Closeted homosexual highschooler Jun Andou is unhappy with himself, wishing that he could live a life where he gets married to a woman and has children. Then, he stumbles upon Sae Miura, who he finds out is a fujoshi, a fact she hides from others out of fear of being judged. Seeing how he tries to look past the fujoshi label, she ends up falling in love with him, and confesses.
The story exists out of several plotlines involving Jun. Through these, it explores many aspects of its core themes of self acceptance and homosexuality. They are handled in such a way, that even if you're not gay yourself, the story is still understandable, moving, and even relatable at times.
One of the messages it portrays, is that of trying to look past the simplifications that we regularly apply to our real-life surroundings. Behind all the characters and their actions are emotions and motivations, that can make you understand why they act the way they do. Though some of these actions are a little uncomfortable. For example, Jun regularly meets up with an older married man for sex. While the man doesn't seem to be a bad person per se, he is not exactly healthy in his mind either, and can come of as creepy. You also get to see some moments of homophobia as well. However, it does all still serve the dramatic story.
What I like about this manga is how it intelligently tries to look into the thoughts and feelings of the characters, or at least give them some space. That way, it paints a bit more of a nuanced picture, where no one is entirely good or bad. It explores the tragic side of being unable to accept something that is a big part of yourself, and at times, it can get rather gut-wrenching.
Originally a novel, the manga seems to have kept its strength. Now told through panels, it has clean artwork, with attractive character designs, while not being stereotypical. The artist has clearly put in the effort to make everyone emotionally expressive, which adds to the weightier moments.
This manga has some beautiful messages, told in an intelligent way and with emotional depth. It was quite a good read.
Bonus: A recurring element is the main character's interest in Queen, occasionally drawing parallels with Freddie Mercury's own homosexuality. The translation that I found would recommend a song of theirs that was thematically relevant for a given chapter. That enhanced the experience, so when you read or finish a chapter, I can recommend you to listen to the corresponding song.
