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Days: 279.8
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Mobile Suit Gundam ZZ: Gundam Frag.
Mobile Suit Gundam ZZ: Gundam Frag.
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Mobile Suit Gundam Seed MSV Astray
Mobile Suit Gundam Seed MSV Astray
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Completed 2/2 · Scored 7
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Indigo-kun Nov 8, 3:05 PM
Let's go for that then, I understand. :D
Since release, I was always interested in Nier: Automata but have yet to play it, because it was always too expensive for a game, I only watched a trailer from and never heard about before. Also I prefered Persona 5 around that time. Then it was sold out and hyped as fuck, maybe I will buy it soon on ebay, because it seems like I would like it, but currently I have my hands full on Super Mario Odyssey, Zelda: Breath of the Wild, Final Fantasy 14 Online, and of course VNs, anyway.
Still reading Alternative, then Little Busters. Finished Clannad last month 100%.
And also hyped for Pokémon Ultra Sun&Moon. Getting all the legendaries and beat up all the villains in a single game. THE DREAM!
Also bought Dragon Ball Xenoverse, pretty funny, but some missions are way too hard.
Then there's Pokémon Tekken and Mario Kart 8. Also thinking about buying Mario + Rabbids Kingdom Battle. Looks funny.
Somehow I remembered Final Fantasy 12 now, which is around half beaten. I even like it very much... I should play it some day.
Then I also have Odin Sphere.

I also have JRPG weakness.

Indigo-kun Nov 8, 4:41 AM
It's just your first text yesterday basically told me 'Hey Indigo, I'm alright now.'
And then I thought, you're still struggling, so I wanted to at least say some kind words, but ended up writing this wall of text. You seem unmotivated, maybe a little bit depressed, but that's hard to tell from here, and even then I didn't study psychology, and most likely couldn't tell.
I also didn't want to give you instructions at all, but maybe ideas for some activities.
Of course, if somebody would tell me to live my life like this or that, I wouldn't do it at once, but maybe, if he's telling something which makes a bit of sense, I would give the idea of changing something a second thought.

Like: YOU SHOULD STOP SMOKING. IT SMELLS. And I was always like: NO.
Eventually, I did stop, because every morning it was hard for me to breathe with around 30 cigarettes a day it was no miracle, and also because of money, of course. 10 days of smoking equal buying a new game in price, lol. But not because my friends told me so, just because it wasn't smelling nice.
I just wanted to come near to that meaning. Nothing more.

Maybe some day you'll even wake up and just change your life from scratch. Who knows?
Of course it's not because of me, of course I don't want the credits. And you don't have to tell me then, but you're a nice guy, and IF you were depressed, it would be a shame if you've give up without a fight, is what I was thinking, although by now, I think you are way to smart for that. And now don't tell me you aren't smart or I eat my shoes.

I have 2 friends. I meet them occasionally. Like every 1-2 months or so. I work, they are working - one day, I don't want to meet them, then they don't want to. Because we are tired, or ill. But eventually we meet. And we keep being friends like that. That's what I meant with: I'm fine being alone, I have much to do, and I often change my activites, even if it doesn't make a huge difference, but sometimes I really want to meet them to see how they are doing.
Indigo-kun Nov 8, 3:06 AM
Let me be your senpai.
Nothing without money, kid.
I started working with 17, as a shop assistant, so as of now it's been 7 years. It can be tough, but you'll soon get used to it.
It isn't fun, but it also isn't without money.
Of course much money isn't guaranteed if you're working, but you can still save a bit of that every month, and maybe more if you're still living with your parents.
Use that money for PS4, computer, and maybe PS3, too. (because SONY sucks and you can't play PS3 games on PS4 consoles)
And a Switch. Definitely a Switch.
Be quasi-happy.
Get your own room after this step.
Get some asian or unasian girlfriend. Marry her or not, and get some two-digit amount of children.
Be quasi-unhappy, quasi-happy - together.
(Don't know about the last step, but it sounds 'fucking' good.)

In the meantime, maybe join a club, if you lack social interactions in real life. Don't know about how much friends you have. No insult intetended. You'll find friends sooner than you want! I know that, because I'm quite happy alone, too, but nobody can live that way. It's really cliché but all humans feel lonely.
I have 2 really good friends in real life, which is kinda few around here, or maybe even international. But they are enough for me, and maybe, without them I would never have come this 'far'. Even if it was just drinking - in moderation - sometimes, or some chit chat, it was a huge distraction to stress and bullying at work, and I still meet them occasionally.

