I'm as talkative and crazy as Deathpool.
I have a severe duct tape deficiency. Mwahahahaha!
I don't kill people for a living though. I tried to dig a hole for roses, it was so exhausting that there's no way I can bury a dead body. It's too bad that I don't have a boat. *Maniacal laughter* I love water, fishes and sushi. I have many aquariums with guppies and bettas, but I don't make sushi with those.
I'm a French Canadian. I make great efforts to write properly, even when I fail miserably, and would appreciate the same courtesy so I can learn.
I value blunt truth and freedom~
I'm very fond of photography because it immortalizes the beauty of life into pictures, and animes because it takes pictures and brings them to life beautifully.
As a general rule, for me to like an anime, somebody has to die, or bleed a lot. The more blood the harder I laugh. I adore parodies, satires and sarcasm. I'm the embodiment of them. I don't like clichés like school girls and mechas, but I did like Code Geass. I have an open mind. Especially when it's supernatural, evil and freaky. Love it!
I use all of my brain: my kid side, emotional, rational, and dark side. I'm always impressed by split personality stories, or anything out of the boring ordinary. I need complexity and originality. I'm gifted with a high IQ, but socially clueless, like a wild animal. I actually kinda know what people expect, I just refuse to be trapped in a stereotypical box. What's the point of having a easier life, by playing it safe and obedient, if you're dead inside...
I'm eclectic, a hybrid in many ways~ Why follow one path blindly when you can get the best of many~
I love dark humor above all, and spontaneous randomness~ I'm crazy, on purpose, with great effort and care. It amuses me. I hope that you'll choose to appreciate it too~
I'm a health nut. I'm good at hunting information and this is my passion. According to my research, specialists and my experiments: in theory if we took massive doses of vitamin C instead of sugar, we'd become immortal. Or at least we'd stop being sick. I'm the undead proof!
I'm hypoglycemic, so if I try to bite your head off, I'm probably just hungry... or playfully showing my affection... or you really provoked me too long and deserve it.
I merge orphan torrents into 480p packs. Mostly by HorribleSubs. I'm [WolfPack] at nyaa.se
This is a short post for me. Well, maybe not anymore. I edit them many times. I can write way more than that. Unlike the writer's block, I can't stop! I'm a writer's wettest dream~ XD But I'm asexual, attracted to neither, so don't take sexual comments literally, to me it's a all big joke. Hyper-sexualisation annoys the hell out of me, if I wanted to see panties, I'd open my drawer! I could have a deep friendly affection for any gender, but I'm a misanthrope so it's rare. Except maybe effeminate evil men, like Sephiroth! Tototo~tom~~~!
I'm actually chaotic good but I'll just call myself evil. I'm a Demon Lord. Definition:
Lord for the high intelligence and literacy. Demon because it’s not enough to be intelligent, you have the get the guts to face the dark facts that everyone wish to deny, the truth hurts but it also sets free. I find a wicked pleasure in rubbing cold hard facts in the face of the people who dare to ask, or who are unbearably stupid. Calling people names isn’t constructive, but teaching them until they realize their own stupidity is the greatest way to put an end to it. I’m not a freaking troll! By definition, insulting someone with names like that, instead to argue our views with logic, IS trolling.
Every time I see the submit answer button, I'm like NO! I'll never submit! Just post my torrent of text you damn button!
Lisa of Shades
Stay healthy with real food, and take care~
I'm a health nut, among other nuts!
Enjoy the pea peacock, he leads to recipes:
The shades of my personality:
There is actually order in my chaos, once you know all the corners of my mind. It's very similar to Jung's theory of analytical psychology, the archetypes of the Collective Unconscious. But I explored it by myself, since I was 6.
