when u're rejected so much from society just because of how you look,
life is unfair that way.
but then, who actually cares? no one.
growing up like this, it is only inevitable that i seek pleasure from other sources for escapism from such unfair life.
I mean, i could have aced in my studies, could have got along with everyone, could have found myself a future spouse already right now, but no. Life needs to throw shit at you, so you won't advance in life.
And people will never understand you, because people will only perceive things from their perception, according to their level of understanding.
I'm sorry that u need to live life this way, in the end you will end up being a bitter person somehow,
but one thing for sure, i'm not hating anyone. Never will.
In fact, love for people that I care about the most, is one of the things that still pushes me forward, to continue living.