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Just sight seeing and stuff~ I'm visiting my family too~
People are so nice here :3

Yup, Florida is a state!! I have been Florida once :D
I would go to New York! They have lots of broadways shows I want to see!
I would go to Japan or Singapore! Both are big anime fan spots and have plenty of good scenery. Wbu?

My stomach hurts, ah, this sucks.
If you have a serious head injury, your eyes stop dilating. I think there is some muscle in your throat, and when you hit your head, it stops working? I'm not sure, but the doctor looked inside my mouth and told me that has to do with my head. That's true. I'd rather focus on my own problems, and solve the problems of others. Right. One time I thought I was in deep trouble, so I asked others for advice, but they told me the same things that I thought of doing. I guess it was reassurance. I normally don't tell someone if something is bothering me, though. Sometimes getting personal can be risky, if the other person isn't comfortable with it. I think the people I want to rely on don't want to be relied on. I normally assume I'm burdening them, so I don't bother them with anything and solve everything on my own. I guess you'd say I'm too independent. There's no way I could rely on someone completely. Somehow I feel like a person would trust a friend who knows me, to confirm that I'm really an honest person, haha. I can't prove everything to people unless they go digging, themselves. Eh, I'd want to see a psychologist before I get medication, but that costs money I don't have. Well, I don't really complain about things. I just tell things like they are. I'm not moping about problems, ha. If I did complain, however, I'd want the other person to start complaining about something. That would be interesting. I don't like someone to feel bad for me in any way. Sympathy just seems fake. When I tell someone I'm in pain, they go "I'm sorry," like it's their fault. It's annoying. I don't think anyone wants to be pitied. It's like they're above me in some way. Oh, the human mind is fascinating, why wouldn't someone be a psychologist? Haha. There is so much to learn.

It can be hard to tell someone you replaced them. I normally focus on one person and they interest me quite a bit, then as time goes on, I find someone else to interest me and entertain me. I'm picky, though I do admit that I replace people fairly often. I've had my focus on two people for months now, so I suppose it's not as often. If someone loses something, they feel the need to replace that thing immediately, haven't you noticed? If someone's cat dies, they want a new one. If someone's relationship is ruined, they want to find someone new. But don't you learn from an emptiness? I'm not sure what I'd define as a best friend. What makes them different than the others? Maybe if they pay attention to me, and not other people. Right. Well, even if I have a strong bond with someone, I dismiss it easily when they leave or something. Yes, it was an okay dream. I had a dream last night where I found this place in Sweden, a beautiful place, and had to take these birds to my house, for some reason. Friends are annoying, I think. They intrude in my daily schedule, and I'm obsessed with that schedule, so someone disrupting my time slots pisses me off. They're loud, they're not funny, but they think they are. They try hard to be weird, but if I told them of the things I like, they'd be disgusted. Haha. I don't get deeply sad about things. I admit I valued someone online very much, so when they left me temporarily, it did mean something to me. I don't think anything can be entirely forgotten, unless you lose your memories or something. Sometimes we wish we could forget things, but knowing is better than not knowing. I have this friend, and I've never met someone else like him, so it would be a big shame for him to leave. People aren't as simple as animals and items. For animals, you just find one you think is cute and nice, and that's a good enough replacement. Is there some emotional attachment to things, for you? Haha, maybe you want to be cared for.

All the games I want won't run on the devices I have, ah. I hate it. I would like to download a game, but I only have 200MB, and it's 1.5GB. Oh, same. I hate it when I buy something, I love it for a few days, then I put it down and never play it again. It seems to be a trend. So I want to buy things I know I'll play often. Why do people love money so much?

I've never been told my messages are boring, oh my. I wonder how that would go down. I'm always late to reply ;;;

