A few months back I put over 300 hours into Tales of Symphonia. My plan was to make it to the limit of the timer. Play the undub to the time limit also. Then play the Japanese version for the PlayStation 2 to the time limit. Then finally play the sequel, Dawn of the New World to it's own limit. Then play Tales of Vesperia, the XBOX360, to it's limit. Then play the Japanese PlayStation 3 version, to it's limit. Then, go back and start a new gamesave for Tales of the Abyss, except instead of on the actual PlayStation 2, for PCSX2, and play it until it's limit. Then, go back and play the undub on PSX2 to it's limit. Then, go and play the Japanese version of Tales of the Abyss until it hits it's time limit. Then, go and do the same thing for all of the other Tales of video games, such as Tales of Destiny, and completely utterly complete everything possible about everything single Tales of game. Then, I would go back and do it again, except I would record my gameplays and put them on youtube. I happen to own all of the games as we speak.
But then OCD self esteem problems came up. As you can see, I've become a pretty hardcore and loyal Tales of fan. I've become disenfranchised with Square, and instead Tales of has pretty much become one of my most beloved video game hobbies. I want to do everything Tales of there is to do out there. Every piece of fanart, every single product. I want to own and do it all. I just... want the self esteem to do it again and feel like getting lost in a game. I want to feel good about getting lost in any franchise I remotely like again. Whether it be Pokemon, or Final Fantasy, or Megaman, or anything, I want to be absorbed in a fictional world and feel okay about it. Because that sort of thing makes me feel good. So far... I only seem to be able to manage to keep myself into My Little Pony. Which is good enough I suppose. I kind of want to pick back up another one of the things I've loved though, like Tales of, and feel motivated to play the games for hundreds of hours again. And be completely absorbed in it.
Because the happiest moments in my life, are when I'm completely into something. And have no reservations about doing so. |