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Evangelion 3.0 Review in Progress (indefinitely postponed/limbo) (Still sadly a NEET) (I'm not sure I can do this anymore)
Title and warning notification prototypes complete.(2/23)
Reference Guide Complete (2/24)
Commentary Posts Complete (2/25)
Franchise Rewatch Commencing (2/26)
Title version 2 complete (2/26)
I can do this (2/26)
Episode 1 and 2 analysis complete (2/26)
Episode 3 and 4 analysis complete (2/26)
Episode 5 and 6 analysis complete (2/27)
Episode 7 and 8 analysis complete (2/27)
Episode 9 and 10 analysis complete (2/28)
Episode 11-16 analysis complete (2/28)
Episode 17-26 + EoE analysis complete (3/2)
Shiki Jitsu analysis complete (3/3)
Rebuild 1-3 analysis complete (3/3)
Review Commencing (3/3)
I can do this (3/3)
Therapy and Psychiatry Sessions Complete (3/8)
I can do this (3/8)
A catastrophe has occurred, mental breakdown imminent (3/15)
I'm not sure if I can do this (3/15)
I do not feel qualified to give eva an adequate review, much more studying and practice is in order (3/20)
I need a japanese translator for textbooks immediately (3/20)
Review attempt 2 in concept phase (3/20)
Therapy session complete (3/21)
Sweet jesus FLCLl 2/3 release date confirmed!! (3/24)
Still unemployed (3/25)
Review in limbo (3/28)
Where is uru in blue/aoki uru?? (3/29)
Review back on track (4/2)
I WILL SHOW YOU THROUGH EVANGELION WHAT THE CORE FOUNDATIONS OF STORYTELLING ARE AND WHAT IS INSTRUMENTAL IN SHAPING TANGIBLE, ROBUST, AND ADEPT EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE.(4/4)
Therapy and psychiatry sessions complete (4/4)
FULL METAL PANIC IS BACK! (4/15)
Currently Studying Christopher Kenworthy's MASTER SHOTS Vol.2 Dialogue Scenes (4/15)
Phone Interview Passed, Job Opportunities Arising!!!! (4/15)
Shin Evangelion has officially begun the editing stage (4/17)
2019 Shin Evangelion release anyone???? (4/17)
Sessions Phase 1 Complete, Long May It Last, I leave it up to Eva to do the rest (4/27)
Steins Gate rewatch commencing (4/27)
Today is a day to be remembered, an entirely non-profit organization known as ATAC is dedicated exclusively to the preservation of animation and tokusatsu materials. This memorandum is a godsend!!! (4/28)
Shinichiro Watanabe is back in the game with Carol & Tuesday. (4/29)
Steins Gate rewatch complete (4/29)
Cringeworthy catch 22 fallacy/equivocation fallacies and cryptic pathos allegory trolling FTW. (5/17)
Happy Birthday Hideaki Anno. (5/22)
I HAVE ASPERGER SYNDROME, PLEASE FORGIVE MY INABILITY. I HAVE PTSD, AM A HIGH SCHOOL DROPOUT, PASSED WITH ONLY A GED, TAKE THERAPY, HAVE SCHIZOPHRENIA, AM DISHONORABLY DISCHARGED, AM A RAPIST, HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY, A DEAD MOTHER, CLINICAL DEPRESSION, AND ALSO SELF HATRED. THIS IS THE BEST SOCIAL INTERACTION I CAN DO AT THIS POINT.
It takes more than NERVe to change japan, it takes WILLEpower. THERE'LL BE FANSERVICE ALL THE WAY TO THE END!!!! THE CHANCES OF SUCCESS AREN'T ZERO.
"Now even businessmen are debating the mysteries of "Eva" in bars. (laugh)
Kazuya Tsurumaki - (laugh) For example, Hideaki Anno says that, "Anime fans are too introverted, and need to get out more." Further, he should be happy that non-anime fans are watching his work, right? But when all is said and done, Hideaki Anno's comments on "Evangelion" + "Evangelion" are that it is a message aimed at anime fans including himself, and of course, me too. In other words, it's useless for non-anime fans to watch it. If a person who can already live and communicate normally watches it, they won't learn anything."
"-- But, don't all the people watching "Evangelion" now actually have this type of anime-fan complex? Doesn't everyone share some feelings of uneasiness at not being able to get along with the world.