I've been good too!
I'm currently on holiday in Poland~

Hello! We haven't talked for a while~
How have you been? :3

I had a wonderful day and then some! Thx you so much :D

I'm sorry about my late reply, I've been busy with Discord and doing real life things. ;;
Yes, I do. Hm, I injured my head by falling down the stairs. Yes, it's a concussion, of course it can be healed. It's not an extremely bad brain injury, otherwise my eyes/throat would be evidence of that (yes, that's how it works). I don't know what kind of sense of humor I have, but sometimes I laugh on a roller coaster. I've been told there are some good sides to how I am at the moment, because oversympathizing can be just as bad as not sympathizing at all. I don't imagine any kind of advice would help me, it will take a long time to just completely recover from everything. I know the solution to a problem, and I went months not expressing it, though I think I finally will. Complaining wouldn't get me anywhere, and I only do things that benefit me. I've been told to rely on others more, so I've been trying to do it lately. Some things, they just can't fix. But I'd like to at least express my views on things and not keep everything inside, it can really be a pain. At this point I think the only thing that could help me would be medication, but because I have no medication, I can't be helped. Someone's words wouldn't do anything for me. Most of the time I help myself, as well, because I'm a very independent and secretive person, despite what others may think. I'm just more open online. I don't like complaining about anything, because I don't want sympathy or pity, it's gross. Well, I view people who feel things as generally more impulsive, and think with their "moods" or emotions, rather than their head. I always want to make the most rational and logical decisions, which is why that part of me doesn't want to feel again. I need to be a psychologist, being unwavering is necessary.

Even if they don't compare, if they have the same function, is there really a problem? If someone was your "best" friend, and now they are gone, why would you bother replacing them? There should only be one "best," in my opinion. I used to have a best friend, too. I never replaced her, though I had friends after her. Now I have no friends, and I prefer it that way. Until someone better than her comes along. What does it take for something to "fully" replace another thing? For you to have the same bond and attachment? But what if there was never any bond or attachment to begin with? I had a dream about my cat last night, the one that was taken away because he pooped and peed all around the house. He was with another cat, and when he was me, he ran up to me immediately, ah. I think it's best to just forget about an old animal that's dead and gone. Well, everyone is different, so replacing a person can be difficult. That's why you find a better version of what you already had. I get attached to some things easily, normally if there's a pleasant experience associated with it. I'm attached to one person because he always read me my story, and no one bothered to read as far as he did. That's true. You normally replace an impaired object with one that's an upgrade.

The only things I want to buy at the moment are a DGD album and We Happy Few, which I found out doesn't run on this potato computer, so I'm kind of screwed. I hardly ever want something. I have a friend who has a job, and the money he gets, he doesn't use on anything, so it's just saved up. Why would I bribe someone? Haha. I feel as if I never deserve money given to me, so that's one thing I always want to decline. Maybe because I know the people around me don't make much money as it is, so for them to give me some makes me a bit guilty.

Yes, but the case is normally I forgot to reply, or I'm late with replying. If I got bored of someone, I would just tell them that.

Cool! :D
If you could go to any USA state right now what would you choose?

That's true. Reactions can depend on a person's mood or time they have to spend. Ah, I remember there was one time a lamp was falling, and I ran over there and caught it. Someone else couldn't do that quickly. But you know more about someone if they get scared over something, versus if someone else doesn't. I think I gained a lot of strange interests after injuring my head, to be honest. I feel like it messed with my brain--because your head is fragile, after all. I'm not sure why it got better, but I guess I feel more at ease, for some reason. I just told myself to always be calm, no matter what. I guess it worked over time. I'm not very affected by things in general anymore. I don't even laugh at funny videos like I used to. They don't amuse me at all. I only have hallucinations if I stay up late and I'm tired. I'm not paranoid, but on some occasions I have panic attacks. I'm not entirely sure what sets them off. You need medication for that kind of thing. I've always just helped myself, and I don't rely on others. So it's confusing if someone needs another person to give them advice for their problems. I wonder why they can't just help themselves. People complain about not having friends and such, but it's their problem if they don't try to make some. I hate it when people complain about everything, if they know the solution. Well, someone who feels things acts on impulse. A part of me wants to feel things, but the other part goes... no, I don't want to be an impulsive person. Sometimes I don't really know what it is I want. The way I see it, things have certain "functions." A woman with small breasts is the same as a woman with bigger ones, if they produce milk. That's what breasts are there for, after all. So if a person got a new best friend, it might be a different person, but they still have the same function/use. If something can't function properly, it's rather useless. I'm not sure how to word that in a way that isn't extreme. We had to get rid of our cat because he was pooping and peeing around the house, for no reason at all. He couldn't function properly, so some day he will be replaced.
But what do I need to spend money on, anyway? I wonder. Someone told me "everyone wants money." But really, I don't care for it. No, she's nice to that guy. There's one user who's indirectly trying to tell me he dislikes me, and it's annoying. If someone can't be direct, they don't deserve my time. Passive aggressiveness won't help anyone. But if she's fake, she's not changing it, ha.

