Hitori Koukan Nikki
My Solo Exchange Diary

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I really want to say that I love this series because I can relate to Kabi-sensei's struggles, but I think it's more correct to say that Kabi-sensei made me relate to her struggles. I felt myself empathizing with Kabi-sensei while reading her earlier work, My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness, feeling sorry for her as she described her depression, anxiety, and sexuality.

But with My Solo Exchange Diary, it was so much more intense. This series isn't at all structured like My Lesbian Experience, which had a well-defined beginning, middle, and end all centered around her lesbian experience. In fact, My Solo Exchange Diary doesn't have much ... structure at all, reading like random entries in Kabi-sensei's diary: a chaotic whirlpool of emotions that sometimes contradict themselves as Kabi-sensei tries desperately to rationalize her own depression.

Not all of the chapters are good, and not all of the chapters are interesting. But because of that, it doesn't feel at all fake, and the most extreme moments come out of nowhere and hit like a truck. In a raw and open display of her own fragile mental health, Kabi-sensei meticulously describes and analyzes all the details in one day, and then suddenly snaps, spending only one page glossing over an episode of serious self-harm and self-hatred. A particularly shocking point in chapter 18 made me put down the book... I felt like I needed time to process all of the thoughts that Kabi-sensei was expressing.

And to make things even more direct, the audience actually affects the series: Kabi-sensei talks at length about how the success of My Lesbian Experience and even earlier chapters of this series affected her personal life, perpetuating her anxiety and self-harming. In some sense, by buying the volumes and even writing this review, I've become part of the mad cycle of Kabi-sensei's life... and I even felt guilty reading some of these chapters.

In similar "suffering" manga series like Welcome to the NHK, Tokyo Tarareba Girls, and Chikan Otoko, the appeal is in watching a loser claw themselves up to redemption, and then feeling not so bad about your own problems. My Solo Exchange Diary has a lot of this, but I think its true value is teaching how depression, anxiety, etc. can feel like, and how to understand these issues if you have them. I know that's a pitiful way to advertise a series (if I had read this review, it wouldn't have convinced me), but I hope that everyone gives My Solo Exchange Diary a chance, because I think it's a series that *needs* to be read.

My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness is, well, very clearly about being a lesbian and being lonely. My Solo Exchange Diary has a less straightforward title, but its theme still becomes apparent pretty quickly.

My Solo Exchange Diary is about your mom.

It’s about all the things you have to hide from her. It’s about trying to come to terms with how she raised you. It’s about trying and failing to escape her unceasing mental and physical gravity. It’s about looking for substitutes for her seemingly uncaring warmth. It’s about being a family disgrace in so many different ways.

Peppered throughout are the mangaka’s reflections on depression, motivation, separation, ... and self-harm. It’s pretty potent stuff, and her melty two-tone artwork puts an air of cuteness on top of all this suffering.

I'm not sure if I'd call it warmful, but reading this manga does make me feel a little better about myself.

Rarely do I encounter an existence that feels so deserving of my utmost sympathy. My Solo Exchange Diary is a sequel to Kabi Nagata's debut book My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness, and through a series of loosely connected letters to her future self it takes you on a journey of various uncomfortable mental states and emotional struggles of its author as she keeps trying to make sense of her life and relationship with her family. It may not be as coherent as Lesbian Experience, but that works to illustrate the mess Nagata-sensei has set out to put in order. I would say it is just ... as powerful and deserving of praise.

Reading her diaries, I am overcome with sadness, rage, fear, joy, compassion... all sorts of intense emotions. For how hapless her character seems to be, Nagata-sensei has almost surgical precision in analyzing her own state of mind and making it so easy for us to understand and relate to. It's hard not to appreciate such a sincere and courageous act: putting herself out there on display is a therapeutic experience for her, and it becomes an enlightening one for the readers—who may find themselves in similar situations and need emotional support and help in figuring it out. What she's doing is almost like writing a self-help book literally for herself, and by extension, helping everyone around.

You're a wonderful, precious human being, Kabi Nagata. I pray you will obtain the happiness you seek. Thank you.

Where do I begin? As someone who could relate with many aspects of this manga, it is impossible for me to find anything bad to say about it.
The mangaka is entirely open and honest about how events in her life have shaped her into the person she is now. She is well aware of her "faults" and the ways in which her subconscious have led to her actions in life.
While telling this often sad, yet also inspirational, story the mangaka finds ways to make me laugh and find so much enjoyment in her unique art style.
I look forward to more content from ... Nagata Kabi as I feel personally enveloped in her own story and I hope to see her life improve from here as she has gained a great amount of support from those who have read her works.

Honestly man, this story is relatable af if you're living with your parents and just fed up being lonely. I really empathize that Nagata had to go through alcoholism, depression, loneliness, uncertainty, and pretty much, having her mum annoy her saying she's good for nothing just because she's sleeping a lot. I mean I'm sure it's hard enough to survive being a mangaka and really, Nagata really illustrated this part of her life well! It's quite emotional but yknow any of us are going through it right now due to covid when it comes to loneliness. This is probably the best relatable time to read ... this manga lol.

Yeah guys just read this book, especially if you thoroughly enjoyed My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness like I did! ^^

This is a sequel to the manga "My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness" so I would recommend checking out that one first before reading this one. It is an autobiography done in a manga form. It talks about her life after she wrote her book. It has the same vibe as the original book. Just like "My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness" it has a very simple art stile. It honestly fits the mood of the book very well with the distressed and abstract atmosphere of depression and anxiety. It has a lot of symbolism in the art and it puts a picture to those feeling she ... is feeling perfectly. It's a little hard to explain in a review. You just need to read it yourself.