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Anime Relations: Baki: Most Evil Death Row Convicts Special Anime

Anime Relations: 3 Choume no Tama: Uchi no Tama Shirimasen ka?

Anime Relations: Dareka no Santa Claus

Anime Relations: Yoligongju Loopy

I know I said I'd delete more pictures but I'm lazy. In exchange, I'll delete apps again I guess.

There's a few things I need to finish and other things I just have to get back into so let's work on that.

Hahaha, it's kind of funny that I ended up messing up my routine this badly. Just when I was starting to get back into it too.

Oh yeah, don't forget about their birthdays in May. Since they went and did all that, maybe I should do something for once too. Not sure what I should do but I'll try to do something at least.

My emotions have been bugging me too much this year. I feel like I'm more emotional than usual this year. Not that it's such a bad thing, it's just kind of weird.

I mean, I even went and downloaded that again. Probably would've played it again too if not for my phone's lack of space.

Just saying you'll do things is easy and all so let's actually get things done this time! Even if it's not a lot.

Anime Relations: Seiyou Kottou Yougashiten: Antique

A tip to my future self: Don't join so much competitions and try to read ahead of the lessons pls

OTL

I've always felt annoyed when people try to guilt me into doing things but I guess that doesn't stop me from doing it. That being said, I'm not very good at it either so that's nice.

Overdid that thing really. I'm starting to think it'd be better to just continue the act when it's brought up instead of coming clean. In the end, I'm the only one who's losing out anyway.

At this rate, I'll end up like this forever. I'll try to resolve this thing by today. If I don't, I'll just go on with it I guess. Lying might be a good choice in this case. At least for now.

Anime Relations: Pâtisserie no Monster

I feel like I'm becoming more and more emotional. Just a downward slope of feeling sad and worthless.

It's not like that's how I feel all the time but at the very least, I'd rather not be so emotional that I end up lashing out at outsiders. To think I used to be quite proud of my ability to suppress my emotions too.

So I've just been reading all these manga, doujins, web novels/serials, light novels and even some old VNs to blow off some steam. It just doesn't satisfy me though. There's something missing.

Maybe it's about time I give up on this useless pride but in the end, I'm just no good at expressing my thoughts into words. I've tried but the frustration isn't worth it. I just want to give up on myself sometimes.

Ugh, you know, without this pride of mine, I wouldn't try this hard. It's not like I really care about what I stand to gain. I just don't want people to look down on me.

Makes me a bit proud to see this thing I've written up. It doesn't really help me much but at least I can feel a bit better about the whole "I have trouble expressing my thoughts" thing.