prawnprowler said:LightBladeNova said:
Regarding the discussion about Kousei's trauma, I believe it's obvious that his mother's abuse is a very strong factor, but maybe HasHash is trying to ask whether or not that was the ultimate cause of it (if he's not asking that, and is actually skeptical of whether or not he has trauma, then I can't really further this discussion...). As we see in the show, Kousei mentally broke down and suffered his illness only after his mother's death, so was the abuse or the guilt (the guilt of saying "I wish you'd just die" as his last words to his mom) the final push?
I mean, regardless, they're both the 2 main reasons Kousei ended up like that, but yeah, what was the ultimate cause?
Also, this has been mentioned before, but I was kinda iffy about the developers making Saki appear sympathetic during that one episode (13 maybe) where Kousei plays Love's Sorrow in dedication to her. I mean, I guess I can understand her perspective, and her illness did warp her, but that doesn't excuse how she treated Kousei. The episode, however, paints Saki in this mostly loving light, and I believe even Kousei still felt he had done something wrong, when he had not (though, understandably, he has his guilt). In the end, I was just kinda uncomfortable with Saki's portrayal.
I mean the show goes out of its way to show(or at least imply) that the guilt he has from telling his mother to die and the death itself are the catalysts for his mental problems. The constant flashbacks to when he's telling his mom to die. The time when he's in the corner crying, asking for him mom to help him. Him attributing his mom's worsening health to his inability to meet her expectations. All the times he sees the ghost of his mom during his performances telling him that this is his punishment. Hiroko telling Kousei that his mom was happy that he went against her, which helped in resolving his problem performing(coupled with using Kaori as a crutch). When the problem came back in the last 2 episodes as another person he loves, Kaori is dying.
Through the entire show, Kousei doesn't even seem think too much about the times he was physically abused or his bruises from it, but rather the bulk of his flashbacks are involving the degradation of his mother's health and the time he told her off. Practically all the flashbacks to his injuries are done by Tsubaki instead(bar the time he gets caned and is bleeding, but that was the same time he tells his mom to die). Regardless, the physical beatings he took did leave an impact on him of course.