Quitting as a mailman.
[O] Getting a new job because i quit being a mailman.
[O] Getting a laptop for my studies
[O] Getting an Headset for my studies + Skyping with the friends i'll be leaving behind.
[O] Buying ALL of my daily necessities.
[O] Moving out of the house.
[O] Survive my own cooking untill 2015.

(Optional)
[O] Getting a girlfriend. (Impossibru I know)

Shit is starting to move.
BTW i can't graduate if i don't get a good grade on my societystudies test so FML
Kongou Apr 19, 2014 9:05 AM
I'll reply to your message in a moment.

But first: going to cycle 30 min to mcdonald. Why mcdonald? Dunno, the fact that you appeared again made me want to go mcdonald's for some reason...
LisaOfShades Apr 19, 2014 8:23 AM
*Myself*

I left for a while because a few hurtful things happened in my life and I needed some time to myself to heal.

I don't have much energy, and since people can drain so much especially when they hurt you, I've gave up on having friends since years.

Kongou touched me when he asked me to come here... but he said something that needed to be clarified, I didn't know if it was kind or mean. It happened when I lost 2 other friends and right before my birthday... I feel awful that even after 2 months he never bother to reply.

But I feel touched that other people did.

I tried to help an acquaintance who agreed to become a friend but never acted on it, but never took her words back either. I tried to help her like I saved my health, but I couldn't stop her from making herself sick... I tried to give her a gift and she looked at me with despise... I don't need this.

I started to go to geekout meetings... but once again someone asked me to own and fuck me the very first day after I told him that this could endanger my health... he kept pressuring me with not so subtle actions. What was so wrong with it is that he didn't care about me, he didn't know me. He only cared about how he could use me for self gratification, like a sperm toilet, and own me like a thing, not share a relationship with me, not offer himself to me.The idea to offer me anything never crossed his mind. He even gave me an angry despise when I refused... like a spoiled child who was denied a toy. If he truly loved me he would have appreciated my company no matter the relationship we were in.

Because I've been treated like this... like a thing and not a person, and felt lonelier with a lover than ever been alone... I gave up on sex... ever being loved... on ever having a relationship... for the rest of my life... I managed to accept this peacefully, I even find pride in being an asexual. I find it funny that I'm more chaste than priests!

But after how he acted... as I merely tried to be social and have friends... I came to the conclusion that I cannot have friends either... and it shattered my mind.

I thought that I healed quickly because I got over him quickly. But the stress took its toll on my weak adrenal glands... I crashed so bad I couldn't even take care of the basics... and then one day... I just healed. I don't know why. I tried a new recipe with red beans, red rice and vegetables. I gained tremendous energy. Maybe time just healed me. Anyway it was delicious.

I've been thinking about replying to this place almost everyday... But I felt ashamed for leaving so long and thought that I'd be forgotten anyway...

Someone forgot our conversation and just skipped it after only a few days... I thought there would be no point coming back after 2 months... But the way Grimatic shown his appreciation to me... I thought that at least him would miss me. He's been so very kind to me.

I was hoping that Kongou would have replied me... to clear things out... to at least tell me that he doesn't want to be my friend anymore... being ignored is even more painful than insults... I agree. He's the one who made me come out of the woods... and he was also the reason why I was scared to come back. He's meaningful to me... either way.

I don't know if I should leave or if someone would love me to stay... but I don't have enough energy to go where I'm not wanted... I do need friends... but that's more than someone to talk to, someone to kiss, or someone to fuck...

I need someone I can care about without pain... and someone who'll care back.
Jackrabb1t Mar 26, 2014 1:00 AM
Haven't seen you around lately...

Hope your doing fine out there and staying unique! :P
2Legit4U Mar 17, 2014 11:44 AM
Do not fret my friend. No ounce of mocking is present in my heart rather profound respect! The internet is where you must unleash the confines imposed on you by the real world and let your true personality break free! If your internet you is your real you I am very upset for not knowing you in real life!