So: get some social links (Persona style), get some (part-)beito, get a hobby or two, or three.
I'm watching anime, also some normal movies, collect vinyl/CDs, collect anime merchandise, play card games, like Yu-Gi-Oh! or Hearthstone, listen to music, play chess, go swimming/sauna, play video games, try to draw, watch porn, try to learn languages from time to time, and although I suck at most creative activities, I never really give up. Maybe some day I'll also learn piano, ever wanted to do that.

What I'm trying to say is, there's more than to you than it seems to your current self, and you just gotta find it!
Nobody can help you with that, nobody will ever make you feel happy, one-sidedly.
First you have to try it yourself.

Somehow I ended up doing one of these texts again. But I really mean it, if you were around here, I'd just take you by the hand and drag you to all different kinds of places, but unfortunately I can't do that from here, so this is all I can give you.

Indigo-kun Nov 7, 1:18 PM
So, you're working now?
How is it? What kind?
I'm fine, same as always. Much of work, bought a Nintendo Switch now, but still prefer VN and sometimes Final Fantasy 14. Nearly no anime.
Indigo-kun Nov 7, 12:45 PM
LOL, please just give me a normal flag, to know I'm on your route. But really, I'm routing for you. :D
Really glad it helps, although I'm not really good with words.
How's your mood or motivation right now?
Playcool Oct 8, 11:29 AM
I doubt it, late VN adaptations made me too skeptical about the whole deal..
Playcool Sep 16, 9:03 AM
15th anniversary? And when is that?
Indigo-kun Sep 2, 1:48 PM
Shitty man, I know that feel, always had trouble with my mom too, so I avoided her pretty much. But when I started working and I left we are now on good terms every time I visit. I don't see my father that often because they broke up when I was little, but I still have a bit of contact to him, and when we meet I like to talk to him too.

Now. Make up your mind. What do you want to do. What job do you want.
Optional: Search a hot asian gf. Or maybe just a nice one. Or kawaii one. Or maybe you even prefer a white or black one. Or all of them. No one would care. Do what YOU want.
Remember to stand up every time you fall. Bruce Wayne style. And that there's always someone to talk to if you're down, even if it's just me, I'll listen to you and try to give some advice if I can, because you seem like a good person, so don't waste it.
OR get a new topic to talk about, because the topic itself is kinda demotivational.

How about asian girls or pantsu.
Indigo-kun Sep 2, 1:05 PM
@Playcool is pretty much true.

Well suicide, because suicide rate in Japan is pretty high. I only thought about it casually when I was younger, but I couldn't even do it, because I'm too scared, lol. So much that I wouldn't even try.
I'm not THAT frustrated, I just hate my work. :D

Yeah true, but since I always want to find something new anyways, I'll always give recommendations a try, but that doesn't mean I'll finish them all.
Life is too short, that's true. And also interests change, which is fine, too.

I can't even dream to ask my parents money for games.

I don't understand. You don't get money from them? You live alone?

Playcool Sep 2, 12:48 PM
I much prefer to live through life, than simply survive, no expectations, no emotions.. seems like a boring life, seems like you are just surviving.
In order to reach happiness we have to be prepared to acept Pain, it is part of the process.

Uh? It is already released at least for me~~
Playing Subahiki now.
Indigo-kun Sep 2, 2:07 AM
I wasn't forced into studying, because I didn't even get another chance when it was too late - teachers didn't even want me to visit the school anymore so I just got a -very- bad graduation. I wasn't a problem child, or maybe not that much, but I didn't take anything serious at the time, so I hardly ever went to a lesson on time. (but I mostly went there eventually) Homework. I hardly done that too. So after my NEET phase, I just searched for a job for a year after school, while doing something like part-time, that is a special course in Germany - normally for low thugs to socialize them, or people who -really- don't know what they want to/can do in life, like me back then.
So in a way I avoided suicide, lol. You were forced? I understand people who are forced into something lacking the motivation. Just do what you want. As long as it's legal.
When I have work I'm usually awake from 4AM early shift/9AM late shift until 12-1AM, then sleep, because I need this lifestyle for my work, but if I had no work, why should I even bother to maintain it - is what I meant.
I don't feel like watching 3 hours anime per day, but I get what you're saying.
Some friends are into KonoSuba pretty much, but I have yet to give that and all of your other recommendations a try. But I still have them in a .txt file and some more years to live.

