This was it. This was the end of this story.
I actually had to rewatch the latter half of the episode, because I didn't process what was happening in the 1st watch. I'm actually only writing this a few hours after finishing "Your Lie in April".
Kousei's play turned into his big farewell to Kaori. This scene was beautiful, and I think I have never seen such a beautiful and meaningful "death scene". They didn't have to tell us what was going on, we all knew what was happening in that moment, and we all just wanted it to last forever.
I'm not an expert in classical music, but the musical piece chosen really fits the whole message, it started as a more nostalgic and bright sound, and then turned into a more anguished sound, finalizing with a more peaceful, yet mournful tone...
Some scenes used were actually artworks already shown to us in the 1st opening, and that gives this segment a feeling of going full circle.
Cutting this scene to Kousei in the graveyard with Kaori's parents was still a brutal reality check. I still had that hope the surgery had gone well...
I feel like the anime introduced us this concept so early on, that by the end of the anime you start believing Kaori won't actually die, and it's going to be a big twist. But after the death of that cat, in episode 20, Kaori's fate was decided. That cat has always been a metaphor to Kaori, a bit like her spirit animal, like Kousei says she's like a cat. So when the cat gets run over, and Kousei tries to save it, but it's impossible, is a really good reflection of his situation with Kaori: he wants to save her, but it's just something that isn't in his hands, there's nothing he can do to save her life, but he can still try to make the best of the rest of life she has. This contrasts to what we're shown last episode, where he just didn't defend his cat when his mother abandoned him. It's true that even if Kousei argued with his mother to protect Chelsea, it would probably be in vain, but at least he tried to do something, you know? This time, both with the cat and Kaori that didn't happen. The outcome was the same, but Kousei is left with a feeling of having done at least something. That cat didn't die alone, in the street, it was able to feel the human warm one last time. Kaori didn't die depressed and souless, she died battling to go on stage one more time, grabbing to her life the best way she could. All this was because of Kousei.
And then the big revelation happens, why this anime is called "Your Lie in April". I actually suspected early on that Kaori liked Kousei from the start (I even wrote that in an episode discussion before), and I was right. But I actually never thought that the Lie in April, was about how she lied that she liked Watari.
Honestly, that whole segment with Kousei reading Kaori's letter, and it seems he actually read it many times, was such heartbreaking. Kousei ended up only knowing his feelings were in sync with Kaori's after she died. And of course Kousei will never forget his first love, the person that broke the cage he was in, and brought him back to the flow of time, all that in that Spring, in the month of April.
This anime is so romantic and hopeless at the same time.
I want to believe that Kousei's last performance reached Kaori, and that the power of music, that transcends the living world, actually made it possible for the 2 souls, Kousei's and Kaori's, to play together one last time. The truth is they only played together once. So this performance of the "souls" would be their 2nd and last performance together. It seems Kousei also understood that when he saw Kaori during the play. The only other person he saw during his plays was his mother, so if he was seeing Kaori now, it could only mean one thing...
I have to say, there haven't been many anime able to make me cry as much as this one. I cried a bit with episode 13, but this one was really a cryfest. It's just impossible to not get emotional at this tragic fate. I liked how the ending of the anime was like a memorial for a deceased person, because, in fact, that's what happened, such a bright, young and kind person, loved by many, was lost after this episode. The fact that Kaori was able to fight her disease, in the way that she actually used that to live life like she wanted, and come closer to the person she loved. It's sad that she and Kousei weren't able to have the happy ending they deserved, but I'm sure each of them treasured a lot the few moments they spent together.
Your Lie in April is an anime that makes you mourn for a fictional character, that makes you realize the importance of love, that makes you relive your youth.
This anime hits me especially hard, because I have a personal story that in a way correlates to this one, which made ir hard to watch the anime sometimes honestly. It made me relive a lot of those moments, and wishing I did things differently and wanting that this story had a different ending than mine. It sadly didn't, but it made me give more importance to the memories that were left behind, and made me more able to embrace them.
I know it's a bit repetitive in media sometimes, but I do really feel like one of the biggest and most important messages of this anime is to live your life. I think we all take life for granted, pushing things we want our should do to the future, because "we have time". But sometimes we might not have that time. And pieces of media like this are essential to make us reflect about that from time to time, and try to live a life with no regrets and to its fullest, since we really don't know when our time is coming to an end, when will be the last time we will be with a person dear to us.
Your Lie in April was able to present all of these ideas, alongside the power of music and the effect it has on people, in a beautiful animation, with an emotional OST and a stellar direction. The human nature and the most important aspect of life are really well explored in this piece. It will be for sure a work I'll remember for a long, long time.
I do have some critiques to the anime though, much about Watari and some lack of closure in the ending. I already expressed before how I was disappointed with the way they developed Watari's character. In reality, they didn't develop his character. Even Kousei's rivals had more development than him. And to rub salt in the wound, in this final episode, when Kousei is reading Kaori's letter, and she says Watari will just move on from her quickly after she passes on, they cut to Watari going to his gallery to reminiscence about his time with Kaori, after he gets dumped by a girl who caught him with another girl. This scene highly suggests that Watari didn't see Kaori like the other girls. Watari really liked Kaori more, and might even say he loved her. This was hinted in the 1st half, with his reactions to her plays, but it was highly hinted when in episode 21 he tells Tsubaki about Kaori's health state. We never saw Watari that depressed in the anime. He knew at that time that Kaori would eventually die, soon... So this just makes me even more disappointed they didn't explore this better throughout the anime. I feel like they explored Tsubaki and Kousei's relationship really well, but Watari and Kousei's relationship was barely touched, with just a few bro moments, and that scene in episode 20. Not even a childhood memory we got from them. I really feel like that's the thing that bothers me the most in this anime, seeing how they presented Watari as a part of the main cast, but he clearly isn't treated as such, and is more of a comedic character for most of the times, or a character for Kousei to be able to tell stuff he can't to Kaori ou Tsubaki.
I also felt that this ending left a lot of things without an answer. Did Kousei win the competition? Was Kousei able to enter his high school? Did Tsubaki end up in the school close to Kousei? And what about Watari? What did he decide to do? Did he got seperated from the other 2? Were they hinting at the end that Kousei and Tsubaki will stay together (as a couple) in the end?
I feel like the lack of these answers made this anime lack a feel of closure. In a way, it's understandable that the main focus should be Kaori and Kousei's relationship, but at the same time these parts of the story were also important in these 22 episodes.
But even with all of this, I think Kousei and Kaori's story will always be a story that will deeply touch me, and Kaori's strenght until the very end will be inspiring. This anime ended up helping me in ways I wasn't expecting, and for that, I'll need to give it the perfect score of 10/10.
I hope that Kaori is able to hear Kousei's music wherever she is, and that the 2 can reunite once again, in another place. A little lie in April was able to change so many lives, with the help of music.
Thank you, Your Lie in April, for showing me the beauty of life. It reached my heart, and I will not forget about this story. |