I finished reading the manga and was astonished, shocked, unable to react. Later I read reviews on the series, and some of them said something that I, at that moment, agreed with: ”it was a character driven story and became a plot driven story”. ”Somewhere along the way, this story loses its identity”. It made sense. Starting from the Moon Arc, the gems, aside from Cairngorn, had less screentime and very little development. It was a bit disappointing to not have some plot points adressed, and how “rushed” things felt towards the end.
As the day passed, I thought long and hard about the divine Phos
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monologue when praying for the lunarians. It couldn’t get out of my mind. Then, something clicked within me, and tears came rushing from my eyes.
This story was never about the other gems. It was about how they, along with every other being in this universe, made Phos miserable and lonely.
**The Gems’ nature.**
The gems are naturally individualistic beings. They do not reproduce; they have no need for food, warmth, shelter, and are effectively immortal. They break if they touch each other in some angles and can be dangerous to their peers, hence Cinnabar.
I’d say that, if not for Kongō, they would live in solitude. Surely rational beings tend to form bonds through conversation, but they have no instinct to create families or to have friends.
As such, they lived centuries and millenia, even in this abnormal situation where Kongō is present, with very few deep connections being made – of which almost all were outright obsessions. Rutile and Padparadscha, Ghost Quartz and Lapis, Cairngorn and Phos. They simply don’t care about others, unless it’s related to some kind of paranoia.
In _three hundred years_, our cheerful protagonist couldn’t befriend any of them. And worse, they couldn’t accept him as who he was: fragile, overconfident, clumsy. When asked, they all said Phos needed to change, to be useful, and he sadly followed along.
**Phosphophyllite’s nature.**
Phos, for instance, is a very special case: his heart contains ”a pure innocence”, as said by the lunarians. ”This is a kind gem”, said Kongō. There’s something in his nature that makes him closer to humans. Kindness can lead to irrational and dumb decisions (of which Phos has no short record of). He wanted to save everyone, and to be loved by everyone. With all these desires and strong feelings, he had the potential to develop anger, hatred, hope, passion – a human soul.
**Indifference is the opposite of love.**
All of Phos’s followers to the moon went because of their own individual wishes. Dia wanted to be away from Bortz, Yellow wanted to meet his old companions, Benito wanted to be different, Amethyst wanted to be apart from his twin, and so on... Only our protagonist was on a selfless endeavor.
When Phos failed on his mission to persuade Kongō and was locked away for 220 years, they didn’t really care. When he came back all broken down fisically and psychologically, they cared even less. When he was being transformed into the savior through 10.000 years of suffering, they were worried, but ultimately unfazed.
They failed to understand and sympathize with Phos’ desire to save them. They couldn’t ever love him, and so, our 3.5 green stone was fated to be lonely.
**I have always been alone.**
The admirabilis betrayed him to save their family. The lunarian prince Aechmea manipulated Phos’ entire life to achieve his nothingness goals. The gems were indifferent to his aspirations or his suffering. And ultimately Kongō, the only one who showed him kindness, made Phos into the solitary savior who would free humanity, a role he arguably could do himself. Every single one of them used him for their own selfish desires.
“That’s it”, I thought. “I think I get it now”.
This is the tale of one who sacrificed his entire existence for the sake of others, and received nothing but despair in return.
Little by little he was forced to make insanely difficult decisions that smashed his spirit, but never once turned back, even when he had forgotten gemself, because he wanted everyone to be happy – and to find a sliver of love. But I think the latest chapters contain a wonderful message. As Kongō said to Peridot and Sphene: "It is actually very rare to accept your emotions and issues. To come into terms with them completely is what we call a miracle". Well, Phos is that miracle. When he had the power to make everyone who mistreated him suffer, he chose to save them. He could have been taken by vengeance, but understood that would have been pointless – he accepted their wishes to pass on and the fact that he was born alone, and would die alone. By saving mankind, he was able to guide the world to a new age of rational mineral lifeforms with no traces of humanity, as Dr. Ayumu dreamed of – of evolved beings able to be satisfied with themselves however failed they were, and because of that, able to accept Phos as who he was. No longer there was a need to break oneself in order to be loved. Just a wish for everyone, good or bad, strong or weak, to find happiness. And happiness, at last, he found.
Sep 18, 2024
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I finished reading the manga and was astonished, shocked, unable to react. Later I read reviews on the series, and some of them said something that I, at that moment, agreed with: ”it was a character driven story and became a plot driven story”. ”Somewhere along the way, this story loses its identity”. It made sense. Starting from the Moon Arc, the gems, aside from Cairngorn, had less screentime and very little development. It was a bit disappointing to not have some plot points adressed, and how “rushed” things felt towards the end.
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“For without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods” – Aristotle
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