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rtys8 Mar 9, 2019 9:40 AM
At long last,the drought finally has a solution.

But, tonight, i am talking about the impact Japanese Entertainment,Fate/Stay Night,Dies Irae and why it's a sign i need to leave.

Throughout all these years. I had multiple clashes with it due to simply not understanding it in the end. It's something i believe i can theorize as the "Evangelion Effect". To put it....it's like a cult. Stuff that isnt inherently good or something that cant be shared with others.
I am not that foolish to forget that these are meant to make money.

These are simply a sign of weakness in my main hobby in gaming when i dont have something on hand to play.

But i really got to express my thanks first and foremost to providence for showing me that i was tricked. Even by what i considered the best in there.
Fate Stay Night,the Nasuverse, was truly never the work of genius i was led to believe it was.

One could say Dies Irae had the advantage over it.But it did things for me instead of using my love against me. I am not so naive to prepare against that possibility again even for Dies Irae,but it's symbolic.

How many times does this make it? A hidden niche activity that only you could selfishly enjoy in the darkness of a foreign land.
Dies Irae ultimately was kind enough to show me closure to my chuuni days, readily available for me to buy it myself if i so desired and what a successful continuation of the model would be.

Fate Hollow/Ataraxia actually failed to be satisfying.It was never going to work. I know this to be a fact. Be it i was able to play at release or a decade later,what was inside was none of the well planned story it was advertised to be.
Evangelion i dont get it like heck. I was deceived no matter how i see it.
The Summary and promotional material is a lie compared to how the actual game turns out like.

The plot of Fate/hollow ataraxia is based 6 months after the events of Fate/stay night. Like its preceding counterpart, the story is set in Fuyuki City. Bazett Fraga McRemitz, a member of the Mages' Association and a master in the Fifth Holy Grail War, wakes on the fourth day of the Fifth Holy Grail war with a new servant, Avenger, and no memory of what happened to her beforehand. She and Avenger set off to fight and win the Holy Grail War.

Meanwhile, Shirō Emiya lives a peaceful life with all of his friends from the Fifth Holy Grail War. After one of her experiments changes time and space, Rin Tohsaka leaves for the Mages' Association in England to fix things. The Servants sense a new danger while dark creatures appear soon afterward. Shirō, as a precaution, sets off to ensure nobody is in danger and instead finds himself frequently meeting a mysterious girl, Caren Ortensia.

Both Bazett and Shirō find themselves in a time loop that lasts four days, beginning of the fourth day of the Fifth Holy Grail War. Each time they die or survive four days, they always awake on the first day of the loop, aware of what has happened to them since the first time loop began. Determined to end the loop, Bazett, Avenger, and Shirō fight to discover the truth behind what is causing the endless four days.

It makes you think the New Characters, Bazett, Caren and Avenger are the new protagonists and the story will be about their side of the Holy Grail War.
What actually happens? It's back to the Fate Stay Night cast doing wacky slice of life hijinks! We never really shown much of the new characters. They dont matter actually at all even at the end.

This is not how you close things at all.You can say it's a fandisk,but the summary is written like it's a sequel! So what is it then?

I truly grateful to be given Dies Irae showing how these same common elements would work nicely together towards a satisfying closure in the base work,yet satisfying add ons can to be added and work together later if they ever wanted to make more.

Somewhat.....it all makes sense now. Nasu was never actually a real genius of a writer.Without Urobuchi, he is just a mess of disorganised ideas.
I must truly says thanks. The age of the Visual Novel Eroge is ending. I feel it is also time we left after we see it off, the success of seeing Dies Irae,like how Avengers Endgame would close a good old age,yet set things up for a different future. I have no intention of participating in it's upcoming mobage.

