ElanMorin's Profile


Anime Stats
Days: 46.6
Mean Score: 6.60
  • Total Entries158
  • Rewatched29
  • Episodes2,721
Anime History Last Anime Updates
Nov 4, 11:32 PM
Watching 3/12 · Scored 4
Oct 14, 9:39 PM
Completed 12/12 · Scored 7
Oct 12, 10:20 PM
Completed 25/25 · Scored 9
Manga Stats
Days: 35.2
Mean Score: 5.95
  • Total Entries100
  • Reread14
  • Chapters4,146
  • Volumes466
Manga History Last Manga Updates
Oniichan no Koto nanka Zenzen Suki ja Nai n da kara ne!!
Oniichan no Koto nanka Zenzen Suki ja Nai n da kara ne!!
Nov 21, 10:36 PM
Reading 55/- · Scored 6
Nov 8, 10:48 PM
Reading 189/- · Scored 9
Feb 1, 11:19 AM
Reading 60/162 · Scored 8


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ElanMorin Oct 13, 7:25 PM
With death always a breath away, the shattered God accepts his fate

I no longer need to advance my prowess for fighting in the air. If I must die, then let me begin taking levels as a Valiant Dead.
ElanMorin Aug 27, 11:39 PM
I could die any day now. Regardless, I won't last until; February.
ElanMorin Aug 7, 11:37 PM
Knowing that you're gonna die some day is very different than coming to terms with the fact that you have less than a year to live. I've known for a few months. I've had so much time to think about it lately, since all I do is work. I keep thinking, "If only this had happened differently" or "If this and this happen, everything will work out". I guess I'm still "bargaining". I'm not like those Christians that think they'll never die, so I thought I had accepted my own death, but I still have so many regrets. Things I never finished, things I never even started. It's just so depressing. It's crushing. I really don't want to get into details right now. I'm sure as the deadline approaches I'll begin to pour my heart out. Maybe not. Perhaps I'll be so bitter and reclusive that no one will even know I've died.
ElanMorin May 14, 8:05 PM
I don't know how long I laid in bed this morning, pretending that if I ignored it, I could just go back to sleep, but eventually, the urge to urinate saw me on my feet. As soon as I was through, I fell back onto my mattress and pressed my eyes shut.
When I woke back up, the sun was occupying a different part of its arc. My phone was flashing with notifications; it was two o'clock, and someone had liked a photo I shared. I just wanted the world to go away. Pulling my blanket off of the floor, I curled up into a ball, turning this way and that, feelings of loneliness and segregation running through my head. I didn't do anything wrong; why did I end up this way? Thoughts like this torment me constantly- replaying what seems like key decisions in my life and trying to figure out what I could have done differently. What did I do to create this Hel? It has to be me; it can't be everyone else, there are billions of people and that's just not playing by the numbers. Where did I go wrong? What could I have done differently? What can I still do?
These trains of thought dissipate as I'm reminded that answering these questions doesn't matter. I can't redo any part of my life. No decision can be undone. Whether it's my fault or not, this is the way things are, and it's too late to change anything now. Besides, I'm not the one who's broken, it's the rest of the world. It's not that I'm unacceptable; it's that you just refuse to accept me. I've spent my life trying to understand my surroundings, others. What's so depressing is that others don't even pretend to be interested in me. I'm not worth their time, in their eyes. No one wants to get to know me, and only a very few people try to use me. I'm aware of it but I've been too considerate of other peoples' perspectives for too long to be able to use others. Impossibly, I'm too earnest. Why can't I be selfish, like everyone else? Why can't I use people to get what I want? Why do I suffer the stoic? There is no reward when you're at death's door for walking your entire life in the light. I've been fooling myself, thinking that "As long as I can sleep with myself at the end of the day, I'll win in the end. I'll have my pride intact and be a better person." What a load of shit. The world isn't some kind of idealistic scenario like that. It's people that take that get. People who step on others without hesitation that elevate above others. I could never be that kind of villain, willing to scour others for my own self-satisfaction. And so I'm dissatisfied. I'm sad and lonely. I don't know how to interact with people while maintaining ulterior motives. I'm hyper-self-conscious. Because I can do more, I've felt the responsibility to be more, but instead of a medal I receive only scars.
After thoughts like that, I again turn inward, reevaluating my perspective: Am I the problem? How can so many fools and failures, without redeemable qualities, be so happy? "They're generic. They don't have any strong commitments and because they're so simple and bland, they readily mix with others that are equally baseless." That's what I tell myself. It's easier for them because they don't hold themselves to high standards as I hold myself to; or are even aware of them. "This awareness, this understanding that goes beyond the norm, this is what makes me superior" I tell myself. Superior, and equally alone.
ElanMorin May 7, 12:24 PM
Finally... my own place. No more roommates. No more "people". It's just me.
ElanMorin Mar 15, 10:09 PM
Homeless once again.
ElanMorin Mar 4, 9:06 AM
You traded loyalty for attention, you spoiled brat.
ElanMorin Jan 28, 10:39 PM
How much longer will it take to learn Pon Far magic?!
terrablu2003 Dec 25, 2014 7:17 AM
Hi! Happy holidays to you and your family !

ElanMorin Dec 19, 2014 11:03 AM
"Now, I'm motivated!"
terrablu2003 Nov 29, 2014 10:04 AM
Happy B-day !

ElanMorin Nov 12, 2014 10:07 AM
It's getting so hard to find good anime.
ElanMorin Oct 10, 2014 10:46 AM
I need more power...
Princess-Star Jul 31, 2014 4:36 PM
member of what ?
And Hi ! :)
ElanMorin Jul 28, 2014 5:24 PM
Well, I got one of my Levels back.....