Mar 4, 2012 9:25 PM
Family
I miss being apart of an internet community. 6 years ago, I became a part of a StarCraft community, but the friendships we had stretched further than the game we played. Every night after school and on the weekends, I'd go home, isolate myself in my bedroom, and talk for hours with people I didn't know "IRL" about everything.
After telling myself that perhaps it was time to move on and make "real" friends, it's been 3 years and I still find myself unsatisfied. It's not even like I'm friendless or anything, I just feel like the friends I have now aren't able to fulfill my need for a family.
I suppose I should define my meaning of "family". By family, I mean a small group of people (3?) who would act as my lifelong friends. Blood relation is irrelevant. My "family" is the type of group where its members enjoy each others company for the majority of their spare time, even if that means just being with each other for the sake preference to company over singularity. It consists of the type of people that just head over to each others homes every day, almost as an unspoken ritual, to enjoy their family's company.
Reflecting on what I have now, even while I do have a set of good friends, I don't have my idea of a family. My old internet community was the closest thing I had to it. Our home was Battle.net, and it was ritual for us to meet there every day after school. The only thing that was missing was being together in a physical sense. But it was better than nothing.
In fact, that's an understatement. Through it's faults, I cherished that family I had.
After telling myself that perhaps it was time to move on and make "real" friends, it's been 3 years and I still find myself unsatisfied. It's not even like I'm friendless or anything, I just feel like the friends I have now aren't able to fulfill my need for a family.
I suppose I should define my meaning of "family". By family, I mean a small group of people (3?) who would act as my lifelong friends. Blood relation is irrelevant. My "family" is the type of group where its members enjoy each others company for the majority of their spare time, even if that means just being with each other for the sake preference to company over singularity. It consists of the type of people that just head over to each others homes every day, almost as an unspoken ritual, to enjoy their family's company.
Reflecting on what I have now, even while I do have a set of good friends, I don't have my idea of a family. My old internet community was the closest thing I had to it. Our home was Battle.net, and it was ritual for us to meet there every day after school. The only thing that was missing was being together in a physical sense. But it was better than nothing.
In fact, that's an understatement. Through it's faults, I cherished that family I had.
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| Mar 4, 2012 9:25 PM |
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