Ikabey at least tries to address the same "good old days" delusion reasonably.
Within one game, it managed to say much more inspirationally than what Nasuverse is failing to say up till this point.
(good argument there unlike the Nasuverse going around with it as a foundation,which will screw with it trying to break that argument in the end,because....in the end,you still needed the power of the past to beat the past.)

https://forums.animesuki.com/showpost.php?p=6326355&postcount=4601

I will not fight what things are now today.There was no point. Not how much better the past was. Or how sucky the present is compared to back then.
The only right course of action now is to take the course that fits me best now. If it looks like things are never going to work there,then it was time to drop it.I only wish i didnt have to pay the price to learn when something was a bad choice.
rtys8 Nov 30, 2018 8:57 PM
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Video_game_monetization

Back at the start of 2014, i was already suffering bad from the onslaught of DLC and had no way of actually countering that tactic.
Who knew i was jumping out of the frying pan into the fires of gacha, or loot box, as they would call it later.

But several years later now,i did somewhat get what i wished for, a way to counter DLC. But it isn't viable. Fleeing from the problem was the solution in a way,yet not the real solution.

The problem with DLC:
1.As a somewhat Games as a service approach,it takes too long to wait for the "Ultimate/Gold" comprehensive all in one Edition of the game compared to Expansion Packs.While i could effectively expect the Ultimate/Gold edition of a game within 1-2 years at most,this is not the case for DLC.

What happens if there is NO Ultimate/Gold all in one Edition like the Mass Effect series? Till this year, i have yet to see any all in one for that trilogy.
Or
What happens if the DLC spam is so bad it spans literally years? The new game package i got,Borderlands Handsome Collection,which i am playing Borderlands 2 of,frightens me when i think back about why i did not buy it in it's debut back in the day.
Aside from it's prequel not being so polished,in hindsight, i am glad i did not subscribe to that back in it's day. It's DLC spam literally spanned until 2014.
Two freaking years!

This utterly reminds me of why i quit Monster Hunter World despite this being a lesser version of this psychology tactic.
I just want a one and done comprehensive experience, not dripfeed like an addict looking for his next fix.

Thankfully i was lucky those 2 years in gacha hell,finally are paying off recently with all these discounts and ability to avoid flops that i got the Handsome Collection for $16.87 which includes not only all DLC, but also the PreSequel and it's DLC as well.

2. Compared to Expansions, most cases of DLC are not worth the money,content wise, nuff said.

But the problem still remains,DLC,Microtransactions,Season Passes,Preordering,Early Access,Crappy PC Port and Loot Boxes have polluted the AAA PC gaming space.

And i have no real effective tactic outside of outlasting their politics to have a safe product to play.
rtys8 Nov 27, 2018 7:57 AM
New data has come in from finishing Sunset Overdrive.....

How did things become like this? I actually finally got what i wanted in a way,but the impact seems to be less than before?

The goal is to keep things simple, yet having fun.
Was the idea of stopgap game wrong from the entire beginning even as a temporary measure? I just get this feeling even if i went back all the way to the glorious days of when i had my X360, i might not actually have needed such things even then.

It's one thing not having the time or hardware like my dota mate who's in the army now and thus somewhat is not able to commit to a AAA experience,but now the situation is that after so long and hard i managed to somewhat jump over that massive hardware curve.
Those days are behind me now.I no longer have an excuse to take these up.

The ONLY real reason i even went to those sort of things then was because i had no other choice available then.
Things as they now, in retropective, i feel it's actually good.Not ideal,but it will do.I prefer having at least just 1-2 in the chamber.It doesnt have to be actually new titles from this year.

Of course, if i dont have any stopgap measures, i will inevitably run into the same problem of being too bored in between quality AAA titles.
Balance is the key. But maybe i should just do something else instead of hoping for the next dopamine hit. Dont expect it at all. The problem wasn't that i had to wait too long in between titles.It was that i had nothing else to do between them.

Maybe i want to be surprised.I didn't expect Sunset Overdrive, after all. It was a pleasant one.
If this lessened impact is any indication, it's clear i am overinvolved, like overdosed and overthinking it.

However, like i advised to my dota mate,we still at heart would want to keep up with things to a certain extent. Why so spend on hardware if you aren't going to at least enjoy some "alpha strike" advantages,if we could afford it?
Note how i never really felt i want to go back to emulation of the past console generation after i did it way earlier in my youth. We can't play all the games in this world,why bother with things that are dated and past?

