Shinai naru Boku e Satsui wo Komete
My Dearest Self With Malice Aforethought
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Shinai naru Boku e Satsui wo Komete

Alternative Titles

Japanese: 親愛なる僕へ殺意をこめて
English: My Dearest Self With Malice Aforethought
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Type: Manga
Volumes: 11
Chapters: 98
Status: Finished
Published: May 7, 2018 to Sep 7, 2020
Genres: Drama Drama, Mystery Mystery, Suspense Suspense
Theme: Psychological Psychological
Demographic: Seinen Seinen
Serialization: Comic Days
Authors: Inoryuu, Hajime (Story), Itou, Shouta (Art)


Score: 7.941 (scored by 28582,858 users)
1 indicates a weighted score.
Ranked: #7922
2 based on the top manga page. Please note that 'R18+' titles are excluded.
Popularity: #1110
Members: 12,871
Favorites: 203

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Eiji Urashima is just an ordinary university student like everyone else. His college career consists of boozing with his friends and trying to get a girlfriend. On October 23rd, he returns home after a pleasant night of drinking and goes to bed. To his surprise, when Eiji wakes up, a gorgeous girl from his university, Kyouka Yukimura, is lying beside him—claiming to be his girlfriend.

Having no recollection of the event, Eiji goes along with the flow until he's faced with more nonsensical events that took place in the last few days. Walking alongside his friend, Kashiwagi, he cannot help but ask the most intuitive question in his mind: isn't today the 24th? "Eiji, what are you saying? Today's the 27th."

Three days have passed, yet Eiji cannot recall a thing. The situation takes a dire turn when a magazine writer exposes Eiji's deepest secret in front of Kyouka: he is the son of a serial killer. As his life is thrown into a spiral of disarray, he embarks on a journey to resolve the mess of the last three days and get Kyouka to accept his past.

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Shinai naru Boku e Satsui wo Komete has been published digitally in English as My Dearest Self With Malice Aforethought by Kodansha Comics USA since February 2, 2021.


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Feb 17, 2021
merope28 (All reviews)
From the first chapter, you will be hooked! The story focuses on the MC and his memory gaps. The author give little hints throughout the story as to whats going on and its so well-written. The plot twists and the mysteries are just so amazing that it left me shocked. I usually dont usually enjoy murder mysteries or psychological manga but this one is something that you all should read! I really like how the characters are written be it the antagonist or the protagonist. Thankfully, the MC isnt your typical horny guy but someone who actually is likeable and enjoyable to read about.
Sep 11, 2020
Lazar25 (All reviews)
I don't know if i have seen better first chapter. If you love your psychological shit this manga is for you. Main character is young teenage boy, and ofc only thing he thinks about is losing his virginty. One night after few drinks with friends he got drunk and picked up his stuff and left the party. But what he didn't expect is him waking up in his bad but his not alone. Next to him is hottest girl in school. How that happend? Read and find the reason. There is only 8 chapter translated at the moment, so i hope someone picks up this read more
Mar 2, 2021
RisenZombie (All reviews)
It seems strange for it to be all a 10 but I'm not the kind of persons who criticizes like "the art is good,but sometimes lacky when you look at a background" or "it's the same concept of story as many other mangas that are better than this",I just want to say that reading this manga means you will be hyped to read every new chapter and say "i feel bad that I have to stop now".
This manga deserves more and I hope it will receive an anime adaptation too in the future.
It's one of the best mangas I have ever read,it got my adrenaline read more
Aug 2, 2021
habibi-san (All reviews)
this is my first time writing a review, I rarely write reviews but this manga was just too good, and underrated asf, I finished this a few months ago and was surprised to see the low amount of users and reviews.

From start to finish "To my dearest Self with malice aforethought" was absolutely brilliant. I love psychological manga and this was one of the greatest pyscological manga, along with Blood on the tracks, monster, and pun pun. Kind of a mind fuck but entertaining nevertheless, each page had me flabbergasted with the amount of goddamn plot twists and the engaging plot overall.

Art is read more


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