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Oh Nomura, Nomura! Even now, i want you! I need you! The excruciating delight i felt that day we exchanged blows still haunts my heart! When i was young, all i laid eyes on was gray. Nothing was enough for me. A tasteless, bland world without value... Then, only the parts i cut out myself took in vivid color. Anything i could get my hands on. I dyed in my color. But you were so bright, you colored everything i had already taken into my control. You should have been mine, but instead... The shining light i saw that day must surely have dyed me in your color. Where did i lose sight of it? If, back then... No, or even now, if i could cast off my pride and all... Could we... Could even i... No, things can no longer go back to how they were. I can never get that back! If that is so, then i should... kill you. How unsightly! Its almost like i`ve run away from him. I know what it is that has made me go so insane... The pain i felt that day has endlessly plagued me ever since. Perhaps my heart and body were weakened by that unfamiliar damage... My chest aches uncontrollably in its desire for it. But Nomura is not a man who will submit. Hes just the same as I. Then i must continue until i reach him. If he will not be mine... then i must kill him! It hurts... I wanted this for the longest time. I wanted a pain that would help me forget the burning in my heart. More! Give me more! Look only at me, touch only me, think only of me!
- Wouldnt say its my hobby to one-sidedly force someone into submission and get them to listen to me.
Yes... you fight not to win, but to show where you stand. Im feeling that for the first time right now. Because the victor has already been decided. Loving is losing. I will not allow half-hearted attitude. Can you tell Nomura, what this ringing in my chest it? I loved you so strongly i wanted to kill you. This is the end, Nomura. Be mine. Nomura is mine.
- When did i become yours?
From the moment we met, you have always been mine, deep within my heart.

When the tree leaves dance, one shall find flames. The fire's shadow will illuminate the village, and once again, tree leaves shall bud anew.
No single thing is perfect by itself. Thats why we are born to attract other things to make up for what we lack.
Those who forgive themselves and are able to accept their true nature... They are the strong ones!
Its not the face that makes someone a monster, its the choices they make with their lives.
If you dont like your destiny dont accept it. Instead have the courage to change it the way you want it to be.
Those who do not understand true pain can never understand true peace.
Hard work is worthless for those that dont believe in themselves.
Appreciate everything around you before moments become memories.
Its foolish to fear what we have yet to see and know.
Its not about being the best. Its about being better than you were yesterday.
Some people envy you, there must be something good in you.
We have walked trough the darkness of the world. Thats why we are able to see even a sliver of light.
When people are protecting something truly special to them, they truly can become as strong as they can be.
Believe it!
Growing occurs when one goes beyond one`s limits. Realizing that is also part of training.
When there is true desire in the heart and that desire is strong... That is when he finds real strength that even he did not know he had.
Only hate gives birth to more hate.
The best medicine always tastes bitter.

A human is only a human for one reason. His will. Poor Alucard needed blood to maintain his soul and continually consumed others to survive. That is what you call a monster.

Tyrants always end up drinking poisoned wine because of their arrogance.

God helps those who help themselves. He does not save those who ask for mercy. Thats not a prayer. Its just begging. Your battle is your prayer.

To become a monster like me... To give up your humanity only shows that you are weak. You`ll become the very thing you sought to destroy!

Those who refuse to give up are entitled to trample over humanity.

So, how did it go? With Mikasa! Do you think shes gonna be able to forget about you and live happily with someone else? The way you wanted.
- Mmm. Dunno.
The hell kind of an answer is that? I still havent forgiven you! How do you feel about the fact that you ignored Mikasa`s feelings? Mikasa risked her life and only ever had eyes for you! Did you think you could just say "forget about me" and that would be that? At the very least, Mikasa should forget about a heartbreaker like you and find happiness. Well, she might find a good guy sooner or than you`d think and hit it off with him.
- No... That would kill me! I dont want her to find someone. I want to be her one and only for the rest of my life! And after i die, i want her to pine after me for atleast 10 years!
Oh... I see... I didnt think you would say anything that pathetic...
- Dont tell Misaka any of this. I want her to find happiness. I really do. But i... Ugh, damn it! I dont wanna die. I dont wanna leave Mikasa, or any of you!

Sometimes its hard to rule over the selfless.

I have always gone to any lenghts to avoid facing danger and risk, hiding myself within a safe cage, where no one could hurt me. I hated myself for it... But i couldnt change myself. Friends and teachers encouraged me, but i never truly listened, considering it the logic of the strong. Yet somehow... A boy with less than half my strength managed to brake my cage! I will survive... So that i can thank you!

*Damn, i dont believe it. Such a fragile creature!* You arent bothering anyone. *What am...* You are an important guest! *... I saying? Didnt i come here to kill her? Why cant i do it?* Why are you crying?
- I sorry! But... But... No one has ever been this nice to me!
*What is this creature? What do i want to do with her?*
Most people have reacted the same way the king has at one point in their life, where you meet someone who defies all of your logic and common sense.

