Shinai naru Boku e Satsui wo Komete
My Dearest Self With Malice Aforethought

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if you want a mystery with lots of twists, you're going to read the right manga. I was very moved by the ending and how it all developed. The story is very well done and has no loose ends. the art is simply magnificent! I got emotional with the ending and enjoyed every moment, there wasn't a bad part!
The protagonist is wonderful and VERY realistic, you really feel in his shoes. The antagonists are awesome too, if I can call them "antagonists".
I think it's hard for a suspense to hold so much. Several moments I had my jaw dropped and I read everything very quickly ... for that too.

I really like these psychotic thrillers about crazy people, yet this one is somewhat disappointing. Not because it is bad per se. The art is quite good, the writing is fine, the characters are layered, and the story itself is quite consistent, yet the whole manga felt like a homework. If you didn't read thrillers with split personalities you may find it interesting, but this one follows the standard script step by step. At some point in the middle of the 34th chapter it made me belive for a short time, that it may be different, but it was a short-term hope since at the ... end of the same chapter it already made crystal clear that there will be nothing new here.

Characters: How should I put this? They are complex, well fleshed out and their motivations are well founded, yet they still managed the be cliché characters. Also, despite their complexity they actions still remained one-dimensional. So in the end I didn't find any of them particularly interesting. I would like to keep this review spoiler free, and I cannot really write much more about them without somewhat spoiling the story, but I could mumble a lot about why they are so lacking.

The story: Again, the integrity is pretty good, but because of the countless ex-machina and convinietly introduced new characters it felt pretty subpar. Not to mention the most blatant issue with the stories like this. Namely, the fact that the MC's split personality is shamlessly used to keep the mistery going. I find this a really lazy way to keep the reader guessing. A cheap plot convinience tool and it quickly became pretetious. Not that it has a surprising ending what you cannot easily guess, if you've read a few similar stories. However, in a good mistery story the answer is lying in front of your nose, yet you don't notice, but here everything that happened felt like a deliberate attempt to misdirect the reader from the obvious answer.

In the end I wouldn't call this one bad, because it is not. It is just unoriginal. So as I said at the beginning, if you are new to the genre I can recommend it, but if you are looking for something new this is not the manga you are looking for.

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I was enjoying the manga until it's revealed the main character "gave" himself DID (Dissociative identity disorder, formally known as Multiple personality disorder). To me it felt massively like a cop out with little to no setup as to how he actually "gave" himself DID. He simply decides to form it as a tool to get revenge, the story goes into little to no detail as to how he even did this. It feels as if DID was slapped onto the story as an afterthought. I enjoyed the built up/mystery the series had for a lot of its chapters but felt ... the reveal of DID really did bring it down. I feel as though there are many better ways to utilize the core components of DID in a fictional story.
The use of real mental illness in media and entertainment is a tricky thing to portray and the way DID is portrayed in this particular manga makes me extremely uncomfortable to say the least. I could not enjoy the manga after the way it used DID almost as a fix all for its plot holes with seemingly little to no research nor creative twist to the mental disorder.

Please stop sending me hateful messages and death threats simply because I do not enjoy this manga. I'm allowed to have an opinion that differs from yours.