After all those years where i suffered at the rising monetization trends, i did get what i wish for in a way.
The solution to beat DLC,Expansion Packs,Season Passes,Console exclusivity,Early Accesses,Overpricing,etc is to use an advantage these recent generations has: Steam Sales/ Game Deals.

Only time and Hindsight can truly strip away the smoke and mirrors and leave it clear what is worth the personal effort and time and what isnt.
So it's time to take advantage of this and understand this is the only true way to avoiding all that bullshit.

While it's still not yet 100% clear to me what kind of new title would have me wanting to pay full $60+ price like in the old days upon it's newly launch,in this climate, I dont know if that is applicable anymore.
rtys8 Nov 25, 2018 7:26 AM
Honestly, even getting Sunset Overdrive and feeling like this proves my point. As long the situation and my expectations in pc gaming don't match, nothing works.
I finally have what i want,even if it's just one title and having a similar result to last year. However, despite having it, i feel satisfied,yet unsatisfied.

Somehow it's not as simple as ignoring all the shit politics going on in the game industry. Even if i have what i want, i still will have to put in way too much effort to find it.

Finding something i would like to personally play is just too hard compared to before nowadays. I have done about like 4 years of surveying and consideration at this point.

1.It's too expensive. Even the $60 asking price.....it just feels there arent as many titles out there actually worth that amount. Besides, why bother when it will be discounted later if i was just patient enough?
I was happy and content to pay like $30 for Sunset Overdrive pc launch (somewhat a gamble.but luckily i knew this was including all the DLC at this price).
But how many new good buys can you get like that nowadays?

2.Stupid industry politics or odd design principles mucking up the experience mechanically.
Sorry, had enough of salt from difficulty in life and from fake online service games.

3.Triple A. Nuff said. While there are times i am open to lower titles,but again, i did not go through all that development and effort just to go back to lower ended graphics.

https://www.reddit.com/r/truegaming/comments/9w7h2j/aaa_gaming_isnt_for_me_anymore_lately_what_about/?sort=new

I realize, it's a "foolish chase of the dragon",but looking at my friend having to resort to Dota 2 because he is in the army. I want to leave those cheapass days behind.I worked hard to get the bucks and timing for something better.I deserve better than having to resort to such lower activities to have fun.

But, to put it in words? This generation for PC is utterly disappointing. Not as many great buys as i would have wanted. And the worst part is that it looks like it will continue until hopefully the start of a new generation might reset the status quo.

Put it simply: It didnt matter how many titles i have,or whether i have one in the chamber right now. What i want is a better environment to play in.
I never would feel this cautious when looking for a weekend movie. I dont even have to CARE how good the movie is because i know even in the worst case, i just sleep through it or just see it without much objection at all.

All this caution for traps and manipulations, it's tiring me out.
I hate it.Things didn't use to be this complicated.I already tried fleeing from the situation in 2014. And it did not improve,never mind the fact it costed me to use that tactics.

And my ideal expectations were like those of blockbuster films. Like 2-3 new ones per every season.
Now the rate? It's 1-2 new ones per year. Sure, i could live with it,but i am not satisfied in the long term.
It doesn't feel like it actually justified my passionate motivation to personally participate in the gaming experience,of which the reason i bought a high end machine specifically for, over a console.

At this point, it just feels it isnt worth it. This isn't about the usual depression that i'll have nothing else to play once i finish the game. It's all about how much trouble it took to get it nowadays.

I admit,maybe it's too much effort.Maybe it's not worth that passion after all this time. But am i not allowed to have at least some expectation for excitement to get through the days?
rtys8 Nov 11, 2018 7:53 AM
Now, thinking back.....why was Fate Hollow Ataraxia actually disappointing compared to Kagetsu Tohya?

It's not just the time it took before it was finally translated and voice ported,that contributed,yes,but i feel it's somewhat the fact.....it's because it didn't exist in a vacuum. Knowing beforehand all that we loved of the franchise by that point would have had no meaning or significance in the future.

It's also the fact it's plot was just too convoluted compared to Kagetsu Tohya. It took several findings and speculations to make sense of what was going on finally.