I hope soon there is a light to illuminate the dark so that you may see bright sun instead of darkness.

Immortality is definitely something I'd have to think twice about. That unable to see clearly enough to read subtitles really hit me. /: That's really scary. And it's infinite too! Never ending.

I will definitely have to consider deeply whether or not I really do want to become immortal. But I'm pretty sure I do so I will continue readily eating oranges!

That sounds harsh, you're condition must have been pretty serious at a stage. But it's good to hear you're feeling better! And better yet it was all thanks to Vitamin C! While generally i prefer the letter A fort it's connotation to receiving a really good score on a test the letter C is slowly capturing my heart!

Fast food? You mean fatty oily bleached lumps of unhealthily flavoured lumps of meat? I despise the very idea of it! Yet it continues to spread like an uncontrollable incurable disease like AIDS! It doesn't affect you immediately and it starts off quite small, there is some resistance to the disease but all resistance is quickly flushed out and slowly after years the axe comes down and SLASH! YOU"RE DEAD!!!!! Worst of all you can't blame it on the fast food, the fast food just allowed for some other virus or bacteria to kill you! Truly despicable!

I adore cookies. (Shame)

I've had clementines! They are Freaking amazing~~~
Micronique Mar 6, 2014 10:39 PM
Unless you've seen it, one you could try is Shiki.

While I personally think it's slightly clumsy (with seemingly unbalanced pacing), it goes above and beyond in supernatural/vampire genre.

Though Crunchyroll doesn't provide the viewing, FUNimation does. Unfortunately HorribleSubs doesn't have it ripped for nyaa.
Micronique Mar 4, 2014 1:28 AM
Avid fan of your wolf packs (batches), here to show my gratitude. Thanks.
Nohrain Mar 2, 2014 12:13 PM
The guy's name is Harima Kenji lol, he is one of the best male characters out there, so unique and funny.

The picture is really tempting i agree, its more like a hormone enhancer so i keep it.

Is your picture from 'Wolf's Rain'?
PureFault Mar 1, 2014 7:24 PM
Haha... I'm definitely not Asian. I lived in Tokyo for awhile, if that counts?
My avatar actually use to be me, but I like Persona better ;)
LisaOfShades Mar 1, 2014 6:59 PM
*note to self*

I tried the forums today, even though I should have kept up with my PMs instead... it kinda was a disaster XD I tried to share morbid jokes and people didn't find it funny, what they found funny was way, way worst...

This made me realize... there's way more insane people than I am here...

And if I'm not THE crazy one... then who am I!?... I lost my identity!!!? *SHRIEKS and jumps out the window*
Hulmy-chan Mar 1, 2014 4:22 PM
Well... a lot of people are already complaining. There's a thread on the forums that keeps updating the status of the BBCode. You should take a look if you want to. It says some information about it will be said this month sometime.

I hope you didn't say stuff like that on the forums. lol.

What kind of douche bag people have you met? If people really do think that, then they have some serious issues. Regardless, I had no idea you felt that way. You could have told me it made you feel uncomfortable, I would have changed it sooner.

Oh yeah, I know that. It's just the way you said it before made me confused a bit. Heheh.

I'm not even sure how a club like that would be allowed. But yeah, you should have reported it. NSFW things are pretty much a no-go here. Does that mean the club is gone now?

You can be random in casual discussion, but by the looks of it, you already have.

I have social issues too, so I really have no idea what to say here...

I'm not sure how you came across that from dating websites, but needless to say, I really have no idea what to think about this. I'm seriously at a loss for words. And I can say proudly that this is probably the most fucked up thing I've ever heard.

I can picture this being you.

I'm always up to talk, yo~
Axelander2 Mar 1, 2014 2:27 PM
Oh, damn - I got stalked - by an old person! :OOOO

Now I finally know how all dem gurls feel whom I molest! ;)