Yeah, this is it. This is the world i wanted. The world i longed for and sought... But deep down, i thought it was beyond my reach... That it wasnt meant for me... And wouldnt happen... I had given up on this world. Killua, im... Im so happy, i could die. How could you know the words I most wanted to hear? Im going, not matter what it costs me. I have seen the other side... I have made contact. I have learned it really exists... And i can reach it!

Your weakness is that you are too quick to give up. Even when facing enemies with equal strength, you worry about how strong they are, or what they might do to you. If we are talking about a stronger enemy, theres no question... You dont bother to think of how you could win. Running is your only option. Thats how losers think. I realize that this isnt your fault. Its the fault of whoever taught you to fight. Habits that are burned into your body and soul arent easy to break.

the dead ones dont sue you

trough trial you will mature more

I...i want to shoulder your sins with you.

This fortress will be the last bastion left to humanity. The pressure weighing down on your soulders is immeasurable. But no matter the result, the responsibility does not lie solely with you. The responsibility for this lies with all of us adults. We took advantage of hate... instilled and fostered it... believing it would bring us salvation. All the problems arising from our faults we dumped onto the "island of devils". As a result, that monster was born, and now its marching our hatred right back at us. If, by some miracle, we manage to have a future again, i vow to never repeat the same mistake. I hope you will all make the same vow. To brake away from our era of mutual hate... To create a new world where people take care of each other... Here and now, we say farewell to our monster! Begin the bombardment!

Hey did you know? Those really annoying screechy things out right now? Apparently, they are all virgins.
-For real? Wait, they cant all be virgins. Theres gotta be chicks, right?
Nah, apparently only the male ones screech like that. If you could translate their screeching into words, they are yelling "i wanna get laid!".
- Oh, shit.
They usually spend all their time being lazy and sleeping in the dirt, but they think if they let loose and screech a litte, they can get laid.
Huh? Thats pretty messed up.

Hey...
-Sorry. Did i say something weird?
I dont know much about your past, but stop looking like you are going to cry when you are with me.

Dont worry. You are the coolest. Dont worry. Your song will get trough to people. Damn it. We are definitely gonna make it next time!
- Our hands drift apart, no matter how much i dont want them to. But still... we can go anywhere we want.

You.. you are in love with me, but you are gonna run away? Why? Who cares anymore? Haruki... You keep mentioning an ex-girlfriend, but are you actually able to sleep with any girls when you are like this? Damn. Im just taking out my frustration on him. If you feel so sorry for me and my feelings, why are you trying to throw me away? I want to hold you. I want to run away. I want to give up on this. But i just cant let go of you. I want to touch you. And it hurts so much. Im sorry. Im really sorry. Thats not what i want to apologize for. How lame can i be? I have nowhere to go.

I mean, its not like my feelings for him just suddenly disappeared. But knowing that the one you like doesnt want anything from you hurts.

His voice may be on the pretty side, but actually listening to it makes me feel some strong emotions... Maybe not strong emotions per se, but i get shivers. Its like his voice is screaming without actually screaming. So its sort of a waste for him to be so quiet all the time.

I thought that love would be softer, sweeter, and kinder. I found out with my first love, that those thoughts were just a happy delusion. Falling in love with someone is something much more violent, like having your flesh ripped apart. Falling in love with someone means you have to expose the softest, most fragile parts of yourself to them. Otherwise, it wont work out. Being touched sends you spiraling into delirium. The slightest hint of their nails on your skin rips it open, and if they try to crush you with any intent, its fatal.

Is there something wrong with me?
- No? Whats wrong about it? That you like a guy? "Im only supposed to be into girls" or something? Dont worry. Thats what i thought myself, but i have been with guys too. Or are you gonna say theres something wrong with me?

Like how opposite poles on magnets are attracted to one another, it seem as though their own little world was complete with their own set of rules.

Where could he have possibly stored all that sadness in that skinny body of his? If there is a next time.. I want it to be me.

At first it felt like a curse, but it was basically my new start.

*I think the heart is similar to these strings. When the pain is too much to bear and you cant breathe, it hurts, like the strings laid across your chest are about to snap. Its just like when you keep strumming the picking at the strings to their very limit, and sometimes they snap. Sometimes you feel like they cant ever be replaced. But if there was someone to replace your strings for you, like this... i feel like your wounds may heal just a little. Mafuyu... I like your sound. I was trying to give you a little push, but before i realized it, you were the one pulling me up. Ever since you showed up, my sound has been scattered, disconnected, and warped... Its just a mess. But im having so much fun now that when i was just playing the chords i was told to play. Damn it, what am i trying to say? I guess i suck at trying to put my feelings into words, too.
- A story that took place one winter... a story that took place one evening... No matter when i go, you are there. You are always in my head. You are in everything i see. No matter when i go, i can still see you there, can still smell your scent. I cant forgive you. I cant forgive myself. But i want to. I miss you. Thank you... Thank you for getting me this far. Thank y-
*You did so good out there.