Yes,i know it's all a dream and that these are just fanservice and extra elements because it's a fandisk.
But,the problem is that sense of disjointedness.
Shiki proceeds to come back to reality and form a contract with Len,bringing her into his life, which has no issue no matter what route it was.
However.....Bazett's journey has her return to reality and have her haggle after Lancer anyway with Caren.

Don't get me wrong.I am not chasing after nitpicking plot holes or lore or story details.It's the moral feeling the stories left me. Taking Nasu's word on what F/HA is supposed to be also is legit,but again, it's what feeling the story left us with.

This is why Dies Irae works and Fate doesn't. The original Fate Stay Night left us on a note all 3 routes......or how about F/HA's ending card itself.

Things would have been nice if the story ended there.
How did the Rea route end? With Ren and Rea meeting once again in the new continuity,no more signs of any of the otherworldly supernatural stuff.
You fought hard and well,welcome back to normal reality.

For a "The Fantasy has to end" note,F/HA contradicted's the moral ending it's card was imparting with that last scene.

And dont get me started on the it's not canon bullshit excuse.It's a shitty feeling to be taken on a ride to have the rug pulled on you like that.
Was this where all it started? I may have been too foolish to not realize it.

That is why i feel the Masadaverse is better than the Nasuverse. It leaves a clear cut feeling between ending the tale as complete and standalone on it's own,while leaving the door open to an expanded universe to be explored if one so wishes.
rtys8 Nov 7, 2018 4:14 AM
Ok. As Dies Irae.....Pantheon shows, this is the exactly same shitty feeling i feel when i went into Fate Grand Order expecting something like Fate Stay Night again. Hollow/Ataraxia was passable as it's own thing after reframing the situation like this.

Hollow/Ataraxia should have been treated as like Kajiri Kamui Kagura or Interview with Kaziklu Bey. A spinoff that was never intended to be as good as the original.

But as i have learned.....You dont really need to view or take everything apart from the originals seriously. No one, apart from Marvel MCU has managed enthrall me as much to the entire journey satisfyingly throughout to that extent even with their spinoffs.

It's really much so of the spinoffs and sequels not living up to the original in this case.

It's not really just a failure of research on my part, it's franchise direction.
Just look at the Dies Irae Pantheon. What does it,Fate Grand Order and somewhat post Decade Kamen Rider have in common that makes it feel so shitty?

It's going outward in a wild direction totally contrary and contrasting from what made the original so good. They used to be focused,personal and COMPLETE stories.

That's just not how you "do the Avengers". Just like this.
https://kotaku.com/j-k-rowling-needs-to-stop-messing-with-harry-potter-1829503693

It's an impending disaster. Too many cooks spoilt the broth.
And i was so dumb not to realise sooner the moment they did those repetitive designs in Fate/Extra. Nasu is out of ideas. And so is Dies Irae/Masada.

Additionally, my mistake was also not understanding what aspects i liked before it was too late to not fall for the trap that came later on.

Think about it. When i saw all those Throne Gods coming in,the first feeling i had was: This stuff does not belong in the story that Dies Irae is about.
I can respect to a certain degree that it might be trying to do better than what Fate/Stay Night did, instead of leaving old fans too disconnected and probably actually leading the cast to the "future".

What point is there knowing about all the past Throne Gods in the context of the original Dies Irae story? In this respect, i actually felt it was a good thing the original story of Fate Stay Night did not explain too much more than what it need to be, save for the shadow that was cast by Heaven's Feel on Fate and UBW.

Dies Irae is better than Fate Stay Night in this regard as not only it ended the entire affair once and for all,but also in a fashion that said: The Fantasy has to end here.

And I would gladly put it down satisfyingly. And I would not crave Kajiri Kamui Kagura or Interview with Kaziklu Bey because there was no remaining questions i would have wanted to ask about. Any more would be just a bonus.
rtys8 Oct 11, 2018 8:26 AM
I still find that i want to go back to cheap thrills like Dota.

Somehow this has me thinking about the issue in a new light. It's not just that's there's too much junk.....It's really that the good stuff.....isnt so good as it used to be or as it looks?

