@5Cats I do think that Subaru might be lesbian, and I think it would be far more interesting if she actually was (tho it would remind me too much to Araburu Kisetsu), but I don't think the author will be brave enough to do that (I hope I'm wrong). I kinda see a forced ship between she and one of the other guys (I hope I'm wrong, again). But that was not the explanation they give us to why Subaru was struggling so much. In fact, it was quite explicitly said that Subaru was depressed for how much she loved/cared about Kaoruko because of how she protected her when they were childs, and because she somehow felt too selfish because of that. It was so overly dramatic, that the problem with Subaru might be summarized as she being too gentle. I had to rewatch eps 4 and 6 because I doubted my own memory, thinking I was misremembering it, but no, that's exactly how things were.
In Subaru's own words: "I'm just the worst. After I spoke with Tsumugi-kun I spent every day fearful that he may have told her. I was anxious the whole time. As I was worrying about the fact that nothing was happening I realized Tsumugi-kun didn't tell Kaoruko about our conversation. And that's when a thought popped into my head. What if Tsumugi-kun never told her? If he kept quiet aboout it, then maybe Kaoruko would never come to hate me. But once I noticed this stain on me, it kept on growing. The guilt made it hard to even breathe [...] I wanted to get this weight off my chest. I'm such a devious person. And what's most unforgivable is that when Kaoruko didn't blame me, I felt genuinely relieved."
Like, jesus girl, why do you hate yourself so much? The whole drama with Subaru is that she thinks she doesn't deserved to be happy. And yes, I know that's a common trait in people with depression, but they never gave us any convincing reason of why she is sooooo depressed. It would only make a bit of sense if she was deeply in love with Kaoruko and trying to repress her own feelings (tho it would remind me too much to Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu), but as I said, that doesn't seem to be the case. Still, Subaru is by far my favourite character in this series, because even with that many flaws and unjustified dramatism, is the most interesting one.
About how much the boys mess with each other, Idk maybe is just a cultural thing, but in my school whenever there were rumors about one guy liking one girl, we would bring the topic on and on just to make fun of him. I never knew of any adolescent that's so caring and supportive of his classmates, not even his close friends. I just don't feel that "youth energy" on Kaoru Hana characters. And yeah, I never knew any adolescent that actually cared about test. And if you're telling me that Chidori students in particular are practilly all yankis, then it makes even less sense. And sports day thing sounds like a pretty lame excuse to me, as if they couldn't just play baseball any day. But again, maybe is a cultural thing, maybe in japan even scums like Chidori students care about test results, Idk. It just feels too far from the reality I lived at that age and that's why I can't connect with it.
Of course I know that the show has to skip the boring parts of every day life, but I think that if you just skip to the dramatic parts, then "character growth" feels a bit shallow. For me, the biggest flaw of Kaoru Hana is that "it started too late". Let me explain, we were told that Rintarou was kind of a somber guy, who always felt detached from society because of how he looked, and he didn't have friends, neither felt loved by his family... but it wasn't like that at all! Since the beggining they show us how supportive his parents are, how much he is loved not only by his close three friends, but by his whole classmates, and more importantly, how kind he was. It was never justified that Rintarou felt the way he felt. If the show started with Rintarou as a child, and we were shown how much he suffered for looking too intimidating, how much he struggled to make friends, anything that made us think he had actual problems, and how he learned to overcome them and became this type of kind-giant, then introduce Kaoruko after 2 or 3 episodes of building our protagonist, I would be so satisfied that Rintarou found his place in the world, and people who love and care for him. Nothing of that happened, and that's why every thought of Rintarou about how "miserable" he was and how much he appreciate his current situation... it just feels empty to me. There's literally no character development, because they skipped it. A 12 episode exposition of a character saying "I care so much about my friends" is not character development.
Now, I do understand why people like this show, because it's wholesome, it's cute, it's pretty, it's warm, call it whatever you like... but narrative and character wise, it's pretty mediocre. (and the part that I liked the most, was completely demolished in the last episode lol). For me, just because of CloverWorks doing the prettiest animation you can imagine as always, it is a 6/10. |