BEING AN ADULT SUCKS, PLEASE GIVE ME BACK MY YOUTH, GOD
I rate manga and anime in different ways.. to be continued ( probably)
My life is so boring, I never imagined that life in my twenties would be this boring, so boring that I don't feel alive at all. It drives me edgy crazy, I watch animu and read manga to spice up my boring life (oh I play games tho). I always dive too deep into story and character in stuff I read/watch, the thing is I'm a person with such a weak heart, my mood changes easily based on what I read/watch, my emotions are something that I can hardly control, and honestly it's so annoying at some point. When I read/watch a fun/happy stuff I feel so happy tho, but when I watch/read a hellish psychological stuff I feel suffered so much that even make me lose my appetite, worsen my insomnia, and gives me nightmares for a few days (or even weeks). At first I thought I had bipolar disorder, but that's not it, apparently I just easily feel sentimental to anything, empathetic reactivity/hyper-empathy/excess empathy, when you have to much empathy, not only do you feel what the other feels, but you also suffer from it, whether the cause comes from fiction or not. Well.. screw it, most good stuff out there have a plot that shakes people's heart psychologically. Basically, reading/watching something that mentally shake me is same as torturing myself, but I keep doing it whatsoever since doing nothing is not that different either. So yeah there's a possibility I could die from reading/watching something, thus this account might got abandoned someday. Wish me a long life full of happiness, and I wise the same for you <3
is that the only reason? to alleviate my boredom? of course no, that's not the only reason, I appreciate art, or should I say I looooooooooooove them, especially manga, not only the artwork but also the story, I'm addicted to it.
..................................( • . •) you want a good story?
..................................................( • - •) you have to go through hell first
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