It's saying something when the only thing i consider to be great is West of Loathing this few years.
How to put it? Right now, Deus Ex, like many other of the games ive played, gives this feeling.

https://www.rockpapershotgun.com/2018/10/11/everything-thats-wrong-with-assassins-creed-odyssey/

West of Loathing was the only game out of all these years since 2014,this generation,to making me feel my time was well spent in a satisfying manner.
There were some goods,i am grateful,but the harvest and the outlook this time is dissapointing.

I understand maybe i might be putting too much thought into it,but....it's too strange.
I can't seem to replicate the healthy casual interest i have for my local tv here with PC gaming nowadays.
It's ether at around several extremes. Ether Indifference uncaringly dropping it later,Too addictively absorbing and commitment or somewhere in between that isnt clearly defined.

Deus Ex isn't on the addictively absorbing end,but the feeling i have for it feels too little for me to want to focus on it like i did with West of Loathing?
Monster Hunter World on hindsight,while i did get my value for money, did not feel satisfying at the end.

A scenario where i know everything roughly about the game i have good enough control how it will play out,yet knowing everything will not dimmish the experience at all.
An oxymoron of wanting a surprise despite knowing already before what it pretty much will be.

Towards that end, do i even want the Hype of a Surprise? Definitely Not required that much for me to feel satisfied.
Because i am tired of trying to weed out the chaff from entertainment and spending time,money and effort that i dont necessarily need to if i just decided to wait it out till All the Hype and Politics are Over.

But this Hanging Back Patiently method has huge problems.Two i did not forsee. One of which is a Title Drought In Spite of Waiting out the Hype.
The other would be.....i have to Hide Somewhere in the Interim,which led me to unsavory places and wasting time on cheap thrills.

But what other options were there?
It's just way too hard to find PC games that i actually love to play.
rtys8 Oct 7, 2018 10:06 AM
Hmm, bought the 2 new Deux Ex games for $7.

According to my theory of the trinity of Adversarial,Deduction and Creative, i feel the best scenario is having 3 games that are vastly different from each other in this sense.

Adversarial - I want a challenge/to explore.
Deduction - I want to solve something.
Creative -I want to express/create something.

I feel my desire for Excitement can only be properly quelled with a proper Adversarial game made for it. Dota 2 is just a temporary placeholder at best.
I considered Monster Hunter World,but it's just too rigged and as usual, japanese in the sense i cannot fully control it.

Just like how Supreme with Cheese was the placeholder for Deduction. Now with Deus Ex games for my Deduction desires, i dont feel i need it.
Creative has PC Building Simulator now,but i just dont feel like creating stuff right now as long i still dont have a proper Adversarial game.

See now? There's seriously a lack of variety and ease of finding games i want to play nowadays. I cannot say with confidence i can always find something whenever i want,at the time and price i want it and without strings attached. It's too complicated.

Of course, i am thinking whether i can suppress the desire for Excitement/Adversarial by juggling Deus Ex games with PC Building Simulator.Lets hope it works,so i can not need to worry for a long while,since it doesnt look like i cant easily find what i want out of games nowadays.
Why is it that things in PC games seem so abundant compared to before, yet so hard to find something i like now?
rtys8 Oct 4, 2018 9:09 PM
Fine, maybe i can put the desire for some excitement down as long i get it eventually. It's not like the game industry is actually dead,so i'll get it eventually.

However.....lets look back on why i then take up such temporary measure games in spite of knowing their potential costs and harm.
Is it that i want to waste time away so badly, or is it that i want to do something else to deal with boredom? Relaxation was too unspecific a word.

It boils down to ether Excitement or Contrast.

Ideally, i would have not even need to go low in the first place. But reality ensures. Eventually i will have to go low because i can't constantly keep up in hardware.

But...........what if i dont have to need such things for Relaxation, if all i wanted if just a Contrast from the till and toil in life? I could do something else entirely.
rtys8 Oct 3, 2018 11:21 AM
How long has it been? A year and now i am free and have atoned of for that stuff.

Now, back on the whole lack of AAA PC games issue that forced me to go so low into gambling in these mobages.