Holy ~ My kid side
When I was a child, I saw the adults rushing through their day with a bad mood, oblivious to the wonders of the world. I swore to myself that I would never let this part of me die. It's my ability to feel sheer joy, its purpose is cheering. It's the part of the brain that develop during childhood but is forgotten as we learn to be adults, but still there. It's the part of me that I used to build my social persona. Because I want to see people smile, and my worst fear is to have people see the darkness in me. It correspond to Jung's Inner child.
??? ~ Rational side
His name is my secret, but he correspond to Jung's Wise old man. The exploration of my inner self all started with this man. I used to make myself bed time stories with a recurrent character, and one day he spoke to me. I think my subconscious used it as a doorway so that my rational brain could talk to the emotional brain I specialize in. Extremely intelligent, more than I can even be with aware thought processes, he's able to calculate the probabilities of cause to effect and warn me of danger, of how to obtain my objectives... (Like pacts with the devil since prayers are useless unless you make it happen, and you loose something every time you gain something to preserve the balance...) but more strangely, it also works the other way around... With synchronicities. Unlikely coincidences that are very favorable. Thy happen to everyone and most people don't notice them... but I do... because I usually ask him for help first. To me, he is god. Or perhaps more like the devil for telling me the cold hard facts of life, but while this might seem like cruelty, it has saved my life many times, and I have never seen a deeper kindness. He tells me that the heart must lead, because without the important information from the emotions and senses, he wouldn't be able to come up with solutions so effectively, becoming my 6th sense of intuition. As much as I worship him, he tells me that God would actually be the sub-sub-conscious of all living things that are, were and will be, like the cells of our body makes us who we are through life, and as insignificant as one is, we'd be nothing without each and every one of their independent little lives. He is my advisor and my guide. I'd be dead without him. refusing to listen to reason leads to disaster. He told me not to ask a question unless I'm ready to hear something that I really don't want to, that might destroy everything I believe, and crumble the very ground under my feet. I was told that I ask too many. But I cherish truth, even though there are an infinity of them, like the sides of people's minds... a diamond with many facets, good or bad being merely different sides of the same thing, always in balance. This part is an observer, a deep thinker, not meant to be seen. But if I give you cold hard facts to help you gain a new perspective, it's probably this part of me. I feel safe, because no matter how bad things get, I know that he'll figure it out. No matter how long it takes, he'll lead me to safety again.
Shad Wolf ~ The dark side
(To draw: wicked male with a sword and long hairs)
He is Jung's Shadow. For the longest time I've felt nothing but sheer terror and hatred toward this part of me. But the harder I tried to be good, the more evil he grew.... because everything stays in balance and it's a vital part. Being good at all cost only got me abused because a defenceless prey is an easy prey. It wasn't love or kindness, it was hypocrisie. You can't be compatible and love everyone. It was unfair to treat my enemies the same as the people who showed me kindness. I met him when I was 16... the dark rage I saw first took the form of a ghostly putrid giant wolf. When I was too wounded by people I was too weak to hold his chain and he could get out. But one day I finally understood: the only thing that he wanted was to protect me. As another side's purpose was to care for others and only got pain in return, his only purpose was to care for me, with the unconditional love that I desperately craved and was ready to endure hell itself, hoping to deserve, when I always did. One day he told me "You know... if you allowed me to get out when people first try to hurt you, instead to wait until you're near death, I wouldn't be so enraged all the time anymore". So I started letting him out, respecting him, and he became fluffy and playful, even if he plays rough, I really enjoy him. And when I freed him on people who assaulted me, finally considering my own life more important than random stranger's, I thought he'd beat them to death, but he just showed his fangs with the conviction to fight with everything I had, even if it hurt or killed me... and the people ran away to never bother me again... He didn't even need to touch them, or even say a single word... Just the crushing will to defend myself was terrifying enough. Nothing scares me anymore. Because I won't go down without a fight, because my worth and what I deserve doesn't matter. If I don't like it, I can just walk away and never look back... or tear someone appart with my bare hands and teeth. I am not human anymore. Because I have embraced my primal brain, my survival instinct. I will no longer accept to be tortured to be politically correct or polite. I've never felt so free~ But I am evil now, terribly evil, because I won't look away from the dark, it's in me, it's everywhere... and only by acknowledging it can we truly turn it into something constructive. There's nothing more dangerous than the ticking time bomb of someone who tries to be perfect-good. So I'll relieve the pressure with dark humor, even if it will get me hated and misunderstood... because now I see... that this side of me has its good points too. And it makes me utterly happy~
