EmptyMemory's Blog

I miss being apart of an internet community. 6 years ago, I became a part of a StarCraft community, but the friendships we had stretched further than the game we played. Every night after school and on the weekends, I'd go home, isolate myself in my bedroom, and talk for hours with people I didn't know "IRL" about everything.

After telling myself that perhaps it was time to move on and make "real" friends, it's been 3 years and I still find myself unsatisfied. It's not even like I'm friendless or anything, I just feel like the friends I have now aren't able to fulfill my need for a family.

I suppose I should define my meaning of "family". By family, I mean a small group of people (3?) who would act as my lifelong friends. Blood relation is irrelevant. My "family" is the type of group where its members enjoy each others company for the majority of their spare time, even if that means just being with each other for the sake preference to company over singularity. It consists of the type of people that just head over to each others homes every day, almost as an unspoken ritual, to enjoy their family's company.

Reflecting on what I have now, even while I do have a set of good friends, I don't have my idea of a family. My old internet community was the closest thing I had to it. Our home was Battle.net, and it was ritual for us to meet there every day after school. The only thing that was missing was being together in a physical sense. But it was better than nothing.

In fact, that's an understatement. Through it's faults, I cherished that family I had.

Anime Relations: Suzumiya Haruhi no Shoushitsu

Okay, so as I understand it...

Past Nagato (as I will call her) claims that due to a developing bug, on the night December 19th Future Nagato wrecks havoc to the future time-plane. Kyon explains that this "bug" is just the development of Nagato's feelings: in particular, the stress she feels from having to put up with Haruhi. We see that in Nagato's altered world, she exists not as an entity designed to observe Haruhi, but as a regular human being (showing the audience the life she wishes to have instead). However, Kyon is given the power to reverse Nagato's doing, and he does just that. While he does defend Nagato against Data Integration Thought Entity, Nagato's initial problem doesn't really get dealt with. She still wishes to have more human-like characteristics, and she wishes to relieve herself of the burden created by Haruhi.

I'm not saying that everyone's problems should be solved at the end of the day, I just wish they didn't play it off like they were.