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Nephy: “The villagers told me to use my power to protect them.” That “'It's time you repay us for letting you live,' they said.”
“After they said that, it was like I could hear something breaking apart inside of my head.” — Everyone goes through moments like this. Nobody wants to be the guy to end a cycle of hatred. It's an icky feeling, which lasts for a moment, but the real reward is everlasting internal peace.
“And when I say that (after the attack from the sorcerers) I thought that they deserved what happened to them! Isn't that awful? As I saw the people who cursed my existence die, I laughed at them!”
Regret and guilt darkens her heart, wounding her soul — “I only realized what I had done after the fact.” — Instead of the real reward, she receives the fake reward, so the opposite happens... Instead of an icky feeling that lasts for a moment she receives joy that lasts for a moment, and everlasting guilt and torment.
Zagan: “That's why she stopped expressing her emotions.” again, instead of everlasting peace, she is tormented, and looks (to Zagan) for guidance.
Zagan replies: “ I would've killed the entire village along with the attackers” — complete disregard for human life.
Nephelia: “Even then... I don't think what I did can be forgiven.” — states the truth, but doesn't know the answer.
Zegan: “Forgiven by who?” -- the answer is anyone. WHO will forgive HER if she can't forgive others. Why should anyone be forgiven?
Nephelia: “By... the people of the village!” -- She doesn't know if some escaped. But unfortunately, dead is dead. That's the end. One life.
Zegan: “But they're dead. So what does it matter?” — Nephelia isn't dead, she was apart of the village, it greatly matters to her, Zegan.
Zegan: “I doubt even they are so pathetic that they'd chide you from beyond the grave.” — avoiding the main topic (Nephelia) and discussion with a fallacy. That's not an answer, Zegan.
Villagers dead OR alive, if Nephelia can't forgive others who have done wrong to her, how will anyone forgive her when she does wrong? How will she feel the next time someone tells her she is forgiven? She will question herself again. And her heart will feel sick.
This is silly: Zegan then says: “When you have strength you should live a strong life. Otherwise, it's an insult to those who die because they are powerless.” The reality is, you're only as strong as your spirit. And if it's weak, no matter how many guns you have, you are weak. For every question you don't know, you will provide a wrong answer, affecting yourself and everyone around you. It's a never ending cycle of death. This was actually the main theme of Naruto — Mercy and Forgiveness, a godly trait very few are capable of.
Nephelia was given power, a special talent, and questions if it's better for someone else to have it — I'd say yes, it's wasted on her. And it will be wasted on her until she finds the correct answer, to heal her gaping wound of a heart.
Zegan's story about saving a girl from a gang of rubbers (:P lol rubbery): However harsh, he's telling the truth to the girl about getting stronger or you will be prayed upon. BUT HOWEVER, good deeds are trash-tire if there's no backbone behind it. Teach don't just preach, Zegan. This guy really sucks... The very definition of lording it over — Ironically, the girl then gives a logical and reasonable response during the high-stress situation, frustrated with her saviour. By attacking his weak character or lack of manliness: “Does flaunting your strength really make you so great?” The scene/flashback ends with a stunned Zegan; a classic derpy 'i dun kno' as he then applies his prejudice to the unnamed girl, speaking with Nephelia. “I got the feeling that she had been treated really well growing up.”
Reverse logic: calls the girl he saved weak, when it's he himself who is weak. Again, doesn't matter how powerful you are...
I hope we see that girl again. By far the most virtuous character, and we're only graced with her for such a short blimp. 'Tis a pity.
Zegan gets really strong and then admits it got him nothing in the end... like having a lot of cash.
I like this part: Zegan changes the topic, then says, “I already told you I needed you, didn't I?” he's questioning his own heart, now, looking for answers in Nephelia while Nephy is looking for answers in Zegan... what is this called... two parties with a lack of confidence and low self-esteem... they're lucky they have friends in town. The storytelling is thick with fiction, that I doubt any real conclusion or truths will surface in this story. But I do want to see the end-game. |