(WARNING: THIS REVIEW CONTAINS REALLY SENSITIVE TOPICS, LIKE DEPRESSION AND SUICIDE, DON'T READ IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THESE TOPICS!)
"Ruru-chan no Jisatsu Haishin" is a song writed as a tribute to a 14 years old girl who commited suicide in a livestream, in the 24 November 2013. (Yes, It is a true story, so please be respectful) by the japanese band "Shinsei Kamattechan", the same band who sang "My War", the op of the final season of AOT.
The singer, although the song seems sung by a girl, is a male.
Rorochan_1999 was born in fact in 1999 and she was quite famous (especially between pedophiles) because she used to do livestreams in two japanese sites very similar to youtube, "FC2" and "NicoNico". Both of those account were both cancelled by the police, even though her twitter, with the name "rorochan_1999" is still on the platform.
She probably attended the middle school "Hachiman Junior High School" and she was the top of the class, always being the first in the graduatory of exams. She was indeed very smart, but this caused a lot of envy by his classmates, that began to isolate her, so she had no friends.
Her mother was usually absent and cold, as well his father who both ignored her, and this caused rorochan to feel very lonely and unloved.
She suffered indeed from a severe form of depression, both because of her loneliness and the school and family pressure, because in Japan at the third year of middle school you must have a score from 95 to 100,if you don't succeed, you will be considered as a disgrace from your family, and some of the children will be also beaten up.
For her internet was like a shelter from reality, where people would apprecciate her for who she was and give her warmht and love.
In some lives, she could be seen playing the piano or singing, however she was very unstable and depressed at the time, so in some lives we can hear her crying or laughing maniacally.
In some others, she avoided being hit by cars or did erotic things to please the pedophile audience.
She didn't have the help or the support of anyone, and this caused her depression to get worse and she started to develop suicidal thoughts.
She believed that by killing herself by livestream, she would become a legend and that she would never be forgotten.
So, the 24 November 2013 she leaves her room and heads to the thirteenth or fourteenth floor, in a balcony.
She probably didn't wanna do it, because she could be heard saying "I'm scared" in japanese. We must also don't forget, that some comments of the live said: "Do it, I bet you don't have the guts", or "Do it and you'll become a legend" or even comments writed by pedophiles which said:"Return to your room and masturbate"
Nobody knows if she did it accidentaly or not, but unfortunately she fell and died in a hospital three hours ago. Before she feel, we could hear her scream and a loud noise of a fall.
The saddest thing, is that some of her classmates were happy that she killed herself and they were laughing in the comments instead of being sad for what had happned.
We must never forget her story, but we also must never do what she did to become a "legend".
If you suffer from depression and suicidal thought, please reach for help. I know that life sucks, me myself suffered from depression and self harm for years and years because of an abuse I suffered, be aware that even if you didn't suffer an abuse, that doesn't make your suffering any inferior. You deserve happiness like any other human being, and deserve treatment and understanding. I am a survivor of depression and suicide attempts, and now I'm happy as ever. I still think that life sucks, but I'm completely aware of how life can be also beautiful, even with its negative things.
Remeber that there is always a solution, if I could do it, you can overcome it too. Don't give up and reach for help, and don't ever accept your condition, rebel till the end, I believe in you.
Rorochan, you was a victim of society who could have been a wonderful and useful person to our world, I'm so sorry for what you went through and you didn't deserve any of this. Rest in Peace.
Thanks for reading my review/tribute, have fun on mal! <3
