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elkensteyin | Jan 2, 2018 9:47 AM

joey101937 | Jan 1, 2018 11:40 PM

Oh yeah i forgot about the id number lol #6532
and im glad to hear youve found someone :) still need to find one for me lol

and yeah it is but luckily im on the right track now, ive got much better people in my life now than at the time it happened so i only see improvement from here ^^

Gyarutsundere | Jan 1, 2018 10:39 PM

For discord i need your id number too ;)

And thats sad for me it went for the better i found a new love who is way better ^_^ but im still not officially divorced so need to keep it low..

And thats a sad story joey, just know how cliche it may sound it happens for a reason and she prob wasnt good for you. I have the same with my soon ex husband, he made me depressed a lot while my current bf cheers me up.
I hope you recover <3 i was surprised by how fast it went for me.. so hope same happens to you, may you be blessed this 2018

joey101937 | Jan 1, 2018 9:58 PM

Hey guys im not dead in case you were wondering though i havent been online in a long time. Alot of things have been happening in my life irl and its just caused me to not log in anymore, though i never forgot.

Im really sorry to hear about your story chloe :(
I may actually be able to relate to at least the grreiving part.

some backstory of where ive been these past year(s)
about time i vented about this

One of the things that happened was i got into a relationship with a girl i met at a party at my university back in late 2015 (if you rememebr back then i was talking about some girl and some drama with her) and we ended staying together until jan2017. She was the first real girl i ever fell for and i thought she was the love of my life even though we did fight more than we should have. honestly i could write a book about all of things that happened in that year we were together and the things we had gone through but long story short i was in love with her having alot of her own personal problems (depression, school troubles, etc). We went through so much as she used to have really bad depression and even tried to kill herslef more than once, i had to physically restrain her at one point. I still rememeber holding her in my arms when she wanted to die. Ill never forget it, but we got through it together. She was my everything and i finally had what ive always dreamed of having but never thought i would. unfortunately between her hot temper and admitedly my own stubbornness we did have a lot of fights. one day she got a new job at a grovery store. There, she ended up cheating on me with a cooworker for what i suspect was 2 month. She dropped the news on me the day after our 1 year anniversary then left for him never to return. I fell into a serious depression that lasted almost a year (probably 10ish months) before i was able to finally be happy on my own again.

She had cut me off from almost all my friends saying i wasnt allowed to talk to them or my at the time roomates because "they would change me" or whatever other reason. Looking back i shouldnt have let her becuase after the break up it was only that much worse, though in her defence one of my roomates at the time really was an awful person. (i wont go into detail because just thinking about him puts me in a bad mood but long story short: he was an asshole)

After highschool my anime watch droped off to almost non-existance. Me and my exgf watched a few series together back in 2016 but that was about it, and after we broke up i just couldnt watch it. Not because i dont like it or its childish but because back then i just didnt have the time... but also the there is a reason i stopped logging in here. idk how to explain it. I didnt have a great life before college; so anime and the internet were a saving grace for me with only one or two real friends and a handful of in-school friends. when i got to college it all turned around for the most part. i had friends, a goal i was working towards, a gf that i loved dearly. going back to anime after having that felt like i was taking a step backwards. Not that anime is inferior but i hate the past. I never want to go back to where i was when i was younger and it just reminded me of that. it didnt help that my ex made an account on here when she found out i had one too.

I also inherited an online club thing where alot of depressed people came to talk where i had previously been made an admin for knowing the owner and when the owner left i took control. It was basically an edge fest in there but i turned it into a place where people could get some kind of help or talk about whatever was bothering them. I also went out and talked to a whole bunch of random people, anyone who would listen basically because i had lost alot of friends in the months before when she was making me cut contact with them.

