
It was a rainy afternoon when she entered through the door, like a beam of sunlight breaking through the dark sky. A client! I hurriedly put my bottle of scotch in the drawer of my desk.
The visitor was carrying a folded, still dripping umbrella. A rather cute girl, around fifteen-sixteen years of age, with short black hair. Her clothes were plain but indicative of a shy persona, and just when I noticed that she had a big metal key sticking out of her back, she began to speak.
"Hello! My name is Nano Shinonome. About this... thing in my back. Well, I don't like to admit it, but I'm a robot. It might sound unbelievable, but I was created a year ago by Anna Shinonome, a nine-year old girl. We live at the Shinonome Laboratories just the two of us. Oh, I forgot about our talking cat, Mr. Sakamot-
W-wait! Please don't look so suspicious! It's true, I promise! But I guess an explanation is in order... First of all, Anna, who prefers to be called "Professor", is a brilliant inventor, even though she's so young. She's really incredible! Secondly, Mr. Sakamoto can only talk with the translating scarf the Professor made for him, so it's not like some teenage girl just willed a talking cat into being!" She laughed softly.
"Thirdly, I say "laboratory" but it's more like a small rustic house in a small town. You may wonder why a small girl lives alone with a robot and a cat. It really began long before I was born, in America...
Did you ever hear about the robotics researcher Kenji Shinonome? No? Well, he's the one who really pioneered evolutionary computations in Japan, at just 23 years old. About twelve years ago he was invited to California to do software research for a company in the private sector called Megano Formal Intelligence that was developing the main systems for next generation military robotics.
Kenji found himself in the midst of a brilliant team of legendary scientists and engineers. Their leader was the man hailed as "the second coming of Turing", Anthony Bridgefort, and working with him were James Hughes, Joshua Lavarack, Merico Lombardi and Wen Chu, to name a few. But most of them were all middle-age or older gentlemen, while Kenji was still in his mid-twenties, so he connected more with the one young lady on the team, a bright girl straight from MIT: Kate Jensen.
Kenji and Kate first met when he first arrived and was introduced to the team, but their real first meeting took place when he had lost himself in the Megano research complex. Kenji had a really bad sense of direction. Well, trying his luck down a corridor he finally came to a dark room where a girl in a laboratory coat sat on the floor, arms and legs crossed, looking intently focused. He took a step through the door, when the girl noticed him and shouted "H-hey, stop, STOP!"
Kenji froze. It was Kate, and she was visibly annoyed. "Can't you see I'm working here?!" He turned the light switch by the door, and the fluorescent lamps hanging from the ceiling came to life. Sprawled on the floor were thousands and thousands of electrical components, computer chips, circuit boards, screws, springs, latches, wires, chassis and other parts. On the outer rims of this technological mess he recognized parts of the case of a TK1 processing block. For a moment, he was at a loss for words.
"Have you just disassembled a $200,000 control device?!"
"Yeah" she replied. "There was something wrong with the dynamic calibration. It was a little off, so I thought I'd fix it before we plug it in."
"Without the plans? For this level of complexity?"
"Don't need 'em."
"Have you worked with TK1 blocks before?"
"Nope. First time."
"But-... But there are thousands of parts! How can you possibly put it together again?"
"'Cause I'm the one who took it apart."
He was dumbfounded, and decided to just watch her work for a while.

Kate had a disheveled look to her. Not dirty or anything, but just... all over the place. She was nineteen, barely a woman, with blue eyes and long blonde hair in a slapdash ponytail. Under her open lab coat she wore a T-shirt and worn out jeans. She had sandals on her feet. Sometimes she would put her glasses on the top of her head for a few minutes, and then start wondering where she put them. Kenji was incredulous, but as time passed he found himself more and more convinced that she either actually knew what she was doing, or she was really adapt at faking it.
After two hours in a room silent save for the ventilation system and the slow ticking and banging and whirring sounds of Kate's tools, she was finished. He helped her carry it to the lab, they plugged it in, ran a few tests -- and it worked perfectly. Of course to no surprise for her, but Kenji was deeply impressed and always had great respect for her capabilities after that day.
