[LIGHT SPOILERS] This is my review and I can't talk about it without mentioning who did who. Sorry for that ^^;
Aight... let's start.
I watched this with my girl friend and funny enough, I've been spoiled (I forced her to tell me) that EIJI is gonna die. And I thought "okay... I see that happening." not much of a surprise.
The thing is- he didn't. She jumbled up the names and when Eiji got shot, I'm dead as hell. She said that 'I might get mad at her' while I was lamenting which I never thought too deep about at that time. All the while that I see Ash struggling for Eiji, my heart aches that it will all be for naught since it's been set in stone that his soulmate is gonna die. I cried hard at episode 21-23. I relate to him. My girl friend is my lifeline. I was so in sync with Ashs' feelings it didn't made me bawl my eyes when he dried out, compared to the thoughts of Eiji dying.
He cares for everyone and everything but not as much as he cares for Eiji. I understand only having one light of hope for all the time you've been living in hell.
After we finished the last episode, my gf said "it's not fair" and phrases of the like- which made me realize how much Ash and I were alike.
I see it as a happy ending, there's no flaw with his decision to end it. While she's quite depressed about it, it felt natural for us. It eases my heart that Eiji exists so Ash can die completed.
In a heartbeat, I'd rather die than her. For Ash, he'd rather die than Eiji.
I never cared about my own death and how easy I'll give it up for her- but that doesn't mean I'm not enjoying my life.
It feels nice to see a part of yourself in anothers' work. It comforts my soul that I share this thought process with someone. An identity full of contradictions, suffering, the unending urge to kill everyone in the guise of resentment towards yourself. And finding peace of mind with a certain person. That certain person only can give- that no one else could...
...add Aku no Hana and you'll see me bare, beneath the flesh and bones.
Truly an amazing anime. Even the soundtracks are perfectly crafted, it screams "for Banana Fish."
It resembles my soul that saying "it's a masterpiece" would make me a narcissist.
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Needless to say, while we go through every episodes, I see her in Eiji. They're very similar ^^ a cute suicidal explosive. I know she knows...
I'm very glad I watched this. I'm a girl as well so... we're like AU counterparts ^^ I love her the same way Ash did to Eiji. Her presence and words are enough- the same way Eijis' are to Ash. It's not always has to be romantic to be inlove.
Time well spent.
10/03/21 18:14
You still reading? Happy birthday. It's on 6 but whateves, not like you'll see this :3