Kazuya Tsurumaki - Yes, maybe that's so. Hideaki Anno's statements certainly are true when looking at the small circle of anime fans, but stepping back and looking at the much wider circle of Japanese people in general, we may find many of the same types of problems. They're not problems specific to just anime fans."
"In japan today cinema and especially animation, serve as time killing entertainment for those without occupation, like the anime otaku, various otakus, NEET's, and the hikikomori. Or as momentary respite for those who are afraid of pain. Anime is intended for people who are unable to make and hold adequate or appropriate bonds and relationships." Hideaki Anno, Ritual Day, 2000
"Images, especially animation, simply embody our personal and collective fantasies, delusional aspirations, or indefensible and disproportionate forewarnings." Hideaki Anno, Shiki Jitsu, 2000
"The global spread of Japanese animation dramatically expanded due to the popularity of Evangelion. After the success of the show, otaku culture gained wide attention. In Japan, Evangelion prompted a review of the cultural value of anime, and with its success, anime reached a new point of maturity. With the interest in the series, otaku culture became a mass social phenomenon."
"ANIME DIRECTOR MAKOTO SHINKAI DECLARED THAT THE GENRE OF ANIME OWES A CINEMATOGRAPHIC DEBT TO EVANGELION."
The word salaryman is sometimes used with derogatory connotation for his total dependence on his employer and lack of individuality.
Did Eva unit 13 change the anime industry of 2013? I think it did. Terror in resonance, tokyo ghoul, AoT, SNAFU, gatchaman crowds, hero academia, Kizumonogatari, and the Psycho pass film.
KIZUMONOGATARI AND THE REBUILD OF EVANGLEION ARE THE CLOSEST PARALLELS IN ANIME HISTORY. WATCH KIZUMONOGATARI TO UNDERSTAND THE REBUILDS BETTER.
Eva is my mistakes, my immaturity, my bad habits, my insecurities, my worst fears, my personality, my anxiety, my depression, my self hatred, my lack of self confidence, my family cracks, and my lack of willpower. Though it also represents my hope, my determination, my humility, and my ever ongoing struggle to trust and understand all people.
EVANGELION IS A WARNING TO THE SALARYMAN, THE ANIME OTAKU, THE JAPANESE FILM INDUSTRY, AND THE ANIME INDUSTRY AS A WHOLE.
Cure my trauma and social anxiety shinji.
CHECK OUT THE AMV OF 07 OF UNTIL YOU COME TO ME.
The angel is the harbinger of change and progress. The salaryman is the modern imperial japanese soldier and samurai, and the eva pilot is the salaryman personified. Shinji is anime personified. Rei Ayanami is the stagnation of postwar japanese generations personified. NERV represents the modern japanese government. WILLE represents studio khara. SEELE represents the grey generation of japan.
Kaworu is the youth liberal ideals personified.
Anyone care to point out all the parallels between kizumonogatari and eva? For an analysis of this check out my review of kizumonogatari I. Keep in mind that Eva 1.0 came out in sept, 2007 and the kizumonogatari manga started in may, 2008. And yes for me Kizu part III is the closest parallel to what 4.0 might be that I have ever seen by a long shot, so go watch it!
What will be the best major anime film production of 2020? Makoto Shinkai's?, Gainax's Uru in Blue?, Hayao Miyazaki's How Do You Live?, or Evangelion You (Must) Not Run Away????
Which will be more successful? Gainax's ressurection for the root idea for what eva led to or the revision of the final product by anno? Aoki Uru or 3.0 + 1.0?
This time is like none other for us in living memory, long it may last. Take in the feeling of peace, purpose, and harmony. Spirits is high. This time we never had it so good. Tis I'll be here in sunshine or in shadow. Oh shinji boy, oh shinji boy, I love you so. I shall sleep in peace until you come to me. Shinji please come down and look gently and implore me to live so we may see your smiling face once more......., once more. Til the cycle repeats itself for a new chapter of struggles once more. I must not keep running away. Evangelion You Must Not Run Away I'll be waiting for your consultation and refinement till the end of my days if I have to. Til we meet again in 2020 shinji kun.
Will Mamoru Hosoda's mirai of the future and flcl 2 manage to stop making me spoiled? Anno hurry up, you have some serious contenders. I need You Must (Not) Runaway's advice, what will the human instrumentality project have in store for us this time???? What on earth is the entirely new conclusion!!!!
Hideaki Anno, Kazuya Tsurumaki, Shiro Sagisu, Yoshiyuki Sadamoto, Takeshi Honda, and Megumi Ogata are all gods reincarnate.