Sometimes they worked together on projects, designing and constructing machinery or modules to be used by the other groups. Since he acknowledged her competence, Kenji often came to her for help and professional advice. She was flattered and happy for this recognition; the older researchers seemed much less prone to accept a young girl as their intellectual peer. In time, she also began to rely on him. Their professional friendship grew, and they enjoyed each others company. They would talk about science, about politics, about music. She would show him around town, they would eat dinner and debate the respective qualities of PLC and microcontrollers in adaptive military vehicles. They fell in love.
He loved her toughness, her forcefulness, her brilliance. She would never back down when she knew she was right, and she often was. It seemed like nothing could break her; she was always smiling in the face of adversity, and her happiness was infectious. She would cry at sappy movies, she would turn a tidy room into a mess in minutes, yet obsess over things such as the minute placement of the tools in her toolbox.
She fell in love with his creativity, with his dedication, his adaptiveness. He would always own up to his mistakes, few as they were. He could immerse himself in and gain an understanding of any subject, be it the humanities or the sciences, and let it enrichen him and his work. He could plan out extremely high-level theoretical computational constructs, like variations of extended liquid state machines, directly in his head, but was never stuck-up or bossy when they ran into problems with implementation. He laughed hysterically at bad puns and slapstick comedy, and was weak to cute animals. He would bring home owner-less cats and dogs even though he wasn't allowed to keep pets in his apartment. Kenji would care for Kate and protect her, but always as an equal.
They moved in together, and she became pregnant. They married quickly, and she took the name Shinonome. She hated the idea of leaving work when they were making such great strides in the project, but they at least agreed that they would both take parental leave at different times to raise their child. Well, that was the plan.
Kate was at home an evening, about eight weeks due, when the phone rang. Kenji was working overtime, so she had to put down her book and work her way out of the couch to answer it.
"Hello?"
"Kate? Kate, thank God you're all right!" It was her friend, Megan.
"What? Why wouldn't I be?"
"Haven't you heard? Quick, turn on the news!"
Instead of the usual vapid game-shows and sitcoms, there was a special live coverage of some kind of fire, monitored from the air. The helicopter reporter was talking about repeated explosions that kept the firefighters at bay. She recognized the buildings.
"That's where you work, isn't it? Kate?"
The ground seemed to give way.
"Kate? Where's Kenji?"
She dropped the phone.
"Kate? Kate! I'm coming over there, hang on!"
They had a plan...

Kenji was missing, and the stress made her go into premature labor. She had her baby, a bright red weak little girl. She thought that she would lose her too. Her world was falling apart. She spent a few weeks in a daze. She got through the funeral without it even feeling real, and there was no body found to alleviate this alienation from reality. To throw salt in her wounds, someone broke into their-... into her apartment. Even though they "just" broke a window and took some cash, it still felt like a violation... But her tiny daughter was stronger than expected, and Kate found a grasp on life. If it was for little Anna, she could manage.
Still, it took her a full year before she could muster the strength to work through the things he had left behind. His clothes, his toothbrush, his books. While Anna was sleeping (finally!), Kate sat at Kenji's desk, sighing. "You jerk... I'll show you for going ahead of me, just you wait." She found a thick notebook in a drawer. It had scribblings in English and Japanese, small notes and dates, not to mention nonsensical drawings taking up half each page. It was a combination of a diary, a memo and a book of ideas. She found an entry for their first meeting. With what little Japanese she knew, she could make it out as "I met a girl at work today. She was really cute, but kind of crazy!" An entry for when he asked her to move in with him. "She may be crazy, but I'm crazy for her! I want to spend my life with her." An entry for the failed birthday party, an entry for the date at the zoo...
In the corner was a flip book cartoon of a man riding a bike. She began flipping through it, and she smiled as the bike turned into a spaceship... but then she saw something. She flipped through it again. The drawings... They weren't just scribbly lines and random letters, they were plane sections of some kind of device. She couldn't wrap her head around what it would do, but realized the incredible complexity of the electronics it would require. But... there were pages missing from the back. Without them, it would be impossible.
Another year passed. Anna grew, began to talk, began to walk. She even began to read. She loved stories about sharks. Sometimes Anna would pick apart her toys and assemble them in creative ways.
A thick letter arrived in the mail box. Kate immediately recognized it -- the missing pages from the notebook! Who had had them for this long? There was no sender's address, but... the writing on the envelope, the numbers... they looked like Kenji's handwriting? And it was postmarked in Japan. In a way, she didn't want to get her hopes up... What would Kenji do? He would have wanted to go to the bottom of this. To get the truth out in the open. She was going to Japan.
