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So today i read All Rounder Meguru 56. The thing is i experienced what happen in that chapter around the same time it was released. In the chapter Meguru losses yet anther fight after his hardest training camp yet. After the fight he questioned himself "Why am i doing MMA (Mixed Martial Arts) in the first place? Am i wasting my time?" he thought to himself "I'm not even good, but i feel like i have to be stronger" Those are the exact events and thoughts that happen to me and went through my mind. Just like Meguru i lost yet anther fight even after training my hardest for weeks and weeks. I gave up so much for training, I had no time for friends, no time for myself. I train, come home, try to do some work and pass out. I was so frustrated. To add to my frustration, i felt like i was improving as a fighter, my technique was better, my conditioning was better. But my technique was sloppy and i was gasses out by round 2. In the chapter after the fight Meguru isolates himself, thinks and questions himself and starts to cry out of anger and confusion. That's exactly what i did after the fight.

Its kinda weird, this all happen to me a few days before the chapter was released. Anyway, if you read this then thank you. I don't know why I'm doing a blog but i guess ill do weekly MMA blogs. Its really for myself. If you did read this and would like to read more in the future, let me know and I'll read your blogs if you want.

Thank You Oss!