Lunaria_Eclipse's Blog

No clue what you'd call it but it explains how I feel about my new relationship(the first one that felt true since I broke up with that cheating fag) please read and comment!

Thinking of you and how long this will last. It's scaring, this feeling I have. I want to cry and let it all out, yet be strong for you. It's hard to stand this pain I feel. How can this be? Can this be real? A new feeling springs forth as you come near. Yet fear still lingers, and little do you know, my heart cries small, sorrowed yet joy filled tears, invisible to your untrained eyes. When we are parted the hours drag on, I wish to see you yet our daily lives are so far apart. I realize our distance is greater than that of some others, yet I feel so close. You tell me not to worry but it's so hard. Why does this happen? Why can't I relax? I trust you completely. I can't say I like you, that's an understatement. You see, I love you with all my heart. You see you've got me under your little spell, but still I worry. You're ex girlfriend is beautiful, she is so much better than me, but still you chose me, why? I'm not pretty, I'm not perfect, so why? Can you look me in the eyes and with a straight face say you love me? That there isn't any other girl? That you won't break my heart? My past is depressing, but losing you would shatter me for life. I look at you with only love in my eyes. I try to be the best I can be for you. But I can't change who I am for you, you've accepted me for who I am. The two year age difference isn't a problem, is it? My personality isn't a problem, is it? The words I cannot speak are my sin. The things I cannot do hopefully won't tear us apart. If it did I'd break to tiny unfixable pieces.

In your arms, I wish to be.
The love in your eyes, I wish to see.
Your soft silky hair, my fingers wish to touch.
Your soft lips, mine need so much.
Your sweet laugh, I work to hear.
Your voice a whisper, to my ear.
The sweet love you give, I need to receive.
For it is as important as the air I breathe.
My heart you saved
I'll be your slave.
Through the love an hate.
Like a sitting Dove, I will wait.

It's amusing how clueless you are, how little you know, Or can you see how much I love you?

Written By: Lunaria Eclipse (Brittney W.)
Dedicated To: Her boyfriend Zach
Written At: 2:48PM On Friday, November 28, 2008

I got a few complements about this before from some friends so I've decided to post it.... Sorry if it's not good... Eyes may bleed from it's horribleness. u.u
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Heart-To-Heart, Hand-In-Hand
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I can't and won't lie.
I'm sitting here thinking of you.
What did you think it wouldn't bother me and just pass by?
Well hun I'm sorry it won't work that way.
What did you think I'd do?
Hm.. Come back to you?
Sorry Sweetie it just won't happen this time.
I'm not your toy or little whore.
This time around I'll take a stand
You've been this problem's core.
You and your cheating ends here and now.
Weren't we supposed to start a new?
Well I guess that really didn't mean shit to you.
I can find another and just for kicks.
We'll smirk, laugh, and walk by heart-to-heart and hand-in-hand.
Does it hurt? I hope so.
Because love your getting what you deserved so just go back to your whore.
You see others told me I could do better than you.
Well now I've listen and I'm taking a stand.
And baby I can't let it slide anymore.
I'm not your toy or little whore.
I've found the core.
I'll break right through.
Then fix this problem and get rid of you.
When I find another don't be surprised to see.
My new love and I.
When we walk by heart-to-heart and hand-in-hand.
Right before your very eyes.

Written By: Lunaria Eclipse (Brittney W.)
Dedicated To: Her ex Jason S.
Written At: 7:45 am On Wednesday, August 6th, 2008

~Note~ I'd like to hear what you thought of it even if the comments aren't good so please give me your opinion. Thank you for taking the time to read my poem. ^-^;;