Oct 23, 2010 10:33 AM
Important, if your a friend.
Well... I thought it would be smart to start my blog on this iste.
Lets start with the morning. I had a offil night mare, of soulmaiden breaking up with me. I was horified, and left her a comment about it. I changed my mind in the first ahour of after I told her and eraced it. later that day, I told her any ways...
I got to school, and every thing was fine. I whent to pass, and found out today was going to be boring as hell. So I decided to get on mal at school, and find out what every one was up to.
The rest of the day flew by fast, in antisipation of talking to soulmaiden15. How ever, I turned out to talk to italylovesposta a bit more. I went on a walk with a friend and when I returned... I found a message...
It just stated a relation wasn't best at the moment... I was devistated for the first few hours. I thought about it, and relized that All I cared about was if she was happy, if she could be happy, then I could.
I made a promis to myself, I need to back off every one, put my mental shields up, and retreat from relationships again.
This is one-hundred percent my own dessision, and is not soulmaiden's falt at all. I will be lurking in the coments of my favorite clubs, and participate a bit, but not as much... until I have my shields back up between my emotions and the world.
thanks for under standing all of you ^^
ender95
p.s. Even though soul and I are no longer dating, I will become unrashanaly pissed if any of you hurt her an any way.
Lets start with the morning. I had a offil night mare, of soulmaiden breaking up with me. I was horified, and left her a comment about it. I changed my mind in the first ahour of after I told her and eraced it. later that day, I told her any ways...
I got to school, and every thing was fine. I whent to pass, and found out today was going to be boring as hell. So I decided to get on mal at school, and find out what every one was up to.
The rest of the day flew by fast, in antisipation of talking to soulmaiden15. How ever, I turned out to talk to italylovesposta a bit more. I went on a walk with a friend and when I returned... I found a message...
It just stated a relation wasn't best at the moment... I was devistated for the first few hours. I thought about it, and relized that All I cared about was if she was happy, if she could be happy, then I could.
I made a promis to myself, I need to back off every one, put my mental shields up, and retreat from relationships again.
This is one-hundred percent my own dessision, and is not soulmaiden's falt at all. I will be lurking in the coments of my favorite clubs, and participate a bit, but not as much... until I have my shields back up between my emotions and the world.
thanks for under standing all of you ^^
ender95
p.s. Even though soul and I are no longer dating, I will become unrashanaly pissed if any of you hurt her an any way.
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ender95
| Oct 23, 2010 10:33 AM |
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Mymaknaepuppy | Dec 24, 2010 2:52 AM
aww.. so sweet :D I'll be acting as ur Nee-san ryt about now..hahaha
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Nina_Chan | Dec 23, 2010 4:53 PM
wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. you're dedicated dude!!!!
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ender95 | Dec 5, 2010 5:08 PM
:3 thanks life ^^
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red_moons | Dec 3, 2010 4:58 PM
awww i think
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dark_seducer | Nov 25, 2010 2:23 PM
En........ U block me out and ima hunt u down, kill u, then bring u bak to life just to hug u and tell u that everythings gonna be okay
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ender95 | Oct 24, 2010 6:24 PM
really, I ment the part it isn;t her fault. (sean, if you reread you will under stand this coment... <.< )
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