Annae ~ The heart
(To draw: woman in Victorian dress)
This is my heart, the core, my emotional brain. Idealist, she constantly mourn all the possibilities that will never be. A empath healer, she feels all the pains of the world, but people have to take care of themselves she can't force it on them. So she feels as powerless as Cassandra, in the Greek mythology, foreseeing pain but people refusing to believe her... and watching them walk to their doom. She holds all the sorrows so that the kid side can let go and be care free. She cannot stop to care, she can only twist her passion into cold hatred to shield herself, but she feels everything as if the whole world was an extension of her own body. Every sentient being is a person, animals, plants, insects, even viruses and every single cells of our body... the collective of so many lives working together, like society. We are one. Without her, the reason wouldn't have enough information to think, and the survival instinct wouldn't have the fire to empower itself... For the longest time I wondered which one would be the real me, and I thought it would be her... but it's the sum of them all. It's the most vulnerable yet most powerful part of me. I don't like when people see it, because she's so full of melancholy. But she watches over and cares, even if ultimately, she cannot fulfil other people's responsibility toward themselves. A deep thinker is meant to reflect in solitude, it's the price to pay to have the time to connect to an eternity of endless possibilities and the whole universe itself. But as much as she feels deeply in her core the bond with everything in the world, she does so by being introverted. So she doesn't have the skills to socialize in the mundane, in spite of having genius, it goes against the nature of her skill... and being so full of longing for warmth and share love with others... for her purpose is devotion... it adds to the tragedy... as people are ungrateful and exploit until there's nothing left... but darkness. Like a fallen angel.
Shade, now Amber Arane
The first Shade, she got her name stolen when I bound my dark side to my rational side, to give him awareness and be able to function on his own, as my heart was too wear to lead at the time, and I was scared of that monster turning berserk. But she is actually a different side. I have yet to discover her for I'm still uneasy with her. She seems to be my sexual side, yet I am asexual. Amber is like a black widow, violent and feeling a deep hunger when too excited. This is actually a survival response to hypoglycemia. So while Shad is my defencive mechanism, she is... desire. Not just lust, but gluttony, greed... everything necessary to stay alive. I had glimpses of her since childhood... but I knew nothing of her except that she seemed to be a strong willed and composed woman. She may be the bringer of life, even though that purpose was denied by the stupidity of men. She has a deep resentment and desires of vengeance for men. Even though she is sensuality itself. You'd be both very lucky and unlucky to meet her. She's like a dominatrix, who'd rejoice in beating the crap out of you, but would never surrender herself to a spineless man like that, so her attacks are more likely a test for whoever can win against her with dignity, self control and respect... not mindless brutal force or acting like a rat in heat. She's like an amazon, able to stand proud and fight for her convictions. She's like siren, able to sing to bewitch you, but if you can't resist keeping your own mind, ultimately leading you to your doom. She's like a wood nymph, voluptuous grace, beloved by life itself and loving it back, tenderly. But never finding any human worthy. Her new name, Arane, is from araneae, Latin for spider, Amber for the trees.
What you'll most likely see is my kid side and dark side. In random spontaneity, but always reacting to the way I'm treated.
I tend to vanish in the woods to rest, but since my humor is easily misunderstood and I have to be crazy to stay sane, maybe I'll get killed. I never check my emails, I just come here, but if the worst happens, my email is with gmail.com.
I have seen way more animes than I'm willing to put in my list. I have a excel file with hundreds of entries. I feel privileged and grateful to be able to watch such art~ My home is full of posters!