I AM GAKI SHINJI. I AM THE ONION.
Why are there multiple rei's in 3.0???? Til the conlusion!!!!
Evangelion is the ultimate guide to emotional intelligence. It is a perfect biopsy of depression, self hatred, and even PTSD. Eva is a tale of postwar malpractice and misaligned traditions and stigmas. It is a tale of the dark shadow that still pervades the anime industry and the otaku culture and lifestyle. Eva is a continuation and IMO an improvement on the tomino gundam legacy. It's the penultimate tale of bonds. An analysis of the emotional foundations of civilization. It's also a warning against all the shortcomings and barriers of the human condition.
Working Review Titles
The classic eras climaxes
All you watch is shonen anime
The pilot's tale
The Peritraumatic dissasocitaion testbed
The generational PTSD paradox
The never ending necessity of talking to animals v2
The Tomino legacy revamped
It takes more than NERVe, it takes WILLEpower
The glory of Bluedom v2
The rice paper ceiling
Honorifics
Gainax's golden boy ameliorated
The limits of allegory and artistic triumph
Anime's forlorn and unfortunate thesis
The duality of restriction
Red is the ego barriers weakest state
The inversion of reality and fiction
The monster's rancor
The fourth wall
The wretched and woebegone understatement
My Story, Wrath, and Acrimony
Reference Guide/Tools Used: Sapiens: A Brief History of Mankind, Farm From the Tree, Noonday Demon, The Body Keeps The Score, The Evil Hours, Micheal Wiese Productions, Story Genius, Wired For Story, The Writer's Journey, Cinematography: Theory and Practice, Cinematic Storytelling, The Essential Evangelion Chronicles A and B, Der Mond, Rebuild of Evangelion Storyboard Books, Rebuild of Evangelion Complete Records Deluxe Collector's Art Book Box Edition, Neon Genesis Evangelion TV Animation 2015 Edition Official Art Book, Groundworks of Evangelion: 3.0 You Can (Not) Redo Art Books, Gojira: The Original Japanese Masterpiece DVD, Godzilla 1954 Criterion Collection, SHIN GODZILLA japanese special edition blu ray set, Khara 10th anniversary booklet, Godzilla vs Eva Symphony CD, The Art of Shin Godzilla art works book, and MASTER SHOT.
My 2018 lineup
Tokyo Ghoul S3
FLCL 2
Full Metal Panic! 4
Hero Academia S3
Galactic Heroes Reboot
Darling in the Franxx
Violet Evergarden
SSS Gridman
Zoku Owarimonogatari
AoT S3
Steins;Gate 0
My 2018 anime film lineup
Mary and the Witch's Flower
Fireworks, Should We See It from the Side or the Bottom?
Chuunibyou: Take On Me
Liz and the Blue Bird
Sound Euphonium Finale
My guide for anime beginners
Recommended shows
Tatami Galaxy
Ping Pong
Madoka Magica
Monogatari Franchise
Kizumonogatari Trilogy
Evangelion
FLCL
Bartender
Utena
Shirobako
Kino no Tabi
Shinsekai Yori
Shiki
Mushishi
Fate/Zero
Usagi Drop
Paranoia Agent
Tokyo Ghoul
Barakamon
Legend of the Galactic Heroes
Dragon Dentist
Gatchaman
Eden of The East
Psycho Pass
Ghost in the Shell
Clannad
Hibike Euphonium
Hyouka
Aku no Hana
Haibannei Renmei
Texnolyze
UC Gundam
Cowboy Bebop
Serial Experiments Lain
Zankyou no Terror
Yahari SNAFU
Watamote
Usagi Drop
Welcome to the NHK
Seven Deadly Sins
Gunbuster/Diebuster
Casshern Sins
Rahxephon
Death Parade
Re:Creators
A Silent Voice
Rahxephon
Wolf's Rain
Sakura Quest
Texnolyze
Anime Production Studios to Look Out For
Khara
Chizu
I.G.
Shaft
Trigger
Gainax
Kyoto Animation
P.A. Works
Tatsunoko Productions
Madhouse
Bones
Ufotable
J.C. Staff
MAPPA
Sunrise
TROYCA
A-1 Pictures
Rikka
Science Saru
WIT
Kinema Citrus
Public suicide, permanent mental breakdown, or long term counseling? Which will happen first?
I'm not nearly stable enough to know that just yet. Hopefully this won't worsen my problems beyond repair. Please leave me alone before you start doing more harm than good.