Oddly enough my physical fitness has an inverse correlation with my mental wellbeing because i dont eat when im stressed and if im going to be sad i might as well be fit and set instead of fat and sad so ive been going to the gym regularly since then and went from a bit chubby to kinda buff which helped my self esteem a bit, and knowing i could beat the shit out of that piece of shit shes with now is a great feeling.
from what i hear they dont have the best relationship.i talked to her a small handfull of times since the breakup and and she says they fight worse than me and her ever did. unfortunately she was cutting again (and him too). While i was sad what happened to her i would be lying if i said i didnt get a sense of satisfaction to know that they werent doing good either which i kinda felt bad for feeling.

not all sad news though in that ive been rapidly improving in the past few months and i have new roomates now that i love, actually happy and enjoying life again, at this point im working on maintaining this body while i recover mentally because i know i like to eat when im content and working towards an internship or programming career (im a java programmer, or at least studying to be. i should graduate 2019)

By the way i do want to thank you guys at the claim a tsundere club just for being here for so long, you guys really did mean alot to me (and do), talking to you guysr really did help me through alot of things between my parents divorce, general highschool happenings or moving out to go to university so i wish you guys all the best in 2018!

Alright with all that out of the way, im back (for now at least. If you ever want to contact me im on discord under the same name and ill be sure to reply)

Ive only read a handful of VN but they were generaly pretty good. me and my roomates all played doki doki literature club together where we each got a different girl to read as XD
I was the main character/nararator and they were all my harem haha, though it got really dark actually, and they like modified the game files themselves which was really cool if any of you are into horror / mystery VN under the guise of being a cutsy romance one

Gyarutsundere | Nov 17, 2017 10:50 AM

Well ive never been a big fan of VNs tbh.. i dont think it will become my new hovby.

I do like VN game types like blazblue or life is strange

wen294 | Nov 17, 2017 10:29 AM

Some VNs come prepatched, precracked and require no installation (though even those often need system locale on japanese i think. Like i have that in general so i never really notice if games need it or not)

Gyarutsundere | Nov 17, 2017 3:47 AM

Well i do but havent needed em so far.

I got one with a magifying glass on it. And just regular tweezers.

Well yup it takes patience as paint needs to dry for long times but well when it dries im at work or sleeping :p

Lazhward | Nov 16, 2017 1:40 PM

You have a pair of hobby tweezers, with the angled tips? Those help a lot in model building I find. Not that I'm an experienced model builder or something.

I think model building is cool, and I tried it. It's a good exercise in patience. However, I think I realized that I don't enjoy it enough for how much time it costs.

Gyarutsundere | Nov 16, 2017 9:36 AM

Games often bore me after some time..
Only a few kept my interest. Somehow i prefer watcuing others gsme, live tho.. so not on youtube.

Yeah i was the person xD the only VN i recall i loved and played was shuffle!

wen294 | Nov 16, 2017 9:11 AM

Haha sorry xD

In my free time i just game :3
You tried your hand at visual novels? (or were you the person that had difficulty getting them up and running...?)

Gyarutsundere | Nov 16, 2017 8:19 AM

Well please dont discourage me so much wen xD i suck at this already but i just try to find a new hobby lol its cheaper than prepainted at least and takes some time :3 got too mich time on my hands atm.

Previous kit i ruined cause i put terpentine to remove the paint :') ON the plastic. And ofc it ate the plastic oh well.. ^^" lol

wen294 | Nov 16, 2017 7:46 AM

From my experience with stickers you can never get them on 100% straight.
They always feel a bit off when you look at them.
An absolute pet peeve of mine xD

Gyarutsundere | Nov 16, 2017 6:59 AM

Well yeah i cant stuff approx half a year in less text. This is already a summary ^^"

Well apparantly if you fuck it up, theres rubbing alcohol or something to remove the paint, parts can be removed ok unless u glued the wrong parts together but thwts just stupid.. as there are instructions with numbers and all
Only the stickers might be a problem so i hope i dont mess up >.<

wen294 | Nov 16, 2017 6:17 AM

Holy hot cupcakes that's a lot of text xD

Personally not too sure how i feel about model kits. Like they're cool and all that but pricy and if you fck up while putting it together it'd kinda be a waste.
Or at least if it's a type of model kit that i'm thinking of where you actually have to use glue and stickers and shit.
If it's models that you can just pull apart and put back together those are nice :3
But most model kits aren't like that unfortunatly.