1.It's not me being too jaded.

I know what jaded is from what i feel about anime/manga/LN/VNs/Toku.
It is that feeling when you have seen them all and i dont have that.I am still interested. I still look forward to something worth delving into. The drive is still there. I am not satisfied yet. For the past year,i have been craving for a new freshly released AAA title on the PC i could buy and enjoy satisfyingly without fear of being scammed by politics.

For the past 4 years, i had to go so low because for some reason since 2014,it was ridiculously difficult to just find anything AAA on PC worth playing.

If i were to compare it to movies, just imagine there being nothing at all worth watching for an entire year.
Yes, i am aware entertainment is a luxury. But i had the finances and time for it. So why isnt there supply for my demands?

I investigated all these years while i had to lay low and i still dont seem to understand.
It's one thing to expect too much like a new Star Wars,DCcomics or MCU once every few months to a year.
It's another to not have other studios putting out something within the big boys downtime.

I am very satisfied with waiting out until the next installment of the big studios. But of course,certainly in the years where they are in downtime,there should be something from the small-medium studios that's worth my attention?

But why does nothing out there seem to catch my attention despite being claims of there being more games than in the past?

Lets see what i see now in PC space:
A.Too low teched graphics
B.Unfinished or Dead Ended
C:Uninspired Story
D:Uninnovative Gameplay
E:Early Access/Pre order/Season Pass/DLC/Microstransaction/Poor PC port/Gaming politics
F:Specially made clunky difficult Nintendo Hard trolling Gameplay

It suddenly becomes ridiculously difficult to find anything i deem worthy of my time. And all i wanted was some excitement like once every few months,like how i do for movies.I dont need a movie every month.

What pisses me off still...is that i dont have much clues to what the games companies are doing now.
I can rest assured that Disney/Universal studios are working hard on further installments or new movies from other smaller studios to fill up the gaps inbetween.

Japanese game companies like Square Enix,Nintendo,Sony,Capcom,Bandai Namco and Sega are supposed to a wildcard,not the staple norm.

Bethesda is the only one i can follow to any clear degree that still makes the type of games i want.
EA is making tons of scummy garbage.
Activision Blizzard is what? Just Overwatch? Destiny? Those treadmill competitive scam games?
Ubisoft may be coming back to life regarding Assassin's Creed, i'll give it that,but that game series for me had no point once there wasnt much of main plot.

Lets just face it,the very fact i had to do such further in depth investigations is proof enough it's ridiculously difficult for me to "find a movie worth watching to satisfy my quarterly cravings."


2. It is not a dependency,thus not an addiction.

In a nutshell.....where's have all "Star Wars and MCU films" of the game industry gone? Was Mass Effect the last of the epics?
All i wanted was like a quarterly/half yearly excitement and it's been missing since 2014 in PC gaming. If i wanted to watch a playthrough, i would have. I do not desire passive watching. I want action and engagement.The feeling of progress.

3.Should have just bought a PS4 and just be done with it from the very start at 2014.

I just wish i knew that PS4 was going to be the winner of the console war.
But i had just came out of although somewhat decent experience of my XBOX360, i did not want to have to repeat the disadvantages of gaming on a console again.
PC is where i can still control the reliability of my machine. I was very lucky that my XBOX360 broke down just nicely in time as Windows 7 was out back then.
But i can't be certain it would have been able to last as long as i want it for.
Sending a console machine for inevitable repairs usually takes a while and that would defeat the purpose of having it in the first place. I can't have full leisure as when i want if my machine's reliability is under the manufacturer's control.

I should really give thanks and be grateful for my current GTX 970 pc which is still managing well until thus far.Even if it breaks down, i can repair or replace it easier than a console machine.


rtys8 Sep 6, 2017 8:20 PM
.....Alright, the whole me being rushed and not thinking as rationally as i could in FGO is a somewhat sign i am actually not in that much of a mood to really play the game.....Or, it's actually losing it's effect on me.Or it's a sign of just how sick i am of dealing with this psychological warfare.