I get that this is all still entirely self-inflicted. I realize this situation is the dream that should never have happened. One that'll never help anyone. I'll just have to let professional help work through the rest.
I don't want to die or have to burden outsiders any further. All because of my arrogance, naivety, and inner problems. If this goes on I'll either go over the edge or progress will be much more painful than it was for me before I started this.
Part 2
If all my problems that caused all this were only what you needed them to be, then I wouldn't still be suffering and struggling from this for over a year.
If I were to give you exactly what you want then I worry that would cause more damage for me than anything you've tried to ruin my life with till now.
I can't ever give you what you're trying to force out of me because I still don't believe that it's the whole truth. My internal issues are far deeper than just being summed up as naive, egotistical or whatever else.
So I'm left with feeling that there's only one choice I can trust in actually working through them. Not just simply apologizing for them without understanding why they happen. So I'm sorry but you won't be getting what you're willing to trying to force from me.
I can't and won't do it if saying it will only be an excuse to run away from the parts of me I've agonized constantly over but yet still don't really understand any better. Not without a long term solution and being able to be more trustful, and less fearful, of others.
Otherwise I'd rather kill myself where I can hurt you the most. I'll just hope that professional help can save me before that. Don't pressure me into that trap sole for your justice. I'll do my best to be honest with the problems I've always had instead if I can survive this.
My lifelong problems aren't ever going to get any better from this and you have to know that. Otherwise you're only bothering to care about part of the whole problem.
I won't give in to that even if it puts me in prison. Whether it's a strategy or just everyone only looking for partial truths. Please don't resort to that kind of extreme when my life is hanging in the balance over it. Otherwise deal with me in person where you want to the least, or I'll kill myself in front of you to make up for you if I can.
I only want to learn more about what I care about. Even if in the end it accounts for nothing productive other than improving myself. My safety shouldn't be threatened to the breaking point every I do that.
I'm trying to improve and I do think it's doing more good than bad. Directly for myself and eventually indirectly for others. Even if I still communicate very poorly and can't ever express my best intentions properly, or at the right time.
This is not to keep my ego or only to put myself further up a pedestal. I have a lot of deep, lifelong social and relationship problems. All have above else left me much more naive and arrogant than I should ever be at this point.
I still don't know where to look for finding the answers or methods to understand them. Let alone work through or around them. But under these extreme circumstances and with little hope or support left for me. I only have one option that can do any good or that I can feel secure enough trying.
Feel free to tear apart everything and anything that keeps me motivated or safe anywhere and everywhere forever in the meantime. Don't leave me with anywhere to ever return to. If you can find a justification for that anyway.
Am I mentally retarded on some level? Or dimwitted? Just a spoiled, arrogant, little bitch, brat who doesn't know when to give in?
I can live with being remembered only as these labels from all this. But I won't stand for losing my sanity and self worth from your justice like this. I'd rather die. I won't accept your judgment as true or honest.
I'd rather accept any one of those as being probably true. While at the same time still figure out the deepest core long term problems that are far more troubling and make even less sense. Rather than fixate on the few I'm being murdered for online now.
The one's that somehow make me never want to really connect much with anyone that I've always suffered greatly from. The one's that make me utterly afraid of anyone, anywhere, at any time. The one's that make me never be able to overcome my deafening self hatred after all these years.
Bodybuilding and storytelling are the only things that have kept me going this far. Even if for the majority of my life they've only been pure escapism. Now though that's finally changing. I'm okay if they don't really lead me anywhere in particular in and of themselves.
Just please stop tormenting my feelings and opinion's about them. Not to mention all the places I used to care about that revolve around them. Most of which I can probably never go back to no matter what anymore.
Part 3
I am now done with my naive disgraceful bullshit. In many ways I am a fake and really only ended up being a copycat. I won’t fret over this anymore. I’ve seen just how misplaced my problems really are compared to that of most my age. My lack of interest and comfort with others is only hurting everyone. For now I accept that I just don’t like being social very much and can’t do it naturally at all, no matter how much I’ve wanted to.
I’m ready to finally be on track and hopefully they won’t resort in avenues for stagnation or mere escapism, and the same goes for my passions. I’m not even close to being ready to be independent yet, but I won’t be dismayed by that fact either. I still struggle with severe self hatred daily no matter what, but I am using that struggle to my advantage as best as I can this time around.