Since Kate didn't actually have any other clues than that postmark, she thought that the device from the notebook might contain some clues as to his disappearance, and if anyone could build it, it would be her. So she began building it. Or rather, she began to construct the tools she needed to build it. A large portion of the proceeds from Kenji's life insurance, and Megano's indemnity, went to buying a house and getting the raw materials necessary to get started. She founded the Shinonome Laboratories of Isesaki.
Little Anna was quick to up her game; by age four she was helping her mother building a photolithography plant. At five, she was in charge of constructing PID controllers. Six years old, she was closing in on her mother's skills in electrical engineering, and at age seven Anna was making microelectronic components that surpassed everything on the open market.

That's not to say that it was all they did. Kate wasn't obsessed. She loved her daughter, and they had a happy life in the town. They played a lot, even though Anna was emotionally a seventeen year-old who could take care of herself most of the time. Now and then Anna wanted to adopt a kitten. Or a puppy. Or a crow. Kate took it all with good grace. She was a good mom.
She was. By their fifth year in Japan, Kate showed signs of ill health. She began coughing a lot. Sometimes she would get nauseous. The doctors couldn't find any explanation; it wasn't a virus or something like that. The symptoms went away, and Kate went home. After less than a year had passed, the symptoms came back, and now Kate started having nosebleeds as well. A meticulous medical check-up revealed that a disease, some kind of cancer, was growing in her body. A biopsy of the afflicted tissue showed that the growth couldn't be stopped by radiation treatment or chemotherapy. She was given half a year to live, a year at most.
Just as Kate and her daughter had completed the device, she got a death sentence. It wasn't about finding Kenji or living up to his will anymore. What about Anna? Who would take care of her? Her sickness was worsening.
It was Anna who first understood what device was for. It was an advanced multi-recurrent LSM, a sort of neural network. With her childlike purity she came to view it as a heart, a substrate for a soul. And now, when her mother was debilitating, she wanted someone to tend to her, while Anna looked for a cure for her mother's disease. She began building a robot. Everything about it was trivial, except the heart. She connected the LSM as the core, and that robot came to life. That was me.
Yes, life. Now, I don't know about God or what it really means to be alive, but I do think that I have a soul. I don't know if it was created by Anna or Kate or Kenji or someone else, but I do have it.
I began helping Kate when she started to have trouble walking. I would often be at her beck and call while Anna was off by herself, frantically trying to get her nanoelectronics working reliably. That's when she told me everything. She told me of the origin of my heart, of Kenji, of what she wanted. I cried with her, I laughed with her. We were together for about three months, and she really made me feel like... she made me feel like I was her daughter. She told me that she was going to try an experimental treatment, and that if something were to happen to her, I would stay with Anna. I promised her. Of course I did. Anna is my dear little older sister. I will do anything for her.
The operation was a year ago. Kate... mom didn't make it. I remember when I had to tell Anna... Kate didn't tell her about the operation beforehand. It was only when she was already at the hospital that it was forced out of me. When I got that phone call, Anna was in the lab working, wearing her mother's old lab coat, the same one Kate wore when she met Kenji. I dropped on my knees. Anna came to me and asked what's wrong. I took her in my arms and I told her, and we wept. We cried and I told her that I would always be there for her...

I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to cry, it just still... it still gets to me. And Anna has never been the same since either. It's like she regressed. She became more of a child. Well, technically she is, but due to her intellectual and emotional development she was even recognized by the state as an adult... but now, I think she is escaping into herself.
Well, in the past couple of weeks I have been noticing an underlying pattern in my inner consciousness. I think it's an encrypted message, and it might be our only clue as to what happened nine years ago. So I need you to help me. I want to know the truth of what happened in America. I want to know what killed Kate, and if it might affect Anna too. I want Anna and myself to meet Kenji. I think she needs a real parent to get her through...
Money is not an issue, detective, we still have several million yen left to our disposal. Won't you please, please help us find out the truth?"
I stubbed my cigarette and leaned forward in my chair. "Miss", I said to her. "I'm an accountant. The private investigator is the office down the hall." |