Why can nothing make me feel the way Death Note did?!

theWannaBecritic said:


*Warning: this post contains Dragon Ball GT spoilers so stop reading if you want to avoid them.

Greetings FlatErik,

I have to say that your comment hit me right in the feels. XD Nonetheless, taste is purely subjective and I can understand why you would say that, the reason for my scoring however was that I had a very rough childhood filled with a lot of physical confrontations with people of the same age and older and a lot of the time I would end up being blamed for starting the fight even after clearly being the one who was in the right (on top of that I would be the one that technically lost in the fight, aka I got hit a lot more than the other person XD) as a result a lot of the time I would end up lashing out on innocent people and what was worse was that sometimes I would take out my anger on my friends and family instead of manning up and doing the right thing, and the guilt of those actions still haunt me to this day. I was also rendered insecure, paranoid and constantly scared of any confrontational situation with another human being even if it's someone who isn't capable of causing me any harm to me. This continued until I was 21 years of age, until one night the guilt of all of the suffering I have caused my friends and family and the pain I have withstood while not standing up for myself suddenly caused me to start shaking and crying in my bed uncontrollably. My parents rushed me to the hospital only to find out that it was not a physiological issue but a psychological one and soon after I went through psychotherapy. Ever since then, I have become a lot more confident, honest, aligned with my conscious. The same issue would still pop up every now and then but I would try my best to overcome it. Sometimes I succeed but other times I don't. 2 months ago however, I have been really pushing myself to fix this problem or rather to find a way of dealing with it such that any time it would arise overcoming this mental obstacle would become almost systematic as opposed to the existential threat that it feels like now. I have made a lot of progress but I can't say that I am there yet and this is all thanks to the fact that I've only finished watching Dragon Ball GT during the aforementioned time period. Seeing how Goku constantly fought for what was right given his limited intellect and the hugely disadvantageous situations he was in was very inspiring, especially how he chose to sacrifice his life at the end of the show as compensation for Shenron not destroying planet Earth. Welcome to the NHK however made me feel guilty all of the time because the whole show was just a guilt trip and the ending was very disappointing. That is way I gave GT a 9 and NHK a 5.

Regards,
M.