I know that absolutely everything I’ve heard or seen is merely a different take on what I’ve done inadvertently to others who didn’t deserve it. I won’t lash out or complain about the motivations of others. Though I will accept them if others think it’s still worth it. I’ll just make sure to filter the excess garbage along with it.
I know now that I really was only glorifying anno and my other favorite people and works just to validate putting my own problems up on a pedestal for all to care about in a manner that wasn’t remotely relevant anywhere it hit, and totally irresponsible.
I’m not trying to look for more answers, stopgap measures, or avenues to work around any of this anymore. I understand exactly what kind of position I’m in. I realize the point is most likely not to satisfy anyone with a certain response or action, but rather to do the most dishonest and dissatisfying action possible given the circumstances. Since after all that’s what gfans and certain others were forced to resort to. Really by no fault of their own. Their strategy was only karma and a quickening to maturity.
And yet I’d been ignoring FLCL and Nadeko nearly the whole time to boot. Ramble attempt complete. Thank you for taking 18 months of my life away and permanently taking away all my followings and subscriptions. Give my back my privacy and security. While your at it cover my medical insurance and therapy sessions. I am now done with facades. I am still working to be ever more honest with myself despite the risks and trust issues.
Part 4
I am honestly putting in all my effort to move on from my bad habits. I blame no one but my self for allowing something of this magnitude to happen. Sooner or later something this severe was bound to happen. I'm begging you please just leave my life alone forever from now on. Don't push me into a corner where I'm even less stable or suicidal. I'd like to actually be independent at some point in my life.
Part 5
I am finally able to just accept everyone’s efforts for what they we’re really intended to be. Even if it involved taking my past, my inner demons, and worst fears and melding them into an apocalypse to get the point across. So please just finally accept my efforts. Stop before you tear apart any future I will ever have. I can still only see this as doing more harm than good now. Don’t make my lifelong fears any worse than you already have. I see no wrongdoing from anything I notice. I just can’t bear much more of it anymore.
I don’t want to have to be angry at anyone. I doubt there’s any way I’d be able to live with that guilt. I still don’t remotely like myself yet as it is. Please don’t force that. Be content with what you’ve done. I’m at the end of my rope and can barely manage to stay in limbo as is. Spare me from regression from this. I finally need hope and an ending to it.
Part 6
I wander just how long it’ll take for me to get over my trauma, lonesome nature, social ineptitude, and bad habits that you exaggerated and cranked up a million fold in the worst of ways, knowing the inevitable effects I’d worry about hearing day in and day out. Pure karma demons.
Part 7
Please just finally stop targeting me and accept when you've done enough. I don't have the courage or composure to bother risking reading into what you're aiming for at all anymore other than being just passive aggressive. Let it go for goodness sake. Give me some hope and liberation from your never ending torture. I'm begging you yet again.
Part 8
It’s all about being able to reach an objective vantage point and broadening your view of the world and people around you, is the lesson I should have learned long ago. What else is missing in my personality and social understanding? What am I still struggling up against or in conflict with? What have I still avoided addressing? Are my opposites that I could never grow into or relate to somehow within me yet? I guess really the only way to gain good judgment is to learn from bad ones. I’m far too harsh on myself and am too bitter and critical towards others in general. I reflect onto others what I can’t sympathize with as disgusting and only ill intent.
My self hatred needs help soon or it will destroy me. I’m trying not to take others burdens and responsibilities for what they’ve judged of being worthy of doing to me as my own. But it feels nearly impossible. Are my good efforts and honest intention only going to be punished for not cutting it to you? Do I have a bigger fall yet to come from you’re persistence? Judge me by my efforts to rebuild and redefine myself against great odds, not my disgraceful childhood and social problems.
Part 9
Cowspiracy and welcome to the nhk make me feel like glorified dog shit, and where is FLCL 2?
Part 10
Who knew willpower equates to $60,000? Now the real test begins.
Part 11
Maybe if I keep relentlessly punishing mistakes it'll turn into a bright white kind of right someday.
Part 12
SNAFU and WATAMOTE make me sneeze, and fences gives me ulcers.
Part 13
Everybody parent and child should read Far From The Tree.
Part 14
Damn me and my thick eyebrows. I am baka shinji.
Part 15
Everbody should read kazuya tsurumaki's a story of communication.
Part 16
Is ikari shinji a closer parallel to logan or tyrion lannister?
Part 17
Will Mamoru Hosoda's Mirai of the Future teach me how to stop being a brat or not?
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