Dud anime make u into a pervert

Strayfe said:


I mean I get that it'd be easy to be convinced that I was some asshole who pushed myself on women at every turn. I wasn't even an alpha. I looked "good" in terms of what society liked, but I was still awkward, socially anxious, and never really "pursued". I just tried to get along with people, and was happy that I was treated somewhat better based on my looks in general social terms. I simply didn't like how I noticed the lust/romantic attraction difference simply based on my appearance. I never changed from being a cringe worthy nerd, I admit, but I never did anything to become the enemy of all womankind.

Basically. I just gave up on humanity. And meh, I can live without it. I'll probably die alone without anyone to be sad at my funeral, but I'll have still enjoyed some nice incest doujins.


Also I think I looked uglier in my early 20's, then better in my later 20's. Partly because I lazed around so much that I started thinking "I want my life to matter." But anyways I'm ugly again now that I'm 30. I lost myself. But my belief still stands that I think there's sometimes more importance to emotional maturity than physical age. I think someone whose 25 could be perfectly compatible with a 45 year old if their views, interests, and so forth align. I just think a lot of people potentially miss out because they only see people within their own age group as compatible. Not to say they aren't compatible within the same age group a lot. Just that you know, sometimes people who have experience can be way more wholesome when teaching pleasure and life experiences. Or how some 40 year old men can teach 20 year old girls a whole new world that inexperienced 20 year old guys never knew existed. Not that that's the rule or anything. Just I mean, it's a thing! I learned a lot once as a young man, that's all I will say.

Probably why I have a major fetish of younger men being with far older women. It's not extremely common in real life but it sometimes does happen and it can be a life changing thing, and it's not 100% simply about looks or simplistic carnal desire. And I think the same could be true for some women, but I'm not one to speak on their behalf.

Strayfe said:

Ah. By alpha I mostly mean assertive and good with women. I guess that sorta is alpha though lol. I've never been on an incel forum in my life. Unlike incels there's plenty of women I like the personalities of. Actually you seem to have an earnest personality which is nice, but on here it seems you are a bit quick to assume. But that's not to say you do or don't in real life. Plus I mean you owned up to what you said when I clarified so I really don't foul you for it. I'm not trying to judge you harshly or anything. Please forgive my presumptuous statement :/

And I could have been model like. A lot of people have said I have very handsome or cute face. Its just my personality is lacking from all the abuse and torment I had growing up which unconsciously gave me a handful of phobias and insecurities. And it pisses me off, that even though I recognize the cause objectively, I still deal with it. I wish I could just go "This is what caused me to be like this, so let me shut it off. Now that I recognize it, there's no more reason for me to be afflicted." I have been working on trying to improve it over the years and I try not to blame others and instead blame myself for not being dedicated enough to change my life and abilities, but its difficult.

And yeah I totally agree its a fair system. Both sexes judge each other on initial appearances. Of course usually not as important in the long run because personality usually beats out looks. Which is where I hit a snag. Not that I'm an asshole, at least I don't think I am. Maybe rarely when I'm flustered.. I'm just not good with people period. Heck, even the last time I went to an anime convention and was around like-minded, sometimes even nerdier people than me, I was like a statue. I didn't know how to communicate because I couldn't think of anything more specific to anime. Like I'll try to think of a specific series, or something I like and I draw blanks. All I could say was "Yeah I like anime lol." It's like scrolling through a dictionary looking for the right thing, but there's too much in there to find what I want in a timely manner. To add to that, I always find striking up conversation to be arbitrary. It feels like I'm just projecting "Hey, I'm saying stuff to you so obviously I have some ulterior motive. And you probably realize this so it bothers you, even if the ulterior motive is simply to change the atmosphere!." So I am usually hesitant to initiate any conversation.

I haven't met many Russian men except at my local gym where they seem to congregate, but on my mom's side my grandpa was Russian and his lineage is all Russian, and he had left Russia during the red scare. Apparently I got the genetics for having soft, fair pale skin from her side. I'll probably age pretty poorly though lol. But I guess luckily enough I have somewhat of a baby face for a 30 year old. I could pass as 22 without a beard.

Also why do you think, from your experience, it is that most older Russian men are bland, perverted and lacking personality? Is it something that just comes from older people maturing away from things like partying, and other such youthful things. Or is it literally that they are becoming robotic and stale without anything redeeming?