Gyarutsundere | Nov 16, 2017 4:06 AM

Haha its fine xD it doesnt matter anymore anyways. I shpuld just treat him like a stranger :3 same like he does to me anyways. Who just so happen to be in my home every once in 2 weeks until divorce :p

Other subject..

Im about to start my first model kit :D a boat from arpeggio blue steel. U-2501

Lazhward | Nov 16, 2017 1:36 AM

Hahaha, that's too long for even me to read xD

Gyarutsundere | Nov 13, 2017 11:08 AM

I put it in spoiler tags as its freaking long..

This was what i send a friend quite some time ago before victor talked to me again with the psychologist there,, and where he firmly said.. i dont have feelings for you anymore and then acted distant and cold. And some info mightve just been my thoughts before that statement.. as he was kind of showing mixed signals so i was confused.
Just saying if you think heh you already told this or why is there this or that..

Gyarutsundere | Nov 13, 2017 11:02 AM

I think i got the full story somewhere since we keep discussing this anyways.

Trust me if you asked me this all a week or 2 after it all happened.. i wouldnt be so cool about it here and rational... ^^" but a lot happened in this month for me as well

Gyarutsundere | Nov 13, 2017 10:59 AM

I dunno what his true reason is but yeah i dont see how it will help knowing it, he said no feelings but week before he basically said he is insecure and no self love.. but both ways lead (for him in his mind) to ditching me. So i wont think of it no more. I used to and analysed everything.. but my psychologist told me not to. Cause what use is there? Nothing. It wildve been useful when we would both go to therapy. But now? Nothing. I tried and we talked and he still wants divorce so.

As for not being mutual yeah i still have feelings BUT I also had doubt and didnt feel like it was howit used to be.. just the difference is me fighting and trying.. and he is simply avoiding and letting it happen. Sp yeah now this happened. And while im sad, i also realise what i mightve missed out on. I still have or can have fun weekends.. and weekdays are still lonely, but they always were.. cause my (soon to be ex) husband waant much of a talker.. so we didnt contact much during weekdays.. like for example frequent phone calls. Now i cant recall if he ever did and i think we did text more.. but over time less and less prob cause he lost inerest indeed.
But whatever.. he left me hanging in my hard time. And after that, a lot changed. So while I am sad.. And I am also affected if he does find someone else.. the "new" him isnt fun.. actually i think he mightve caused my down moods and lonelyness.. cause when he was in the phase he had doubts, i tried to fight and all but he never bothered and we ended up on the couch and i getting dissapointed.

So im a bit mixed now that I think straight.. if I were happy or not.. I used to be dont get me wrong. And I miss the old victor.. the fun we had. But him letting me down and repeatingly breaking my trust did affected me HARD plus that lesbian friend.. where he spend way too much time on.. then she switched to me more than him and wr talked a lot and she became a friend of mine as well..

So yeah if he did wanted to continue we still needed therapy.. and who knows i mightve found out that I didnt want him. But for now it just freaking hurts and I write everything down when my head isnt a mush..
luckily i dont see him anyways cause then i cant stop the longing feeling.. cause it feels so familiar :( and then him acting all cold... yeah sigh

wen294 | Nov 13, 2017 10:12 AM

Well to be fair it could just be losing interest and nothing else. Feelings are fickle, that stuff does happen even without other woman involved. Was the case of somebody i knew after being together for 8 years. Sometimes feelings of love just kinda... go away i guess. Just instead of it being mutual it was one-sided in your case.

I mean it's all personal feelings you know, explaining them is difficult and telling them is as well.
You were already married so it's no suprise it'd be difficult for him to tell you, and after telling he might just be searching for excuses to explain his own feelings (perhaps even to himself).

Him cheating on you is one of many explanations. For now there's not really any specific reason for assuming it over any other number of reasons.
I'd say try to convince yourself of whatever is most convenient for you.
Even if it could be deluding yourself, the truth most likely won't gain you anything irregardless of what it is anyway.
(and yes that's a tall order and it's coming from someone with no experience)

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