Still grateful ultimately that i managed to salvage an SSR out of the seemingly reckless gamble here.Thank God, i actually might not need to even want to roll even a random guaranteed gacha,with almost all but two of the main classes i have

However, in return, i effectively more or less forfeit anymore new lucrative SSRs for at least the next few months.

In some sense, i am kind of tired out of constantly playing this game of psychological warfare. I just didn't want to bother about gacha matters again for a very very long time.

It's not the smart thing to do in the game, but it's at least the right thing to do for myself.

Does that mean actually i am not that satisfied with getting what i want? No.

Frankly, this is the borderline limit of the nature of a stopgap game is and i have to come to terms with it.

Because it's meant to make money and not truly for fun.
Thus, the only logical way i could ever get the fun out of such a scam of a game was that i never truly wanted to take it that seriously to begin with.
The only reason why i play it to begin with was that it was very effective as a time waster to begin with, when i have nothing on the PC, or no time to be on the pc.

That was how it always had been and was for me.
Simply a pastime, of a pastime.A Substitute.

It's kind of a sad thing that i could not get free time or have the games i want to play on the pc,be it back then, or now.

In some sense, i still feel i should thank god for this, though. I now understand.....Kancolle, wasn't the huge betrayal to our ideals as a gamer as i believed it to be.

It was just really due to circumstances that i ended up with such lower grades of games.
Yes, maybe i could have not wasted so much money and time more than i calculated on it,but, maybe it's simply needed in the big scheme of things ahead in a sense i dont understand yet.

It....is still a fact that the gaming industry is still in a downfall, a bubble that has to burst. While i would now want to spend more time on the PC,with an actual backlog of games to play now compared to how it was with Kancolle, but the amount of time i have on it compared to then is much lesser.

I still need it to hold me out until it sorts out it's kinks so that things arent a mess now.
Playing the psychological mind game with mainstream gaming against the now scummy business models of games today never actually worked out for me.

Compared to what's in a mobage, that's the worser thing. Ether i have something to play,or totally nothing at all.
In F/GO, now, at the very worse, i dont get what i want from the gacha, i still have something to play through the days.
While it would be nice to get servants i want, i'm not that dependent on it now.

I estimate around 2-5 years for things to get better.
If it still doesnt work out by then,new plan.
rtys8 Sep 6, 2017 10:08 AM
I.....made the sort of unwise choice spending the remaining savings on the latest Nero fest redux gacha, when i no longer actually need to anymore for the rest of my time in the game.

Was it a good spending or not? Maybe,maybe not.

What was clear is that,like the CCC gacha for Kiara back then....i had reached a certain threshold. I just didn't want to play the whole psychological mindgame with the game's design any longer and actually make the game work for me.
It's not so simple as a lack of restraint.
Remember that this is a stopgap activity i never truly intended to take 100% seriously, even with my gaming persona on.
It's only meant for those moments where and when i cannot for whatsoever reason be on the real games on my pc.

Right now, as it is.....i lack the time, the chance to be able to consume the games i actually want.
But unlike my bad friend there in Kancolle....i have no intention of actually letting my experience be wasted time in paranoia and useless waiting.

Same here. Perhaps it's a cycle, somewhat.
But i'll like to think of it this way. God has finally graced me with the final SSR i would need to comfortably enjoy the rest of my days in this game with.
It would be rude of me not to repay those gains and gifts with appreciation.

Maybe back then it wasn't applicable with Kancolle,or things simply had escalated too far by that point, which also was dependent on the game's intention.
Yes, this is the true redemption of myself of what i should have done in Kancolle.
I should savor my victories and free myself of all obligations,especially after a long tiring battle.

Find fun and joy, even in these kinds of games. I fought long and hard and finally won. I deserve a pat on the back.
rtys8 Sep 2, 2017 9:22 AM
I broke my said threshold of 300 quartz, however......I WON. Finally, i am free from truly needing to roll anything in the gacha at all.
From now on, FGO gacha no longer truly needs to be stressed over anymore for me..