Wait, how come you haven't got Steam yet? 9/19 Incident will be soon. Grab Alternative!
Indigo-kun Sep 1, 7:17 AM
Sounds serious.
I hoped you weren't a NEET, so I would've asked you how (the fuck) you manage to watch/read so much AND still being able to sleep properly.
Good luck with fixing that, if you even want to. (Work will still suck then, but you're better off if you do something for a living someday - even if it's just financially)
Some say a wife and a job will help, but you'll just end up having a lot new problems, too - so you can forget your own - it's up to you to take them all and overcome them to get stronger, which I can't even do myself, so who am I to talk, lol. gf-less since day 0, too. But I have plenty of waifus in 2D and PVC. Harem growing even at this very moment.
You shouldn't postpone Monogatari, although it's good enough, if you're still giving it a try some day.
I've watched enough anime to realize the similarities between different anime, like all these fucking beach episodes, onsen, etc. although I pretty much consider them as a good way to spend my time in RL, too. So it's understandable. (I -only- visit a sauna occasionally, though.)
3) - or that Gintama quote - is so true. I remember being NEET for 4 months right after finishing school 7 years ago, and it was great, but only for so long. Sometimes I want to go back, but I wasted my time anyway with drinking and shit like that. (No 'hard' drugs, though.) Although I would spend my time better now - at least by taking my current way of thinking - it'll be boring very fast. The limit I can take and still live a normal life is 3 weeks. A week more and I'm completely nocturnal again.
I completely understand the PC part. I always had good computers, not the best, but it was okay to play the newest games, but they got old too fast and even broke after 1-2 years everytime. 4 years ago I bought a HP notebook and still use it today. Maybe my best investment ever, but everything besides VN is laggy.
I have about everything you don't need too (Skype, Discord, etc.) but I don't use any of these anymore, lol. MYSPACE FACEBOOK NEXTTHINGTOCOME - couldn't care less now. Maybe that's why I still can't summon my Persona. (Missing social links)

I understand the 'make my own game' part, but it's too blasphemous for me. I'd rather be a commoner who still believes in the VG kami delivering them all. (without the fucked up -mathematical- process of actually making a game)

I could always manage to limit myself, buying figures and stuff, just like I quit smoking, well maybe harder than that, but I seriously don't want to. In a way, that's what I'm even working for. To collect stuff.
Indigo-kun Aug 31, 3:25 PM
That was just a Monogatari quote, lol. I loved the finale, btw. But yeah, you seemed quite active recently, so I thought you finally had fun watching anime again, but seems like it's still the same as always.

Well, I'm still the same, too, not only with Initial D 4th Stage, I'm afraid I don't know why I haven't finished it yet, although it is really fun, but I still postpone nearly everything and always want to experience something new. School Rumble (read the manga first) is the first anime which is so much fun so I can watch at least around 2 episodes a day, sometimes a bit more, IN A WHILE. But I really like and prefer reading VN much more recently. Also I play much more video games than the last time we wrote. For example, just recently I finished Persona 4 Golden, P4 Dancing All Night, P5, and started P3. (and many other games, mainly Shin Megami Tensei, or Final Fantasy) As for anime, I just can't sit around all day and do nothing anymore, I just want to do something myself, even if it's just moving my fingers on a gamepad, or clicking with the mouse while reading VN/picking choices, lol, so I usually only watch anime while I eat, or soon after/while making/waiting for food.
Or today I played the first episode of Life is Strange: Before the Storm.
Now I can't wait for the next & obviously for Muv-Luv Alternative. Yet I guess, I won't run out of games/VN, even if it got postponed last minute.

Also my merchandise collection grew pretty much over the time. So much so, that I could already fill the upcoming showcase too... it's not even good looking anymore, but rather only serves for collecting purposes, so the next time I'll probably buy 2 more, and my room couldn't handle one more after that already. Seems like I should either move again, or restrain from buying so much, although the latter would probably be the worst outcome for a) me b) sellers all over the world, mainly residing in Japan c) customs, although c) isn't good for me (my health, mainly nerves) either.

In short, I'd say I'm fine. Really nothing (good) ever happens in RL, so I just make the best out of it. Although nothing bad happens either; so... I'm bored all the time most of the time, except for this heavenly mind-peaceful state called 'Day off', which only ever lasts so long, as to start and soon drop something you want to do. I love being part-time and part-human. ❤
But no, seriously: it all could be worse, and work sucks for everyone, I guess.

+1 More:
Funny video, eurobeat gets me pumped all the time.

Feel free to add me on Steam, and/or PSN, if you want!

Don't know if you're even interested in half of the titles I mentioned, or even in the text, but maybe you'll get some inspiration for spending time from it - at least until MLA arrives. I could still hit myself with a hammer, not finding out about it until after the kickstarter...

Indigo-kun Aug 31, 10:05 AM
Thank you!
How are you?
You look so lively. Did something good happen?