Yeah. I have a problem with dropping some conversations out of the blue, if the person doesn't interest me. I don't really warn them before I do it.

Cool! What did you do there? :D

Yup, I agree! :D

Have you been to the USA before?

Well, in a sense, worrying does make you suffer twice. Because you care a lot about that thing you worry about. Worrying means you get all panicked and frustrated, ha. It's important to study a person's reaction to something, to know how they'll react to something similar later. I guess everyone worries about something trivial, at one point. Well, it all changed when I stopped talking to a close friend of mine last year, because he blocked me. I went into a state of psychological shock. Most people are emotionally impacted by someone leaving them or talking shit about them, but for me, everything's psychological. For instance, my sister talks about wanting to shoot herself and die. Her death won't make me cry. Instead, I'll be like... oh, well. Because that's just what happened to me, I changed psychologically, therefore I can't really care about people or things very much. A while after that guy left me, I started talking to another one. For a while I felt things again, was happy. Then he left, and I went into an even more extreme state of psychological shock, ah. That's how I started hallucinating, and I was deluded into thinking that I was being watched 24/7, so I had terrible, constant paranoia. It's gotten a bit better over time. For some reason, it caused me to be extremely tolerant and immune to everything. Say there's a video of some animals being abused, I won't mind watching it. This is also why I search for insect hentai daily now, ha. I have a problem with sexualizing most things. It is reflected in my writing that I treat things like objects: emotions, people, animals, the world as a whole. I discover more about how I think through writing. People die, they are replaced. People leave, they are replaced. It's just how things are.
Ah, but they could call you inconsiderate, regardless. I'm rather used to all that. I can think about anther person, to an extent. If someone offers me money, I reject it, because I never feel I deserve it very much, haha. One girl I talked to randomly stopped talking to me, and she talks shit about my friends on Discord. A friend of mine is her friend, so it's not my goal to give her extreme hate or anything, but she's very hypocritical, and a liar. Everyone calls her fake, and she doesn't even take it as an insult, while most people would question it. I wonder if she knows it, herself, heh. I wouldn't stop talking to someone for something they can't help, but if they're complaining to me about shit I don't care for all day, I'm off.

Well, if you're talking to a person and what they say doesn't interest you, yet you lie and tell them it does, for their sake, then aren't you at fault? I can't be at fault for telling the truth. It is what it is. Some people are just very defensive and assume I'm being mean to them.

Yeah, but sitting at a desk in the middle of the classroom, meeting new people, and things like that make school sound kinda fun! Being homeschooled is fun too, but I want to experience that too~

Yeah! :D. The USA is so big too. If I want to travel, I don't need a passport. I can just waltz right through a border lol

I wonder why we see it as overwhelming. I think the reaction of another person is what may be the most overwhelming for me, which is why I avoid them reacting, and do something so that their reaction won't be something huge. If I may get in trouble for what I do, as well, I have to be precise and think about it. Learning from things is also important. Making mistakes is just a part of life, though. I worry about some random things, though I try not to, if it's too trivial. Nothing really clouds logical thinking for me, though. I guess back when I felt things, it did.
I don't care if something hurts another person's precious feelings. Mm, if I decide on a decision (ha) and the other person dislikes it, that's not really my problem. If someone changes how they view me based on one thing I do, they must be easily swayed. A friend of mine was close friends with one boy. That other boy, we'll call him Jim, made a friend, and we'll call her Della. The friend of mine doesn't like Della, and insulted her a bit. Jim heard about it, and immediately he stopped being friends with the other guy, though they had been so close before. Isn't it sad? Someone so close to you would turn against you. Things can contribute to being unsure. I think you should do the whole "gut feeling" thing.

I wonder why they do that, hmm. Maybe because what they're used to, they'll think you do. Sometimes I tell a person I don't like short conversations, or I don't like random friend requests, and then they think I'm being rude. No, I'm simply stating what I like and dislike. I don't know why they insult me if I'm just stating a fact. I always have to correct them, which is fairly sad, ha. I do sometimes tell people that what they're talking about isn't of interest for me. I don't really feel the things others do, which is why I can be brutally honest and not regret it.

Pretty cool! Since, its only me, my mom is able to teach me things efficiently and I am in different grades for different subjects. And I am already in 10th grade for spelling~

United States!~