Okay, I read this chapter late at night, and I just knew I had to come back during the day, to read and enjoy this chapter properly. It was just so beautiful. ;_________________;
I like that the first page was coloured. The first page alone, displayed Yashiro and Doumeki's emotions so well. .... I found it touching, when Doumeki rejected Yashiro's "Now that you're hard, let's have sex." Doumeki didn't want to have sex, just because he was hard. He wasn't looking to fuck his boss, at all. Yashiro's so used to being fucked, this must be the first time he met someone who loves him and rejected sex at that moment.
I like seeing Yashiro's inner 'sadist' side appear, when he pushed Doumeki, and said, "Really now, don't make me laugh so hard." Yashiro was angry at Doumeki for holding back... Yet, Doumeki had to deal with the struggle of not wanting to be like his father, but his lust telling him otherwise... I thought the author portrayed this conflict so well.
I love the monologues here! When Yashiro thought, "I wanted him to do it to me again and I tried not to fill my head with those thoughts," was so sad and lonely. <33 It was as if, Yashiro didn't expect to be touched the same way again...
I applaud Doumeki for his brave, bold confession to Yashiro. He must have been afraid of losing Yashiro, since he confessed while his hands were covering his eyes. Yet, being foreign to being loved...Yashiro couldn't understand what Doumeki spoke of. He thought sex was purely physical, with no emotions at all whatsoever. It's sad that Doumeki got soft, after the thought of being like his father surfaced... Being impotent was truly psychological. :( Although, I like that Yashiro has been trying to tell Doumeki he is not like his father, when he said them having sex would be nothing like rape; nothing like what his father did to his sister. <-- The author displayed all of this beautifully.
To see Yashiro in the shower, with his clothes still on... He was definitely shaken by Doumeki's confession. I love that Doumeki never stops thinking of Yashiro's well-being!! >< He ran to the shower, 'cause of Yashiro's wounds, not 'cause of anything sexual.
Btw, who was Yashiro talking about when he said, "And I decided all on my own that you were broken in some way, like me. Because you remind me of him." Was Yashiro talking about Kageyama, when he said “him”? I hope I'm not wrong, in thinking Yashiro was talking about Kageyama, since he later said, "You're not like him. From the very beginning you never were. You're completely different. So when you look at me like that you're not looking at me with his eyes!" <-- Yashiro recognized that...Doumeki looks at him with love and care. Kageyama only looked at Yashiro, with sympathy and concern as a friend.
;__________; Yashiro's confession was so touching!! He knew it wasn't a good idea to keep Doumeki around, yet he also didn't want to let him go... "I'm afraid of what it will do to me if I lose you..." <-- Can I applaud the author right now? I haven't seen such a vulnerable side of Yashiro, except when he cried in high school ;__________; And I love that there was one, silent page, of Doumeki going on his knees. With a fragile Yashiro, who is already sitting on the floor, and looking down... And that HUG!! <3 The kiss was so emotional too ;______;
I'm happy for Yashiro, to be loved and held with so much care <33 Yashiro being hugged and kissed with his eyes open...He really wasn't expecting such warmth! And Doumeki crying.... ;________; THE FEELS. Doumeki is loved by his boss! No more fears of not being by Yashiro's side! <3
This chapter was A++!! Yashiro and Doumeki must be a couple, from now on! |