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To My Own Unknown Love


You’ll never know what it’s like for me
To love you but to never hold thee
All on my own I pine
To loneliness I resign
How much longer do I have to shed unnoticed tears?
How much longer until, my heartfelt cries, someone hears?

I write these melancholic lyrics to thine heart
Hoping that somehow you will hear mine own part
In the black emptiness of oblivion whence mine emotions disappeared
Your unattainable love and body I revered
Unsure of how to escape the pit of Hell
Where, without thee, I dwell

Seasons pass and flowers bloom
Yet here I tread, where the angels have stepped, in gloom
I love thine heart, mind, and soul
Yet ye are deaf to mine screams uncaring of the toll
I wish to hold thee in mine arms for all days
But you run away before the sunlight, my steps, betrays

I need thine heart too much
I long, on mine body, for thy touch
It pains me greatly to see you sad
The yearning to dry thy tears drives me stark-raving mad
Whenever I see you euphoric,
It inspires mine spirit to write many a choric

Maybe tis better if I were gone from this world
My chaotic mind is swirled
And there I spy the damning knife
With which I shall take mine life
I hold the knife poised at mine neck
My hands tremble. They’re a wreck

The ghost of mine mind wanders far
For there was no guiding star
My treasure hast no meaning anymore
The dark blade swipes, mine body falls to the floor
I cannot find the words to say my final goodbye
You were always so dear to me, love of mine eye

Black Heart Redemption

My name ist Terra.
I hath committed many heinous acts
Though I look it not, people see me a chimera
People think I hold Death’s icy axe

I hath murdered mine mother and her lover in their bed
Rivers of blood flowed from their limbs
No tears had I shed
Oblivious of the scene villagers sang their hymns

I ran amok setting fire to houses
Fulfilling some unknown need
Violently separating spouses
Watching them, with dead eyes, burn and bleed

I hung men of uncared birth
Slicing their bellies letting their guts fall to the floor
Their feet never again touching earth
Letting others, my acts, abhor

I killed kings and paupers alike
Just so I could survive
The feel of mine blade, upon bone, strike
These demises ever to contrive

My hands are forever dyed scarlet
Yet now I look back with guilt
Some rumored me to be a harlot
Though no seed, in me, had they spilt

A bright light surrounds me
For the first time in mine life, I am scared
Who can this be?
Could this be the earth’s laird?

“My child, ye hath strayed from me.
Amidst thy crimes I hath loved thine own.
Please return to me.
Claim thy place at my right hand on the throne.”

I cannot, but yet I cannot resist
My soul arises, upward to Heaven
Mine body disappears in the holy mist
My sword clattering to the landscape barren

My name ist Terra
I hath committed many heinous acts
Though I look it not, people see me a chimera
People think I hold Death’s icy axe