141 quartz left.Of course, i still hope i get Semiramis if she does come to the game.
rtys8 Sep 2, 2017 7:45 AM
Alright, I am grateful, despite my loss against the super tough Rider enemy Gugalanna, that, i managed to beat Agartha,that i didn't need a 5* Assassin to beat, after all.

For that, i am truly grateful and confidence restored.
However, that does not mean the my Assassins being weak problem has vanished. I hate to admit it,but it is still a fact i have literally only 1 Gold Assassin.

This time, however, i am just content to try at the so called bait class-based summoning campaign a few times.
Ether to solve the Silver Assassin who i have not yet NP5, it's an opportunity i wont really have until god knows when.
I know, it's a risk, essentially,but i have sensibly projected what could possibly happen in the near future after this.

September 6/13 to 19/26? -EOR 3?/New Event?/Strengthening?/Other Campaign?/Hallmark?
September 26? to October 11? -Nerolympics?
October 12? to 19? Halloween 2016 rerun?
October 19? to 2 November Halloween 2017

At the very least, i do not see myself being able to do much of summoning within the next two months,save this time and possibly the Halloween 2016 rerun?
Even then, between this Class based and the Halloween 2016 one, it's more productive to roll for the current class based one,cause even the waste products are arguably more beneficial to me than the Halloween 2016 waste products because of the class filter, at least.

I might try for Halloween 2016,but, probably not as much as this. Cleopatra showed me the first time we met, we probably arent fated to be actually.
Pretty much, my threshold is always back to 300 quartz until the fated one i deemed 100% worth rolling everything for.
Currently, 383 quartz and 29 tickets.

As much as i want to ignore this, it's still a fact that i need to try to resolve the weak Assassin issue in any way i can, at least sensibly. Because of the fact the odds of the gacha in general, that no matter how much the number of resources poured at it, it could end up all meaningless......

It was a choice between one huge potential disappointment, or splitting that potential pain in bursts. The longer the build up, the more painful the potential disappointment if the gamble fails.
I may well do it for my own sake of protecting my own mental health. After all,if i am truly fated to have it, something this small wouldn't actually truly matter.
rtys8 Aug 31, 2017 12:01 PM
Hey, this is the new place where i settle my mobage life.

Looking at how long things have been, nostalgic,isnt it?
Currently playing FGO.
Hoping to solve the last of my in game needs of gold Assassins, but as of now, given the state of the game,Assassin class servants are in a horrible state, given the is only one unlimited 5* Assassin as of this time.

So, unfortunately, while i would want to roll for the class gacha that's running about now, it doesn't make sense to do now, compared to the last time i did it.
I am depleted in terms of QP in spite of restocking materials,even if i had the 5* Assassin, i would not have the resources to raise him/her now.
Also, back then, my roster was pathetically small. Now it's different.

I know that i just got pretty much stomped by Gugalanna, the worst nightmarish Rider foe ive ever seen,which i had to waste a Quartz to beat him.
No matter how i saw it, i was not in the state to be able to beat that, in game or mentally. I know pretty much in some sense i need one. But the time just doesn't look right yet.

The new arrival SSR i just got presumably to resist situations like these arguably isn't ready yet for those kinds of battles. It just wasn't something i can win against without costing myself yet.

As much as it looks tempting to roll on that class gacha, it just doesn't seem like that's the solution to the problem,not with all those other Extra Classes clustered together with it. I need something more specific.

But honestly, i dont know when the right time is. But if my hunch,going by the sign of the new arrival SSR,i must wait until the time is truly right.
I can roll for Class Gacha anytime, they pop up rather uncommonly,they will be run every now and then for fillers.
5* Assassins that aren't limited, however....are the harder part. Unlike my old friend, i have no intention of letting this issue drag down the entire experience of my gameplay here.

This is a problem nothing but a specific time and solution can solve, not a general one. I can't do shit about it now, that's what i know.
I only pray that choosing to avoid the class gacha this time is the right choice.
It may be a long wait, given it very likely as usual the new story chapter SSRs dont affect me as long they are non Assassins,thus it would be a long while before i get any opportunity to roll again. As much as i want to relieve myself.....there's not that much an opportunity to for this specific issue.
It’s time to ditch the text file.
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