Kimi no Koto ga Suki de Ienai.
My Secret Affection

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For full transparency, I went into this fully expecting something bad that I could mock after seeing that one panel of the MC crying about being hetero, and I did get a few laugh out of it, however the final chapter made me actually so pissed off I had to write this. Full spoilers ahead.

30 years ago a meteor fell on earth that made everybody gay. Yes, everybody instantly became strictly homosexual overnight. What about bisexuals or asexuals, and other such people I hear you say? Don't worry about it. This included complex biological changes that made it possible for homosexual pairs to become pregnant ... with each other's children. How? Don't worry about it, the author certainly doesn't.

The main character is *gasp* a heterosexual girl named Kazusa who's in love with her male best friend, Ayumu. Ayumu's grandpa was the last living heterosexual (yes, really) because he was in space the day the hometeor fell. Cue ten insufferable chapters of Ayumu getting obliviously close to Kazusa and her going 'waaaaaaaah I like him so much but I am a Freak straight boohoo', and this goes on and on and on. She eventually finds another hetero, a boy named Shiina. They bond over being heteros (yes, that's their only connecting trait), until Shiina confesses his love for Kazusa (again, just because she is also straight). She rejects him and confesses her love to Ayumu.

Now here lies my biggest gripe. Ayumu turns out to be gay. And at this point I thought 'Ok, the author is probably going for a platonic ending, showing there is more to love than romantic feelings, nice!'. But then it ends with them two dating?? Despite him clearly not being into her Like That? And I'm left wondering what was the author's intention with the messaging here.

The story is ridiculous and batshit, don't get me wrong. There's plenty to laugh at here, especially if you're LGBT+ and you understand the ridiculousness of it all. But when I look at the series as a whole I am truly baffled as to what the author wanted to say.

The museum exhibit of Heterosexuality (yes, really) portrays the straight couples of old as just happy. Smiling, idyllic. The main character even points this out, that they all look so joyful. The two straight characters are constantly worried about being found out to be straight, they fear discrimination. But... why? In just 30 years, would the world really move into 'hatecriming the straights'? In the final chapter there's even a couple that decided to stay married after the meteor, despite not loving each other anymore, and it is never stated that they would face any sort of discrimination from the adults. They are shown to argue and bicker, but that 'this is what's best for them'. This, coupled with the MCs deciding to date each other anyway, REEKS of the age old homophobic rhetoric of 'you can push past it, if you find a nice partner of the opposite sex, your homosexuality will be cured!'.

This entire manga, despite being ridiculous as f*ck, oozes of homophobic tropes, and I would truly only recommend it to point and laugh at it.

1/10, never write anything again.