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dear dairy,
hey its a beautiful day outside. probally a day were people can lie to you. well i have been awake since 7:00 am, and i am have been lied to betrayed. if u think you have a friend that understands you,you dont trust me. i been through hell and back trying my damnness to see right through me. i dont understand me at all i try everydayy to see who will be in m corner to surpport me, but hey guess wat who's there my DAMN SHADOW! I have to figure things out. i have a heart and right now it is in love with some one____. you know who you are. then i have a bestfriend who is suspose to encourage me,and my lover,but is very selffish. she wants us to be so close to her very close. like all in her face close all i want is to be happy. i have my homie/brother who left me i call it betral. i thought we were so close that nothing could break us apart but i guess i was wrong. i love him know matter what. then i have my little twin the hugger who left me too. i love her my dive/sister. i hope yall enjoy yall self at mommy's. i know everyone has drama in their life hell life is drama. but i guess it is my time for me to sit on my ass and take it in. look all my lier,haters,assholes,bitches,sluts in the face with a big fat ass smile! i am srry if some of you read this and dont get it hell i dont know wy i am posting it on here. i guess i just thought i needed something to do to ease my mind. who has ever heard the song "hood love". that song has so many different meanings to me. is it just me or does everyone have someone in their life trying to dictate where and wat ur gonna do. becuz i do and i have to say is thanks for the advice but kiss my big ass!!!!!!!!!!
p.s
i am done with shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hit me up if u get this at all!!!!!!
dear diary,
today is a holiday,its called thanksgiving. i went to my moms house. i mean it is nice,but it isnt the same as im use too. im use to the family being together,i mean all of us hanging out laughing. even though not everyone gets along,its the thought that counts. so what do you do when people in your life like ,and dislike each other,but heres the thing they dislike each other becuz of you becuz they each think they know whats best for you.which why is that?is it becuz they think teenagers like us cant make our own decisions.or is it they dont trust us.i mean have you ever had a parent say i trust you to do that. lik going to a friends house,and when you turn around your dad or mom is staking out watching you!god i dont know bout you but that is scary.im not saying that has happened to me,but it is a possiblity,and if it has then i guess the feeling is mutual "I DONT TRUST YOU EATHIER". good nite!
dear diary,
i feel as the world is fallin down on me. why? becuz i guess they hating on me. i try my best to be the best shit their is,but hers's the thing half these bitches hating on every move i do. but here's the thing im a bad bitch,but these bitches actinlike i said that i am the baddest. im not gonna brag but im im the baddest out half of these bitches. today im comin on here to say i love haters.i mean at first i thought damn these motha fucka hate me i was so sad. and i use to think why am i hated,but now i feel as damn people hate me oh my gosh. i needed that to make me full,and heres's the thing they aint't gettin shit out of it.now i walk bye and i smile my ass off,and i know that is phoney,but these's bitches make me want to get up and go tom school.
other than that i love anyone who loves me back. thanx for all the understandin you all give me.i need it,and for my surrporter's that steady tell me that they know i can be anythin if i work harder.i got straight "HOOD LOVE FOR YOU" AND FOR ANYONE WHO TELLS ME THAT I COULD DO BETTER,AND THAT ISN'T MADEOUT FORME. WELL FUCK U LIKE I GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU. I AM WANT TO BE SUCCESFULL,AND U WILL BE A DUMB ASS MOTHA FUCKA WHO WILL BE MAKIN 7.34 AN HOUR.
NOW THAT ONLY FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE DOGGIN ON ME!
OTHER THAN THAT I LOVE THE WORLD.
it is a couple days after christmas so now i can go back being a mean gurl that everyone know's. i tried my best to be nice for the holidays becuz all the family was here,but now i dont know so much. when you be nice to people they abuse your kindness. im sick of all the lights on peoples houses i mean i've love the fact that you know that people could or would be nice,but im tired all these damn lights need to go off i mean they can light up an how 20 mile radies. lol. new day new beginning.
dear diary,
i want to say f the world like i cant live without the haters,and the lovers. i hate the fact that you can say you love me,and then play me for a fool. like i dont know what your up too. im dumkb like some other bitches you may know or hell you dont,but i will be damn if you think you are gonna dectate what i do,and why i do it. i feel as motha fucka's hate me then do so i love the fuckin attention the fact that you waste time out of your day to talk trash bout me thanc alot i will die remembered.....lol...then to all me lover thanx for the support,and understandin me...
happy christmas i hope everyone got what they wanted for the holidays and more.
happy new year's i hope some of these motha fucka personaltiles change becvuz i cant stand em i dont want to wake up one day,and go to school or out and slapp the shit out of someone becuz they are fuckin pising me off it is a shame that i am at that point right now...
TO MY BEST MAIN MAN FRIEND:
KENYON
TO MY BEST FEMALE FRIEND:
DONNISHA(456MOLLY)(MOLLY)
JANIYA(NIYA)
DIAMOND(SISTER IN LAW)
TO MY GIRL: MOLLY
TO MY MAN: KENYON
I LOVE YA TO DEATH THANX FOR THE SUPPORT!
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